You made me punch a wall
I’ve never done that before
You make me whole
I’ve never had a stable home
You make me wanna fight
I’ve never liked arguments
You make me mad
And I hate you for it
You infuriate me
I shake when I think of it
You
I can’t even explain
I love you so **** much
I hate it all the same
You stop my anxiety
Yet you cause my attacks
You lifted my depression
Yet make me so low
I can’t breathe without you
I can’t breathe when your here
I’ve run out of air
But I’m surrounded by trees
I can’t see the stars but I’m living in the night
A nocturnal love
A trippy tale
Inhale the high
‘Until the end of time’
‘Until the universe dies’
‘Until every atoms passed its time’
Was I not supposed to say?
How you make my heart hurt
How you make my soul scream
How when we’re lay together like that
You fuel my everything
‘ I push you cause I wanna see you go far ‘
So why do I feel like pulling away
I’m wasting away
You came so quickly
And left even faster
But hey maybe I’m just lost in my ways
But maybe I’m scared of love
But maybe my hearts covered in rust
Maybe it’s a different sort of lust
Aug 8, 2018
Aug 8, 2018 at 5:53 PM UTC
I cut the pain away, I cut you off as well
how can I survive, when all I know is hell
I've seen the world burn down, I've seen my self decay
but what should I do, when my reality fades away?
Tell me it'll be alright, tell me the morning is on its way
hold my hand forevermore, and keep the loneliness at bay
The pain rushes in with the tide,
and I feel so alone now, without you by my side
the darkness is whispering sweet dreams of mine,
but what am I supposed to do
when the darkness comes inside?
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 2:16 PM UTC
Didn’t realise you were everything I was looking for
Didn’t know that it was you right from the start
Didn’t know someone could ever feel like home
Cause now I’m all alone
And it’s your body that I’m missing
It’s your lips that I’m craving
It’s your smile it’s illuminating
It’s your heart and it’s overwhelming
I’ll never need anymore
But when you show up at my door
Your all I’m living for
A future with you could repair my past
A lifetime with you and that’s all I ask
For me your perfect
My one true desire
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 2:14 PM UTC
I remind myself of a flower.
I constantly grow, getting stronger, much stronger but then my faith and hope withers away. You were my water. I needed you or I felt sick, I dried up and died without you, but my seeds will be planted once again, just to die again.
Aug 3, 2018
Aug 3, 2018 at 1:59 AM UTC
It’s not just the song that kills me, it’s the way I listened to the lyrics while talking to you.
It’s not just the song that kills me, it’s the way I smiled when I heard it. When I heard it my brain turned those lyrics into your beautiful face.
It’s not just the song that kills me, it’s the way it reminds me of the pain you caused me. The heartbreak, the embarrassment, the pure anger.
It’s not just the song that kills me, it’s you.
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 9:30 PM UTC
Something about you is perfect
Everything about you feels like home
Your light it’s picturesque
Your beauty I confess
I’m absolutely in love
With something about you
Jul 31, 2018
Jul 31, 2018 at 9:29 PM UTC
Sometimes at night.
I look at the glistening sky.
The sky shines bright with thousands of stars.
Each one of them reminds me of you.
One star is your eye, shining when you’re happy.
Another one is your mouth, your pearly teeth when you smile.
Yet another star for your big, blooming heart.
And one more, a flashing star, for your silky laugh.
Sometimes we meet in my dreams.
We hold hands and dance on a road of stars.
We count the stars as we step.
And by the end of the road, I’ve woken up.
These stars and these dreams are all I have.
Since you live across the sea.
But know that I would travel far and wide.
Just to hear your laugh again.
You make me so happy I can barely breathe.
It’s hard to describe the way you make me feel.
Even through poetry.
You leave me wordless.
That’s why this poem.
Is a bit messy.
A bit wild.
Pretty all over the place.
Because there are so few words.
To describe how special.
And important.
You are to me.
I know I say it a lot.
But I really do love you.
And the day you said it back.
Was the best day of my life.
These stars and these dreams.
They’re enough for now.
Because one day.
I’ll be there.
Taking a plane across the world.
Just to see you smile.
Then those stars won’t compare.
To the most beautiful sight before me.
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 9:44 AM UTC
To think I called you family
To think you’re my brother
To think that now it’s were
To think how you destroyed her
To think that all your mates now think your fake
To think how much your mum protects your fate
To think how much longer this will drag
To think where you’ll be in 5 years time
To think about how it all went wrong
To think that we were destined from the start
To think that our parents done the same
Surely man like you’d think that was enough
Enough to stop the scale tipping
Enough to stop our lives becoming
Enough to keep us going on living
Enough to keep us away from the streets
Enough too keep us on our feet
Enough too keep us all clean
Enough too not destroy our dreams
Enough to keep us together till the end of things
Enough I guess it’s just a memory
Jul 20, 2018
Jul 20, 2018 at 9:41 AM UTC