I’m stuck in an hour glass,
Trying to break free.
Every grain of sand,
Representing every way you’ve hurt me.
They are piling up over me,
Suffocating me,
Killing me.
You tell me everything will be fine,
It’s just harmless sand.
But times almost up,
Before I die in the end.
Jan 15, 2018
Jan 15, 2018 at 11:05 PM UTC
“I love you”
*memory of you kissing her,
Memory of you leaving me,
Memory of you packing your bags,
Memory of you yelling at me,
Memory of you talking to other girls,
Memory of you letting go*
“I love you too...”
my head hurts thinking of all the times you hurt me.
Nov 13, 2017
Nov 13, 2017 at 9:07 PM UTC
To all the loners our there who feel they don’t belong,
One day you will find your special person and once you’re with them, you will never want to be alone again.
-A former loner
Oct 12, 2017
Oct 12, 2017 at 9:59 PM UTC
I know I'm a wasted felon,
I stole your heart and never gave it back.
I lied to you
Told you I would die for you
But none of it was ever true.
lock me away
Throw away the key
I never deserved anyone like you.
Sep 16, 2017
Sep 16, 2017 at 10:33 PM UTC
Some days I can't stop laughing,
Some days I need to find a reason to live.
Most days I have to stop myself from crying,
Every day I feel I have nothing to give.
Some days I want to dance on my feet,
Some days I just want to stay in bed.
Most days I feel Anxiety has me beat,
Every day I know I'm being held captive.
One day I want to be okay.
One day.
Sep 13, 2017
Sep 13, 2017 at 9:43 PM UTC
I
Miss
You
Tonight
And every second
you are not in my
Sight
Sep 8, 2017
Sep 8, 2017 at 12:07 PM UTC
"Do you still love me?"
Brain - No, why would she still love you?
She doesn't look at you the same.
she doesn't say I love you everyday.
She doesn't understand you.
She will never understand you.
She can find someone better.
It's okay you're just meant to be alone.
Sep 7, 2017
Sep 7, 2017 at 11:10 PM UTC
You will never understand,
How my legs start to shake whenever I'm in an uncomfortable situation.
You will never understand,
That crying makes me feel better when I'm overthinking about everything.
You will never understand,
That I feel icky anytime I feel like a burden to you.
You will never understand,
How your words hurt me even when you don't mean them, that they will play in my head over and over again like song lyrics and even when I paint a smile onto my face, those words will haunt me in my dreams.
You will never understand,
That this depression will stay with me for years and I know that eventually you will get tired of it and me and want to leave, so I push you away every chance I get so I don't get hurt.
But I'm hurting.
I'm always hurting.
I'm sorry.
You will never understand,
That I apologize for everything because everything will always be my fault. I'll blame my depression, my anxiety, I'll even blame the wall before I ever blame you, because I love you.
One thing I've figured out is that, you will never understand.
Sep 7, 2017
Sep 7, 2017 at 11:01 PM UTC
Do you know the true meaning of sleepless nights ? It's not staying up watching tv & on your phone ; it's drowning deep in thoughts all alone , having nightmares when your eyes shut & fighting back tears.
Sitting up or laying down thinking you overcame them but just encounter new fears , heartaches , depression & maybe a life at stake .
Ever just stared at the ceiling or stars ,wanting to be up there ? Free from mistakes & bypassing thoughts of death as these sleepless nights then become routine & the screams grow louder in protest for you to give up & in to this not thick but thin life.
These oh so sleepless nights are dreadful & exhausting physically & emotionally but when it happens all you can do is hope to sleep again .
~Chilled
Sep 4, 2017
Sep 4, 2017 at 6:29 PM UTC
Being a hopeless romantic...
It's laying in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling.
Listening to any love song with piano.
It's thinking about that one person.
From dawn until dusk, and dusk until dawn.
Their name, their smile, repeating in your mind.
It's realizing you may never be the one locked in their arms.
The only place you truly desire to be.
No matter how hard you try.
It's accepting sadness as a part of you.
At least it's better than feeling nothing at all.
It's a beautifully, broken, equation.
One that has no universal solution.
Being a hopeless romantic...
It's a blessing and a curse.
Sep 4, 2017
Sep 4, 2017 at 6:28 PM UTC