choke
me out while
you do it so
i can feel something
and also nothing
at all
Oct 17, 2017
Oct 17, 2017 at 1:53 AM UTC
with your help
i crafted these tears
and thanked you
in relief
for assuring that
part of me is
still made of water
- this is how you know you are still alive
Oct 17, 2017
Oct 17, 2017 at 1:50 AM UTC
am i unjust for
wanting to feel wanted?
this primal desire we
were born with
left you haunted
but not me
and i'm not sure but i
don't think i'm the
one that ignites t h a t fire
Oct 17, 2017
Oct 17, 2017 at 1:49 AM UTC
i may have spoken too soon or
maybe i didn't say enough
she says it’s “all in my head”
but their expressions are untouched
as i reach for a hand
do i go where I am appreciated
find a safer place to land?
crawl out from this trap that reeks of doubt
somewhere I am heard
without screaming my lungs out
Sep 7, 2017
Sep 7, 2017 at 12:23 AM UTC
i wish i could create music for when i don't have words
just a chain of delicate melodies to dangle from my neck
rather than redundant apologies
for a hell that keeps me trapped for days
weeks
it's okay
my hell is just another acronym you'll forget by morning
the patriarchy will agree and take your side
of course
of course
and i will continue to smile
help others to distract myself
because that is what i do
Aug 31, 2017
Aug 31, 2017 at 5:22 PM UTC
silent tears they
drip behind my eyes
leaving puddles in my stomach
whilst my cheeks remain dry
this smile
it seethes with lies
protecting my bones from the inside
you won't see me cry
Aug 7, 2017
Aug 7, 2017 at 4:28 AM UTC
your name on my tongue still burns in my chest
her voice rings my ears as i'm
counting the ways i can put a love like this to rest
i wonder
if i let you know
just how hard my mind has been working
to tell my heart "no"
"let go"
would you stick around?
i found having you here at all
is better than nowhere to be found
- things i wish i could tell you
f.p.
Jun 25, 2017
Jun 25, 2017 at 3:12 PM UTC
i've accomplished more with you in one year than i have in my entire life
though i've always been an ambitious soul
without you it never felt quite right &
every inch of you makes me whole, so
i plan on holding you tight
while you possess this heart you stole
all my black fades to white
f.p.
Jun 22, 2017
Jun 22, 2017 at 9:44 AM UTC
how dare you
try and dispose of
the colors to this rainbow
though, how naive
to forget such ignorance doesn't know
we are free to express a life that doesnt touch you
how fatal that love in any form can
produce this hate
you should know
you will never take away the colors of our rainbow
Jun 12, 2017
Jun 12, 2017 at 5:01 PM UTC
im strong enough to let it go but i'll feel it in my bones, you know
& i sort of knew you'd run away
just remembering that day we thought we could feel it again
while destroying what felt too safe at the time
like a skeleton key you think you can open any door you please
while this guilt eats at my stomach you remain on your knees
forgetting you won't suffer like me when i'm alone
but you're free
Jun 3, 2017
Jun 3, 2017 at 3:05 PM UTC