To the girls who are secretly so broken
You WILL be alright
I know you have scars on your soul
Maybe your heart
Possibly your wrists
None of this is your fault
And even if you think it is
Let it go
Not that you can, that easily
But try
I know you are broken
I know you're not okay
Especially when people ask how you are and you answer "I'm fine"
When what you really mean is "I'm alive"
But what do you really care about your own survival anymore
Well I just want you to know
There is beauty in broken glass
And to me
There is immeasurable beauty
In broken girls
So don't you ever forget
You cannot be defined by pain
You're too beautiful for that
Stay strong, broken girl
Nothing is ever really broken
Dec 24, 2014
Dec 24, 2014 at 9:16 PM UTC
I should've asked
more questions.
I should've asked
about your intentions
I should've asked
what the kisses were for
I should've asked
why was I getting your attention more
I should've..
I should've..
I should've..
now your over there just fine.
never wanting to be mine.
now im here.
lost. drifting.
cant stop smoking.
cant stop avoiding.
to be honest,
I shouldn't have expected such happiness.
guards up & keep wondering.
Dec 23, 2014
Dec 23, 2014 at 7:06 PM UTC
lost my ways
lost in my teenage days
boys on my mind & in my ear.
my parents wondering if I could hear.
friends coming & going
but I still manage to keep on flowing.
treating school as a joke
watch yourself, don't choke.
im watching these people play a game
instead of trying to get to know a persons name
why ya'll have to act the same?
such a shame.
but now im back
back for the better
this, a letter.
to remind myself to never lose
& go by the expectations I choose
no distractions
this is my time to prove myself,
with my actions.
Aug 25, 2014
Aug 25, 2014 at 10:05 PM UTC
the sting it brings to your heart
the water it brings to your eyes
the sickness it brings to your stomach
So, how does it feel?
feeling what you have done to me?
do you enjoy the pain?
now suddenly you feel this way.
now you feel the regret.
now you feel disease you gave to me.
I was always there for you.
I gave you my trust.
I gave you my happiness.
& you crushed it with me along with it.
NO !
no , there's no more chances.
NO!
no, there's no more pity.
NO!
no, there's no more sympathy.
NO!
there is no more.
I cant take this anymore.
So, how does it feel?
how does it feel like to be like me?
how does it feel to see, what you made me to be?
how could you betray the ONLY girl
that gave you nothing but her love ?
her life to fulfill your happiness?
just to see your smile?
just to feel your touch?
just you.
& you betrayed me.
How does it feel silly boy?
to lose the only girl that loved you as much
as I did.
Just tell me.
How does it feel?
How does it feel.
Oct 13, 2013
Oct 13, 2013 at 2:48 PM UTC
" are you alright? "
I don't know am I ?
do I look like it?
does it seem like it?
do I act like it?
am I alright?
you tell me.
Leave me alone!
leave me alone!
im so numb I cant feel the pain anymore!
Go away!
go away!
please please, why wont you walk away?
Cant you see it?
CANT YOU SEE IT!
I don't smile like I used to.
laugh like I used to.
love like I used to.
Are you just playing?
does it look like I can handle this?
does it look like im strong enough?
every second.
I cry more.
I sigh more.
I want to die more.
every minute
I scream more.
I sleep more.
every hour
I punch the walls more.
I count my scars more.
every day
cant you see the look in my eyes?
so now you tell me,
does it look like im alright?
Sep 5, 2013
Sep 5, 2013 at 7:23 PM UTC
I want to feel the sensation
of screaming.
of singing.
I want to feel the vibrations
ring through my finger tips
of an electric guitar,
to my hand
up my arm
& harmonize together in my head.
from the thunder beats of the drums.
from the screeches of the crowd
to the friends behind the stage.
the screams through the speakers.
the rumble of my feet
as I stomp the stage
to please my desire to become insane.
to become free.
I am who I am.
I raise the metal sign in the air.
I raise my middle fingers in the air.
I raise my fists in the air.
I smile with sweat racing down my face
down my back.
I want to feel the sensation
of screaming.
of singing.
I will take the stage.
I will amaze the crowd.
I am such a metal head.
Aug 15, 2013
Aug 15, 2013 at 3:39 PM UTC
I want to fight.
I want to cry.
I want to scream.
im tired of holding this inside me.
the wolf inside howls with pain.
howls with longing.
howls with rage.
I want to punch the walls.
break the windows.
throw away the memories.
where is my voice?
where is my strength?
where is the air?
I growl with frustration.
I claw with confusion
I howl with rage.
I breath with sadness.
i refuse to contain it any longer.
run free!
run away!
save yourself precious beast,
show yourself.
show your rage.
Aug 10, 2013
Aug 10, 2013 at 7:07 PM UTC
nothing has ever hurt more.
word after word
sentence after sentence
it hits me.
breath after breath
excuse after excuse
makes it worse.
is this it?
is this where I stand with you?
is this who I am?
1
we kissed.
we touched.
we went far.
we were a huge MISTAKE.
I cry knowing what I've done.
2
we kissed.
we touched.
we went far.
you played,
but stayed.
I cry, I weep,
I scream myself to sleep.
im attached.
but I cant hold you down.
please be mine.
3
we kissed.
we touched.
we stopped.
you had her,
but came to me.
I cant see.
im blind from this defeat.
do you remember these words?
" you always fall for the wrong guys. "
I do.
& you were one of them.
I don't know who to believe.
who am I?
is this it?
am I a ***
a ****
because of a kiss?
a touch?
I don't know the answer.
someone please tell me.
Is This Where I Stand?
Jul 27, 2013
Jul 27, 2013 at 4:17 PM UTC
my wonderland.
filled with such beauty
never touched with imperfections.
my wonderland.
clouds shaped like flowers
sky crystal blue.
my wonderland.
everything up to my expectations
im never to be disappointed.
my wonderland.
talking fairies with beautiful voices
dragons with jade skin
flying through the sky with grace.
my wonderland.
a kingdom above the clouds,
Above the sky!
my wonderland.
a fire dancer will mirror my loves face.
my wonderland.
my sweet sweet wonderland.
I will be there some day.
Jul 7, 2013
Jul 7, 2013 at 12:28 PM UTC
Little boy
do you feel all the extra weight
on your shoulders & legs?
This world keeps
suffocating you with expectations
you don't know how to live up to.
Child
do you feel the pressure?
invisible hands tighten around
your pale thick throat.
leaving you gasping for sweet oxygen.
you have held it in for so long.
now its your time
to prove them all wrong.
break away
from their stupidity
their selfishness
They want to see you transform
away from your soft weak skin.
MAKE THEM GO AWAY!
Realize you cant do it if your afraid!
your so clueless.
you don't know how strong
your mind has become.
Don't run away.
Don't be a coward.
Spit out the words
that leave an endless echo
inside your precious mind!
your eyes radiate the everlasting anger.
BLOCK EVERYTHING IN SIGHT.
The pressure
is too overwhelming for your youth!
Days go by
& your happiness seems to drain away.
use this to your advantage against it all!
don't let the pressure
make every breath
harder & harder to take.
Little boy.
don't collapse under the pressure.
don't let them win.
May 12, 2013
May 12, 2013 at 4:30 PM UTC