I told myself that all I needed was time
to find happiness.
And time delivered what it could:
everything that can make you happy.
Yet, here I am, hours after sun set,
consumed by the guilt of still
feeling lost in the depths of misery.
But how could I tell them? In my mind, I
see their confusion contort into contempt.
And so I sit in the shadows of the past,
jealous of reason.
Jul 27, 2022
Jul 27, 2022 at 2:05 PM UTC
A life
looking for
happiness
in the lives of others:
a million pieces
broken
and reshaped
into something unsuitable;
into something
that saw
solace
in quiet surrender.
Into something naive enough
to believe that
only I could shape my own
happiness.
While wanting for nothing,
you showed me that
I can just be
me.
It's
true:
the shape of happiness is
you.
Jul 31, 2020
Jul 31, 2020 at 12:28 AM UTC
You!
You made a liar out of me:
I told myself that I didn't need you,
that this was it,
a life in service to solitude,
unfit for happiness.
But I caught the liar.
Silenced him.
For now
Nov 1, 2017
Nov 1, 2017 at 6:48 PM UTC
Little one,
broken bodied,
crippled mind,
I took you;
and when the rain kissed your cheek,
I sheltered you with my fingers;
yet I still felt your tears fall to my palm,
and heard the discord in your song;
so I rebuilt your wings
to end your melancholy madness,
but the sky would not have you;
it could not have you
for from 'neath my hand,
you saw bars,
immense and inescapable;
engulfed by a cavern,
tended by echoed lunacy
Your absolution
mine.
Jun 13, 2017
Jun 13, 2017 at 8:50 PM UTC
I heard him say that she was the most beautiful
woman in the world
I looked at her and knew that she wasn't.
I heard him say it again and again
-day in,
day out-
and I still could not understand
until I met the most beautiful woman in the world.
Jun 13, 2017
Jun 13, 2017 at 5:25 PM UTC
A moment entered for an eternity;
a belief that departure would be at my own design
A moment broken into infinite pieces;
glimpses of another time along serrated edges
A moment forged into a hushed silhouette;
an attempt to cure solitude
And so I concede to this moment
as an eternal citizen.
Feb 19, 2017
Feb 19, 2017 at 6:54 PM UTC
Fixated
on your cold embrace,
and the comfort of your calculated whispers,
coaxing me into your paradise;
Enveloped
by your delirium;
Your toll exact:
Release by ruination.
Sep 5, 2016
Sep 5, 2016 at 7:24 PM UTC
I wander between worlds,
Each one as before:
Vast and vacant,
Save for a lake
And you;
I cheat and shirk my bonds along the edges of your mastery,
But your grasp is
Inescapable;
Your perfect reflection stretched out before me
And in a maddened frenzy
I have drowned you a thousand times, and now once more;
Beneath the surface,
Your face serene;
You rise again,
A smile etched between your cheeks,
Sinister by design,
For it is your turn now.
Mar 26, 2016
Mar 26, 2016 at 11:21 PM UTC
Five feet down in an open box,
a twinkle from the set of sleeping figurines caught my eye
They were animals -an assortment
of dogs, horses, hippos and all.
A silver cat, emerald eyes embedded,
midst a golden throng.
I touched it;
It was warm, not like the others
It shivered and alive it came, snagging
my skin on a razor claw
as it leaped to run on four then two.
She passed between this world and the next as if boundaries were nothing.
I dared to follow,
finding myself enveloped by the light of a winter sun,
the air cold and crisp,
the soft snow stinging my feet.
I sat beside her;
I glimpsed a jade version of me
as she smiled at this parallel paradise.
Her hand brushed my cheek and I laughed
at a touch so kind and delicate.
Jan 29, 2016
Jan 29, 2016 at 4:56 PM UTC