My depression has gotten the best of me
I don't know how much longer I can take this
I guess this is goodbye
I don't know how many days i'll be alive to see anything
But I hope the best to others
Goodbye
May 10, 2019
May 10, 2019 at 9:33 AM UTC
It's been so long since I was able to feel this
This overwhelming power of the sorrow I thought left me
The sorrow that left me shivering on the ground all alone
Like a child not getting what ***** wants
Watching this whole forest I've grown burnt down in front of my face
Walking as it burns around me knowing there's nothing I can do
But play in these ashes of the memories you held the closest to you
My lungs swollen from these breaths that turn into screams
Not able to breath well from the amount of ash I'm breathing in
I look back to how I was so happy as the song jingles in my ear
Reminding me of someone I cared about
How I hurt her and knowing that I lost something that meant something to me
Even if the song isn't playing it rings in my ear
How blind I was how stupid I've been and how scared I am of my future
I'm alone no matter how many people say I'm not
Alone is the only place I belong
Mar 25, 2017
Mar 25, 2017 at 11:26 PM UTC
Regret is something i've been feeling for a while
The choices i've made I always thought they were right
But to soon reilize that they were very wrong
I was told to choose what makes me happy
But I ended up making the wrong choice
I pitty myself in thinking I could do what I wanted
I just ended up hurting the ones closest to me
It ended up stabbing me in the back
I'm always told i'm worth something
Am I really worth something when all I do is destroy?
Why did I do to deserve such a life when all I did was burn it down
A forest
But now there's no forest left to thrive in
The right choice or so I thought turned into guilt and jealousy
Maybe what I think is right
Is horribly wrong...
Mar 6, 2017
Mar 6, 2017 at 12:45 PM UTC
I see you clearly
Behind that screen
Down deep inside
You're quite like me
A craving so strong
You spend hours
Writing songs
Yet that's not all
That we seek...
So hear my words
I think you're superb
Always on point
And unique
And please like
Who you may
Or start your own thing
At the end of the day
I hope you curl up
With someone sweet
You won't get no hate
Out of me...
Feb 8, 2017
Feb 8, 2017 at 1:05 PM UTC
I was the beast
Created by men
Equipped with a dark heart
I shut myself from affection
And my face.....
Only showed anger
For I carried
The seed of hatred
Slaying someone's heart
Came easy to me
For I was holding
The blade of vengeance
But now.....
I'm trapped
In this strange prism
I see the colors of rainbow
And my heart beats
Faster than before
Warm embrace from behind
Melt the frozen heart I own
Darkened sky has lifted
And I see
The glow of the sun
No more numbness
As I feel sensation
Within his touch
No more bitterness
For I taste the sweetness
Within his kisses
He's the monster hunter
And he caught me good
He tamed my wild character
With his love spell
And now I'm his prisoner
Willingly to be caged
Inside his ribs
Because he's my magic
-Jess
Feb 8, 2017
Feb 8, 2017 at 1:03 PM UTC
I can't decide
what I am anymore
Happy? Sad?
Drifting
in the middle
My nose is above the surface
while my mouth keeps swallowing the waves
So that I'm almost drowning
Almost breathing.
Jan 13, 2017
Jan 13, 2017 at 11:53 AM UTC
**You're tearing me into pieces
in an attempt to save yourself
I hate it, I hate it
Just stop, please, stop
I see that you're happy
I get it, okay
Just stop, please stop
I can't bear this pain.**
*And I love you still,
I love you still,
I love you always and I love you still,
but you're destroying me now that you're gone.*
Jan 13, 2017
Jan 13, 2017 at 11:52 AM UTC
So here it comes again, I guess
This unfortunate space
Where happy isn't really happy
And sad is not enough
Here comes the moment when I want to bleed
But to bleed is to betray
And I cannot betray you, love
Even though you chose not to stay
But I'm drowning as you laugh with her
I'm crying as you sing your love
I've hidden what I truly feel,
but eventually this mask won't be enough
to hold in the broken pieces
This glass heart that I thought you fixed
You've tossed it against the ground
and left it for someone else to fix
**You're an ******* you know
A total man-whore
Anger is a stage of grief
So get ready for the storm**
*Suddenly I just can't figure out
why I torture myself with you
When you twist me up and turn me upside down
You confuse me, very much*
I just don't know what's happening anymore
My heart is completely torn
Little bits of red are clogging up my veins
They're trapped in my lungs -
no wonder it's so hard to breathe
You fixed me only to destroy me
And then to try to fix me again
**Make up your mind, ******
I'm not a pull-apart Barbie doll!**
Jan 13, 2017
Jan 13, 2017 at 11:51 AM UTC
*Sometimes I wish I could forget how to breathe
and just sink.
Would you still come after me?*
Jan 13, 2017
Jan 13, 2017 at 11:51 AM UTC
Hate love which one are we made of?
Hate is so powerful!
When love is weak but harmless
Hate!
Love!
Which one do we choose?
It's tearing me apart...
What do I do?
I can't do anything about it!
No one can!
I'm just a little speck on this big planet...
I won't make a diffrence
So what's point?
When dying isn't a choice?
What do I do?
Tell me please...
-Francis Tolentino
Jan 12, 2017
Jan 12, 2017 at 1:21 PM UTC