i like to stain the paper
i like to see the bruises
burns and cuts.
Mar 16, 2021
Mar 16, 2021 at 5:02 AM UTC
i think of you every day;
when i look at the sunset i wonder if you're looking at it too
only you can make me smile so easily
your presence erases all the times i felt blue.
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 1:07 AM UTC
everything was in its place
yet something felt unfamiliar
known faces changed beyond recognition
time flew lazily like a melted caramel
i could see other people' lips moving fast, forming words, creating sentences,
but everything was almost muted, like i was in a bubble
perhaps i visited parallel universe
perhaps i slept too little
or perhaps none of this was real and i noticed some glitch
day passed like a fog, i went to bed and lay my head down
and hopefully shook of this day
Feb 8, 2021
Feb 8, 2021 at 1:07 AM UTC
i keep coming back to you
in the same manner i come back to a poem i can't figure out
Jan 21, 2021
Jan 21, 2021 at 11:01 AM UTC
i like to dream about my life. in my head
i visit old places, i replay painful memories,
i watch myself grow, i try to grasp about my future self,
i paint the sights i've come across once,
i imagine my first apartment - maybe even a garden,
i dream about all of the possibilities,
i wander through every direction.
i like to read my old self
through pages, through smells, through songs.
i like to visit my childhood
through pretty words, through the right angle of light, through films;
i dream about my life; i dream about the universe itself.
Dec 27, 2020
Dec 27, 2020 at 6:36 PM UTC
we keep getting overwhelmed
we keep falling down
we keep making mistakes
yet we got through
the hardest times
with our knees bruised
and our vision blurred
but still
we made it
Sep 23, 2020
Sep 23, 2020 at 2:47 PM UTC
over the times i created so many versions of myself
sometimes it's difficult to keep up
but now i can tell i'm getting better
although the many obstacles and up and downs
in spite of everything i've done to myself
i somehow manage to keep myself up
still, i get scared of the thought of going where people are
still, unkind words about me hurt
still, i often regret what i say and how i act
but i grow stronger every time
Sep 20, 2020
Sep 20, 2020 at 2:49 PM UTC
only if you saw yourself
the way i see you.
only if you knew
how much i care about you.
Sep 20, 2020
Sep 20, 2020 at 2:39 PM UTC
you don't have to hide it under long sleeves when you are with me
it hurts so much to see you go through the hell i just got out of
i know, you are a complicated person, you don't like to open up
i know, i saw it, i saw your scars, i feel you getting distant.
you're here and yet you're not
you are slowly dissolving, falling apart, dying
when i hug you it feels like i'm not hugging anyone
when we talk your mind does not come back
instead, it travels in the darkness, drowning in loops and tunnel-visions.
is my worst nightmare coming true?
are you leaving?
please come back
we miss you.
don't leave me here.
Sep 20, 2020
Sep 20, 2020 at 2:38 PM UTC
and as the shadows lenghtened
my cat and i
we settled down on an unused staircase
leading to a door that isn’t going anywhere
sun poured its gold all over us
as we bathed in momentary bliss
my tummy served as a cushion for his paws
caressed him as he was slowly fell asleep
showering him with delicate kisses on his forehead
and i wondered
how many evenings like these
have i missed
hidden in my room
with this heaven at my fingertips
scared by how okay i would be
with dying in that moment
Jul 7, 2020
Jul 7, 2020 at 3:02 PM UTC