grae - Hello Poetry

she seldom rests or feels secure i wish she could catch a break i wish i could tell you what she goes through but i don't know, you might think she's crazy because i sometimes do right now she's pushing you away i wish i could make her believe "it's okay, you don't have to go through this every day" but she doesn't know any better she just wants to breakdown maybe i can just trick her stop her before she spirals figure out what she needs and remind her "these thoughts aren't you, they're a response learned from the things you've been through"

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Jul 8, 2021

Jul 8, 2021 at 1:22 PM UTC

my mind is plagued

she seldom rests or feels secure i wish she could catch a break i wish i could tell you what she goes through but i don't know, you might think she's crazy because i sometimes do right now she's pushing you away i wish i could make her believe "it's okay, you don't have to go through this every day" but she doesn't know any better she just wants to breakdown maybe i can just trick her stop her before she spirals figure out what she needs and remind her "these thoughts aren't you, they're a response learned from the things you've been through"

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TW: suicidal ideation **** it all don't wanna do this no more everything makes me feel small like i have no control they'd care if i was gone but they don't know what's going on i'm trying to be strong while they act like nothings wrong i can't live like this anymore yet i don't know what i want but i know i don't want to be here i can't escape it anymore i've passed the point of no return every time i drink or smoke i feel my head and chest burn thinking how my life isn't what i chose you'd think by now i'd have learned but unfortunately not i continue to take wrong turns it will probably get worse until I'm forced to pretend like i believe in myself so i'm not at my end it's my time to build the life that i want but i don't know how to get it without working my *** off

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Jun 25, 2021

Jun 25, 2021 at 3:45 PM UTC

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TW: suicidal ideation **** it all don't wanna do this no more everything makes me feel small like i have no control they'd care if i was gone but they don't know what's going on i'm trying to be strong while they act like nothings wrong i can't live like this anymore yet i don't know what i want but i know i don't want to be here i can't escape it anymore i've passed the point of no return every time i drink or smoke i feel my head and chest burn thinking how my life isn't what i chose you'd think by now i'd have learned but unfortunately not i continue to take wrong turns it will probably get worse until I'm forced to pretend like i believe in myself so i'm not at my end it's my time to build the life that i want but i don't know how to get it without working my *** off

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today you left but you pushed me away a while ago i go back to the night we met in my dreams sittin' on your floor lookin' into each other's eyes and smilin' i replay that image in my head as if it meant somethin' but what did it actually mean to you we were just drunk trippin' on shrooms i could've easily loved you if you let me the one night you opened up to me my heart broke for you you trusted me and i kissed the tears off your cheeks i cared about you more than myself it still wasn't enough you pushed me away and only called me past 2 am i told myself to stop tryin' because you did the night before you left we talked in your empty room i couldn't help but smile as you talked to me you said if we were up later we could hang out then you left without sayin' goodbye

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May 22, 2017

May 22, 2017 at 8:16 PM UTC

gone

today you left but you pushed me away a while ago i go back to the night we met in my dreams sittin' on your floor lookin' into each other's eyes and smilin' i replay that image in my head as if it meant somethin' but what did it actually mean to you we were just drunk trippin' on shrooms i could've easily loved you if you let me the one night you opened up to me my heart broke for you you trusted me and i kissed the tears off your cheeks i cared about you more than myself it still wasn't enough you pushed me away and only called me past 2 am i told myself to stop tryin' because you did the night before you left we talked in your empty room i couldn't help but smile as you talked to me you said if we were up later we could hang out then you left without sayin' goodbye

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you smiled at me i could feel the tears coming but i smiled back

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Mar 6, 2017

Mar 6, 2017 at 12:50 PM UTC

haiku

you smiled at me i could feel the tears coming but i smiled back

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we're forced to live these lives we don't even enjoy lives that we can't necessarily fix drinking our pain away being strangers with the ones we love

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Nov 29, 2015

Nov 29, 2015 at 10:56 AM UTC

Untitled

we're forced to live these lives we don't even enjoy lives that we can't necessarily fix drinking our pain away being strangers with the ones we love

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you don't know how much something is bothering you until you're drunk and your mind is wrapped around it engulfed in it i'm melting into my sheets but you're still in my thoughts i can't walk straight but i can still remember the last thing you said to me

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May 26, 2015

May 26, 2015 at 8:32 PM UTC

Untitled

you don't know how much something is bothering you until you're drunk and your mind is wrapped around it engulfed in it i'm melting into my sheets but you're still in my thoughts i can't walk straight but i can still remember the last thing you said to me

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i still think about the day you left i never knew a pain like that before you said goodbye so easily and visited as you pleased and i opened the door to you each time you knocked this pain didn't go away while i was sleeping while i was laughing i gave you all of me and you took it gladly just to use and dispose you put me through agony

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Mar 13, 2015

Mar 13, 2015 at 9:26 PM UTC

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i still think about the day you left i never knew a pain like that before you said goodbye so easily and visited as you pleased and i opened the door to you each time you knocked this pain didn't go away while i was sleeping while i was laughing i gave you all of me and you took it gladly just to use and dispose you put me through agony

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if you only knew how often I stay awake at night thinking of us i think of memories so sweet they make me feel warm inside reminding me of how much i loved you how much i loved the person you used to be they bring a sad smile upon my lips how long until i will stop thinking of you like this

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Feb 2, 2015

Feb 2, 2015 at 12:07 AM UTC

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if you only knew how often I stay awake at night thinking of us i think of memories so sweet they make me feel warm inside reminding me of how much i loved you how much i loved the person you used to be they bring a sad smile upon my lips how long until i will stop thinking of you like this

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your love for me changed like the colors of leaves in the fall green to yellow yellow to orange orange to brown slowly dying until one day it was carried by the wind and fell softly to the ground the cold came and the rain as the leaves became mush in the dirt my love is an evergreen the bristles do not fall the trees do not wither they stand strong all year long

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Dec 10, 2014

Dec 10, 2014 at 8:20 PM UTC

Untitled

your love for me changed like the colors of leaves in the fall green to yellow yellow to orange orange to brown slowly dying until one day it was carried by the wind and fell softly to the ground the cold came and the rain as the leaves became mush in the dirt my love is an evergreen the bristles do not fall the trees do not wither they stand strong all year long

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i am afraid of fall and winter. i am afraid of the dropping temperature. the trees slowly withering. i am afraid of the short days. and the dark mornings. i am afraid of reliving the memories we made in the fall. and how we broke in the winter. my heart goes cold like the weather.

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Nov 25, 2014

Nov 25, 2014 at 8:41 PM UTC

seasonal affective disorder

i am afraid of fall and winter. i am afraid of the dropping temperature. the trees slowly withering. i am afraid of the short days. and the dark mornings. i am afraid of reliving the memories we made in the fall. and how we broke in the winter. my heart goes cold like the weather.

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