in 5 days i’ll be 12 months older than the age i thought i would end everything at
my tedious timeline
i’ve lived 3 lives and never got a childhood
Nov 23, 2019
Nov 23, 2019 at 11:04 PM UTC
home is watercolor sunsets and heatstroke
street lights on the river we all dreamed of jumping in and drifting through
the saltwater dark nights spent talking about what it would be like to get away
i crave burning orange peels and christmas’s that sweat like summer
now my nose burns from melted ice during smoke breaks
the people here are painted with gratitude toward the nothing they’ve experienced
-home doesn’t have a name
Oct 31, 2019
Oct 31, 2019 at 12:27 PM UTC
together we touched forever
it was soft and melted between our lips
the bittersweet bite of promises made out of spite
two souls that tried too soon
i stared at the future and sky eyes met mine
Oct 28, 2019
Oct 28, 2019 at 10:39 PM UTC
i still wake for you
in the first few moments of that groggy eyed bliss - you’re still mine
as my bedding starts to look familiar
the memories that i force myself to forget hit my chest
throwing my frail body into every empty space
before all i’m full of is you
again
Oct 4, 2019
Oct 4, 2019 at 7:52 PM UTC
our cycle is a spark
this fast burn symphony always leaves me empty
craving
i’ve tried to fill the hole with every fuel i can think of
your eyes are the only thing that make me ignite
sickly and surviving in a constant state of smolder
honey, we can’t keep living like we’re fireproof
Jul 21, 2019
Jul 21, 2019 at 1:27 AM UTC
12:33 am
sitting on the front of a subaru
it’s rotting from the outside in
im screaming in the same direction
it’s all centered
everything i feel is inside me and i won’t let it out
it’s my best friends birthday
i told her i loved her and i meant it
May 14, 2019
May 14, 2019 at 7:58 PM UTC
will i accept my surface level flaws
my blatant laziness and worrisome nature
the too tired slack in my skin
a body that curves and hugs my bones imperfectly
will i let my self perceived doubt control my thoughts
maybe i will today
but tomorrow i am beautiful
i am soft
i am sorrow
i am new
Apr 23, 2019
Apr 23, 2019 at 9:03 PM UTC
thoughts ricochet off the outer lining of my brain at 4 am
the rupture is deafening yet my family sleeps softly in the other room
the recoil is my seized sense of self
double vision leads to destruction
intrusive and impulsive
those are the words i’ll use tomorrow when i apologize to myself in the mirror
however apology implies regret
and when the quiet night takes its toll
the morning dew will wash away my midnight sin
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 4:14 AM UTC
the girl who never had it all felt numb every sunday evening
because another week had passed and she still wasn’t living
a clockwork routine of staccato
detached from reality
the build up is beautiful
but when you only give half of your heart the ****** is just another week gone
a monday meltdown of never finding your place
touch starvation
Mar 29, 2019
Mar 29, 2019 at 8:40 PM UTC
she preaches about quitting smoking while lighting a cigarette in her mouth
i’ve never met a person who reminds me more of the sun
vibrant pastels and hair bleach
red lipstick and fur coats
this type of love lasts a lifetime
fleet wood mac hums to the tune of our nicotine fueled conversations
it feels good to be the ones you love
Mar 29, 2019
Mar 29, 2019 at 12:39 PM UTC