She's starting to feel different--
She wasn't herself anymore.
Bounded by the chains of his rules,
She wasn't free.
Like a butterfly with torn wings,
She felt useless now.
Like a bird inside a cage,
She wants to break free.
But breaking loose means leaving him,
She decided to be engulfed with this non sense boundaries.
Feb 10, 2020
Feb 10, 2020 at 8:35 AM UTC
Home.
Family.
Loved ones.
--I thought being surrounded by them will calm me.
Chaos.
Self-doubt.
Mess.
--Is all that they have given me throughout the years.
Jul 17, 2019
Jul 17, 2019 at 1:47 AM UTC
If you give yourself completely,
If you surrender everything,
Remember a lot of things can change.
At first, it will feel great-- knowing that your loved one is taking control of you.
But as time passes,
This dark void will start to consume you.
It will swallow you whole,
Not giving you a chance to fight.
So before you give yourself,
Make sure you're willing to be empty.
Jul 16, 2019
Jul 16, 2019 at 11:32 AM UTC
She's becoming used to being by herself.
Slowly accepting the fact that she's happy alone.
She's losing everything else.
But in the end, she gained her peace.
Jul 16, 2019
Jul 16, 2019 at 11:13 AM UTC
She clears her schedule all for you.
But I can see, you just squeeze her in yours.
She stops doing the things she was supposed to do just to focus on you.
On the other hand, you don't.
Maybe the reason why you gave her all those watches was that you can't give her time.
You can only give her watches, but not your time.
Jun 5, 2019
Jun 5, 2019 at 9:05 AM UTC
She grew tired--
Not of other people,
But herself.
She grew tired of herself.
She tried and tried,
Not knowing how put her life together,
She gave up on herself
And slowly blood dripped down her wrists.
Mar 7, 2019
Mar 7, 2019 at 5:10 PM UTC
As she slowly drifts away,
He tried to get her back,
Back to where they started.
She lost herself,
In the midst of the love,
The love he had given her.
She turned into a monster--
Cold and harsh,
But he tried his best to tame her.
Unable to fix her,
She was completely gone,
He lost her.
Oct 25, 2018
Oct 25, 2018 at 7:29 AM UTC
If I don't make it the next month,
I want you to know that it never was your fault.
If I don't make it on your birthday,
I want you to know that I wish you the best.
If I don't make it on our anniversary,
I want you to know that you are now free to choose someone else.
If I don't make it on Christmas,
I want you to know that you can celebrate and be merry.
If I don't make it on New Year,
I want you to know that you should start fresh.
If I don't make it tomorrow,
I want you to know that I love you.
Oct 12, 2018
Oct 12, 2018 at 10:07 AM UTC
First few months with him made time go by fast.
Minutes felt like seconds,
Hours felt like minutes.
It was always never enough.
I wanted time to slow down.
To savor the moment spent with him.
But as the years gone, things turned around and changed.
Seconds felt like minutes,
Minutes felt like hours.
It was too much.
I wanted time to go faster.
To escape him, to be alone at last.
Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 10:18 AM UTC