*It started with quiet sobs
Into my pillow every night
Next thing i know
My loud screams are fading into the same pillow
With my face buried in it
It started with tears streaming down my face
Three deep breaths and I'm calming myself
Its okay
I'm boiling with rage
Everything, anything I could get my hands on
Are splattered across the floor
There's glass every where
Three deep breaths
I calm myself
It's okay*
Feb 12, 2019
Feb 12, 2019 at 3:43 AM UTC
*I wrap my lips around him,
I set fire to him, I take a drag.
His every kiss leaving me breathless.
Over and over again,
to burn from a love that isn't yours.*
Feb 26, 2018
Feb 26, 2018 at 12:57 PM UTC
*Knife after knife
twisted and turned
inside of me.
It's quite exhausting you see
being constantly
ripped apart.*
Jul 30, 2017
Jul 30, 2017 at 4:27 PM UTC
*I fall in love with
the cigarette between their teeth,
the messy hair,
the void in their hearts,
the empty words that spill from their lips.
I fall in love with
the white lies,
kisses on my neck,
promises they cannot keep.
I fall in love with the darkness around them
like the nights I break down and cry.
Maybe one day I'll understand why
I chase the things that tear me apart*
Apr 13, 2017
Apr 13, 2017 at 2:44 PM UTC
*When I saw you
amidst the clouds of colour
my flesh, my bones, my soul
yearned to know
the vibrant hues of your soul
And when my green stained hands
touched your cheeks,
I knew I had touched them before,
in another time, some other life.*
Mar 27, 2017
Mar 27, 2017 at 12:26 PM UTC
*Red-rimmed eyes
from sleepless nights,
Shoulders heavy
from the weight I carry,
into the shadows I will soon fade,
along with the demons inside of me.
Would I be missed?
I won't sit and wonder.
I'll call my last breath
a sigh of relief.
My soul will rest easy
when I'm ten feet under.*
Mar 16, 2017
Mar 16, 2017 at 8:45 AM UTC
*Raging waves crash at my feet
taking me away to the great sea.
With no energy left in me to swim anymore,
I drown, I sink, I float back to the shore.
I walk around drenched and cold,
above me are the grey clouds that never leave.
Thunder claps near my ears,
lightening strikes straight to my heart.
You'll never find a rainbow in me,
for the storm never ends with me.*
Feb 24, 2017
Feb 24, 2017 at 3:42 PM UTC
*Onto the bed you throw me down,
graze my skin with your fingertips.
You breathe fire against my neck,
then press your lips hard against mine.
You leave a trail of soft kisses down my belly,
sending shivers down my spine.
My legs wrap themselves around you,
while you burn my skin with your tongue,
I whisper his name,
with fingers tangled in your hair.*
Feb 23, 2017
Feb 23, 2017 at 8:00 AM UTC
*When I was a child, I never stopped talking.
I always had something to talk about,
even if it's about the plain white walls of my living room.
Everything fascinated me.
'Lets play a game; lets not talk for a while'
I'd stay still for a minute or two,
then start blabbering again.
'You shouldn't talk so much, learn to be quiet, you make too much noise'
The older I got, the quieter I became.
I realized that the less I spoke, the lesser my mom screamed.
'Why do you not speak much?'
I smile and shrug as I try to silence the voices in my head,
and focus on the conversation.
'You don't say much, do you?'
I don't know, nothing fascinates me now.
Whenever I open my mouth to say something,
the voices get louder 'Don't say anything. Learn to be quiet',
and I let the words die on my lips.*
Feb 22, 2017
Feb 22, 2017 at 1:26 PM UTC
*With each layer you build of you,
you pull apart a layer of me.
I'm scared by the time you heal,
there'll be nothing left of me.*
Feb 17, 2017
Feb 17, 2017 at 4:17 PM UTC