I’m stuck in an hour glass,
Trying to break free.
Every grain of sand,
Representing every way you’ve hurt me.
They are piling up over me,
Suffocating me,
Killing me.
You tell me everything will be fine,
It’s just harmless sand.
But times almost up,
Before I die in the end.
Jan 15, 2018
Jan 15, 2018 at 11:05 PM UTC
“I love you”
*memory of you kissing her,
Memory of you leaving me,
Memory of you packing your bags,
Memory of you yelling at me,
Memory of you talking to other girls,
Memory of you letting go*
“I love you too...”
my head hurts thinking of all the times you hurt me.
Nov 13, 2017
Nov 13, 2017 at 9:07 PM UTC
To all the loners our there who feel they don’t belong,
One day you will find your special person and once you’re with them, you will never want to be alone again.
-A former loner
Oct 12, 2017
Oct 12, 2017 at 9:59 PM UTC
I know I'm a wasted felon,
I stole your heart and never gave it back.
I lied to you
Told you I would die for you
But none of it was ever true.
lock me away
Throw away the key
I never deserved anyone like you.
Sep 16, 2017
Sep 16, 2017 at 10:33 PM UTC
Some days I can't stop laughing,
Some days I need to find a reason to live.
Most days I have to stop myself from crying,
Every day I feel I have nothing to give.
Some days I want to dance on my feet,
Some days I just want to stay in bed.
Most days I feel Anxiety has me beat,
Every day I know I'm being held captive.
One day I want to be okay.
One day.
Sep 13, 2017
Sep 13, 2017 at 9:43 PM UTC
"Do you still love me?"
Brain - No, why would she still love you?
She doesn't look at you the same.
she doesn't say I love you everyday.
She doesn't understand you.
She will never understand you.
She can find someone better.
It's okay you're just meant to be alone.
Sep 7, 2017
Sep 7, 2017 at 11:10 PM UTC
You will never understand,
How my legs start to shake whenever I'm in an uncomfortable situation.
You will never understand,
That crying makes me feel better when I'm overthinking about everything.
You will never understand,
That I feel icky anytime I feel like a burden to you.
You will never understand,
How your words hurt me even when you don't mean them, that they will play in my head over and over again like song lyrics and even when I paint a smile onto my face, those words will haunt me in my dreams.
You will never understand,
That this depression will stay with me for years and I know that eventually you will get tired of it and me and want to leave, so I push you away every chance I get so I don't get hurt.
But I'm hurting.
I'm always hurting.
I'm sorry.
You will never understand,
That I apologize for everything because everything will always be my fault. I'll blame my depression, my anxiety, I'll even blame the wall before I ever blame you, because I love you.
One thing I've figured out is that, you will never understand.
Sep 7, 2017
Sep 7, 2017 at 11:01 PM UTC
Lies
Fights
Sleepless nights.
Anger
Liquor
A Black eye.
Too many problems
So little time
Goodbye.
Jul 2, 2017
Jul 2, 2017 at 10:17 PM UTC
Warning!
I will cry a lot,
over movies, over hurt feelings, over dog pictures.
Warning!
I will never stop asking if we are alright when there is the slightest bit of tension.
I will always assume I am a burden in your life, and that you could do so much better.
Warning!
I will never believe you when you tell me you love me because I've been lied to so many times.
I will push you away and ask to be alone a lot because I think I don't deserve happiness.
Warning!
I will fall head over heels for you easily
but I am very protective over my heart.
Please don't hurt me.
Jun 25, 2017
Jun 25, 2017 at 7:34 PM UTC
You knock on my door,
But I can't seem to move my feet.
I am stuck to the couch like super glue,
But all I want is for you to be here with me.
You yell for me,
You bang on the door,
You try to pry open the window.
I cry.
I want you to stay in my life forever,
But I'll keep pushing you away because it's just better for me to be alone.
Jun 23, 2017
Jun 23, 2017 at 10:47 PM UTC