becoming an entire person
is an insurmountable task
tossing the barrier that i built
to the side
leaving me exposed
admitting fault
rekindling faded out relationships
revealing why you vanished
and how you reached that precipice
deciding to turn back
for one more go at life
Mar 9, 2015
Mar 9, 2015 at 12:28 PM UTC
living a godless live
is one without the fears
of regular enjoyments.
to live a godless life
is to see everything
for what it really is.
Feb 27, 2015
Feb 27, 2015 at 7:36 PM UTC
keeping people in my life is next to impossible.
they leave
they always do.
then i'm left
standing alone
feeling hollow.
with no options of escape
from this god awful life.
left with no one to turn to.
but self pity doesn't get you far.
so i soldier on
with a forever emptiness.
Feb 27, 2015
Feb 27, 2015 at 2:16 PM UTC
i'm ******
i can't tell people anything
i can't show
how melancholy i am.
asking for help in a floundering family
making things worse for those i love
in a family full of mental illness
letting them know that i've got it too
i can't do that to them.
i'm supposed to be the normal one
i can't say that i'm almost always thinking of death
so i contain it
and suffer in silence.
it seems like the easiest option
for everyone around me
i abandon my friends
so they won't know
and i only say the bare minimum
to those around me.
he doesn't know
that i've been suicidal
none of them do
i just keep quiet while life passes me by.
Dec 5, 2014
Dec 5, 2014 at 7:32 PM UTC
some days
i feel like i've got nowhere to go
some days
i think i have too many choices
none of which
i want.
most days
i'm alone
people make me tired
most days
anxiety
shrivels me
and depression
makes me stand still.
so i stay alone
not headed anywhere
scared and perpetually
lonely.
Dec 5, 2014
Dec 5, 2014 at 7:25 PM UTC
i have dreams
of one day
being totally free,
of anyone
and all responsibilities.
to exist
just because,
and to have no agenda.
i strive to be alone,
and purposeless.
Aug 20, 2014
Aug 20, 2014 at 6:23 PM UTC
If I had something to save
Maybe I would feel
Remorse, anything.
But I became numb,
Pushing anyone who cared
Far away.
Now I'm alone,
With nothing left to lose
Except for you.
The man that keeps me here,
Without whom, I would be dead.
A harsh reality
For someone who lost their
Hope.
Apr 9, 2014
Apr 9, 2014 at 2:16 AM UTC
life is pointless
when you have nothing.
every ounce of happiness
is just evading you.
lying on the kitchen floor
you reach maximum
desperation.
your tiny frame
being wracked
by heavy hitting sobs.
your helpless fiancee
cries too
out of fear for your life.
you want to drown slowly
in the bottle
so maybe you'll feel
something,
anything
before you depart.
Apr 9, 2014
Apr 9, 2014 at 2:12 AM UTC
it's nights like this
that i see the true sadness
that seeps into my life,
leaving me drained
a nod to my lack of enthusiasm.
my life
isn't important to me,
my willingness
to carry on
is not there.
when i'm gone
no one notices,
i do not exist
i am
invisible
to
everyone.
Apr 9, 2014
Apr 9, 2014 at 2:06 AM UTC
poems are supposed to come from passion,
but
i don't have any passion when
you're gone.
you breathe life
into my dull life
that i refuse to go through
without you by my side.
all you need to do
is come home
and hold me in your arms
once again.
Dec 11, 2013
Dec 11, 2013 at 1:28 AM UTC