My shattered heart
lies lifelessly on the floor
With no one
but myself to clean up the mess
Is this what a heart break feels like?
having no one to help
When you need it most
because this is what happens to me
All the time
Jul 2, 2018
Jul 2, 2018 at 1:14 PM UTC
Tonight the stars do not shine for me
Nor have they ever
Today the sun does not shine for me
Nor has it ever
This evening the crickets do not croak for me
Nor have they ever
Tonight the moon does the rise for me
Nor has it ever
Everyday nobody cares for me
Nor will they ever
May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 11:48 PM UTC
The voice in my head
Is a cruel monster
Ripping away at my brain
And filling the open wounds with horrible thoughts
As the wounds heal
I can hear his voice
Screaming out to me
Telling me murderous thoughts
When will this stop?
The pain, agony and brutality
I have no one here to help me
Because no one dares to reach their arm out
And pull me from the fires of hell
So here I am
Fighting my own battles
Day in and day out
Hoping I come out alive
When will I be okay again?
When will he leave my head?
May 6, 2018
May 6, 2018 at 9:09 AM UTC
My mind is deranged
Filled with demons and sin
Making me believe the things I do will help me
If my brain was not held by the arms of the fallen angel
Would I actually be happy?
Or would I still think the thoughts that haunt me everyday
What is real
And what is not
Will never become known to me
For my mind has taken over my life
May 3, 2018
May 3, 2018 at 1:07 PM UTC
Tonight I might slip
Into the Devil's hands
I don't feel God
Reaching out to me
I hear a battle in my head
And Satan is winning
Please help me
Before it's too late
Apr 26, 2018
Apr 26, 2018 at 11:06 PM UTC
As the night comes alive
And the demons come out to play
They viscously attack my mind
Filling my brain with dangerous thoughts
Only a crazy person would think of
Does that make me crazy?
I try to drown them out
And for now I believe it works
Until I close my eyes
And that is when their fun really begins
This is not the end of something ugly
Because this is only the start
Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 11:27 PM UTC
As I lay in bed
With not a single feeling in my body
I lay there
Numb
Wondering when this feeling will dissipate
I try to feel some type of feeling
But I simply cannot
My mind, body and soul will not allow me to
So I lay there waiting to sail away into my mind
To wake up with a new emtion
Apr 1, 2018
Apr 1, 2018 at 11:17 PM UTC
As his ocean blue eyes
Stare into my coffee brown eyes
His lips whisper words of love on mine so delicately
And as his arms barricade around my fragile body
He protects me from the demons lurking around my broken body
As his is soul runs through my veins
Filling my body with the love I always yearned for
He kisses my broken pieces and fills them with love
He is living proof of a miracle in desguise
As the night creeps upon us
And we are forced to split paths
I know I am safe
From the demons surrounding me
From his every lasting protection and gentle love
Mar 4, 2018
Mar 4, 2018 at 12:00 AM UTC
As millions of broken pieces fall from my heart
Like leaves falling from a tree on an autumn day
And a tsunami brews in my eyes
Ready to destroy everything that comes in its path
I lay silently in the dark
Wondering what I did wrong
Not realizing
It was him all along
Because when you are deep in love
Deeper than the deepest depths of the ocean
You never see the other person's mistakes
You only see your own
Feb 28, 2018
Feb 28, 2018 at 2:47 PM UTC
The words that drip from my mouth
Are not lust
But words of love that I long for
As I search the earth
For another lonely soul
I stumble across yours
You give me words of love and life
And in that very moment I believed you loved me
But I was amiss
Because what my love was blinding me from was the fact that
You only talked lustfully to me
And here as I lay dying on the ground weak and weary
I finally realize that
You truly did not love my soul
But everything else
Feb 27, 2018
Feb 27, 2018 at 10:09 AM UTC