One sits
She’s so haphazard
And the other floats
Also, I guess, haphazard
One crushes the grass and rips up roots—
She plays
The other brushes wings, kisses the earth
Drifts away
Jul 22, 2019
Jul 22, 2019 at 7:09 PM UTC
Who Am I
I think a lot about this question
Who am I?
And who am I, really?
I’m just a girl
Who looks like she’s ten
And is really a woman
I’m a college graduate (oh my!)
Who has a great path set out for her
But isn’t sure it’s the one for her
I’m just a dreamer
Who thinks about bugs and books
Being a park ranger, a writer, maybe president
But prefers to hang out with her dog
I’m just a tryer
Who makes a lot of mistakes
Who used to believe embarrassment was the best teacher
But now thinks it’s probably just the fastest
I’m also a sister
Both an older and a younger one
Who loves her siblings
But also hates them
And desperately wants to be a good example for them
I’m a traveller
Who has been to more countries than states
But really would rather stay at home
And read a good book, or watch Lord of the Rings
I’m a worrier
And God, do I worry
I worry about my family, and my pets
I worry about money and losing my skills
I worry about meeting people and embarrassing myself
But often I just worry about that question,
Who am I?
Jul 11, 2019
Jul 11, 2019 at 5:53 PM UTC
i am not much of an artist
but sometimes, i doodle
and today i found in my notes
a beautiful sunflower
gold and yellow and brightest green
so much sunshine
and yet
carved over its face
i'd drawn a blue frown
May 16, 2019
May 16, 2019 at 3:41 PM UTC
I drew a smiley face on the window
And as I watched the fog fade away
I wondered what it meant
May 2, 2019
May 2, 2019 at 8:32 PM UTC
Do you remember being a kid
And video games meant everything?
When you died, or lost,
It was the end of the world.
It was just fundamentally wrong
To say, “It’s just a game.”
But it was just a game.
None of it was real.
And yet you shoved so many people away
Because they didn’t “get it.”
You were so angry and you shouted
And you blamed everyone else
When really, who else’s fault could it be
Other than your own?
Apr 13, 2019
Apr 13, 2019 at 8:07 PM UTC
it's mind bafflingly frustrating to know
that the reasons i like you
are the same reasons i hate you
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 10:25 PM UTC
Thanks to my obsession with you
I've not been my usual self
And thanks to my obsession with you
I've not been a good student
And thanks to my obsession with you
I've not been the best of sisters
And thanks to my obsession with you
I've not been able to sleep
And thanks to my obsession with you
I've not been able to think
And thanks to my obsession with you
I've not been able to focus
But thanks to my obsession with you
I've at least had happy moments
Mar 31, 2019
Mar 31, 2019 at 12:44 AM UTC
My life has already far exceeded my expectations
Not in the sense I’ve done all I set out to do
Or accomplished all my wildest dreams
But in the sense it’s lasted longer
Than the storybooks said it would
And beyond the point I understood
And now I’ve all this time on my hands
And lists of things to fulfill
But most of them tedious, boring
Or not really worth my time
Not exactly what my childhood dreams projected
My life has become something unexpected
Mar 24, 2019
Mar 24, 2019 at 11:29 PM UTC
What I can't seem to figure out
Is that
When I look at you
My heart lights up
It burns bright and fierce
Sharp and strong and thrilling
And yet
My mouth turns down
My eyes frown
And the singing flame in my heart
Burns like shame across my cheeks
The gears in my head freeze
Even as my heart begins to melt
My flesh crawls
Even as it tingles
At the thought
Of you on my skin
I want you close
Even as I want you far
I want to let you in
But I can't
Mar 23, 2019
Mar 23, 2019 at 7:35 AM UTC
loss of appetite
broken flight
as you leave my
sight
now i've cried
so you might
ask me why
quite, as if you and i'd
spend the night
but instead i try
to fight
the feelings inside
that scratch and bite
eating away my
light
and boy, i've strived
with all my might
thinking that i
am worth your time
Mar 21, 2019
Mar 21, 2019 at 10:02 AM UTC