my hands trembled as I walk
You asked me if we could talk
of course I said yes
I never loved you less
You asked me about the weather today
I think of words to say
I know this will end bad
This talk is going to be the reason why I'll be sad
"what are we to talk about?"
that is what I wanted to shout
But I kept silent
Pretending that it didn't bother me
"I'm sorry"
that was your first line
"It's not you It's me"
I have heard that before
I hugged you one last time
I cried that night
As I turn my back on you
I silently whispered "I don't wanna lose you"
Aug 12, 2018
Aug 12, 2018 at 3:40 AM UTC
we talked again these past few days
I then fell again in your stupid ways
I can't wait for everything to begin
As I lay in bed again
As I walk in corners of our school
I saw you with your friends sitting on a tool
You were laughing at what she said
I was shocked, My heart just bled
You saw me approaching you
"hey we we're just talking about you"
I smiled and pretend it was okay
Until she rolled her eyes and smirked in my way
As I lay in bed again tonight
I watched as the stars shine so bright
I cannot help but to agree
that we are not meant to be
Aug 12, 2018
Aug 12, 2018 at 3:30 AM UTC
Do your hands move like the flame of a fire
Twitching and itching to possibly inquire
About the state that your mind has fled
About a fascination with being dead
Does your chest open up like a cave
Dripping cold, like a still-living grave
Can you shout inside and hear the echo
Is it your own voice telling you to let go
Do your legs hold you hostage from sleep
Do they move so your thoughts don't get deep
Or are they moving to make noise with the sheets
So your ears and midnight silence will never meet
Is your face more of a house but not a home
Something seeming foreign to what you've known
A room in which you sleep but isn't yours
Impossible to tell the ceiling from the floor
Does your heartbeat jump to conclusions just like mine
Or is it calm and slow and steady all the time
Does it leap into your head and cause a scene
Or is it glued to the cavern's walls without a dream
Apr 18, 2018
Apr 18, 2018 at 7:15 AM UTC
I walked inside the room
All eyes on me
I noticed yours were warm
But I shrugged it off simply
I want to remember every bit of that day
The way you looked sideways
As if looking for someone
But I hid and act as if I was no one
You saw me sitting under a tree
You stared at me as if you really wanted me
You told me things that I wanted to hear
But why did you break my heart dear?
That day
You told me 'let's just run away'
But sideways you looked again
And mumured I don't want you more than just a friend
Apr 18, 2018
Apr 18, 2018 at 7:12 AM UTC
You are my first love
The one that God sent from above
You are my last love
The one I asked of
I am your first
I gave you the love that eased your thirst
I was your last
The loud melody that moved your music into blast
You were my first
My last
I was your first
But never your last
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 6:52 AM UTC
I adored the rain
Maybe because it helps me wash away the pain
I thinks it's because it calms me
I believe its because it helps me
I want to become a rainbow
I want to be the reason you smile after the sorrow
I want to take the pain away from you
Even if you don't want me to
I want to scream and shout your name
I want to curse for falling in your stupid game
I want you to realize that you are to blame
Why this little spark turned into flame
Apr 8, 2018
Apr 8, 2018 at 11:27 PM UTC
I want you to stay
The words I was begging you to say
You hold truth in your eyes
But then your mouth tell me lies
Maybe I missed the old days
The love is there I know
Maybe I missed our old ways
I closed my eyes and try to sleep in these dark days
There are voices in my head
I want myself dead
But I remembered the words you said
At the end of the day,
I love you still
I always will
Apr 8, 2018
Apr 8, 2018 at 4:51 AM UTC
With you I dreamt of flying
Funny though, I woke up crying
Why? Is the question I wanted to ask you for so long
But I can't, I ended up walking on my own
Am I hard to love?
Is the question I ask myself too
Maybe because Im stubborn
Or maybe because I'm not the one for you
Alone I kept walking
But then I smile
I try to forget even for a while
What I feel inside is another story Cause there, I was dying
Apr 3, 2018
Apr 3, 2018 at 4:21 PM UTC
Its was all a lie
The way I smile
The things I try
The words I say, lie
It was all a lie
The way you looked at me with love
The things you are trying to prove
You, telling me you love me, lie
It was all a lie
The people around me
The expressions I see
The forever you promised me , lie
It was all a lie
My parents
My family
The way they treated me, lie
Apr 2, 2018
Apr 2, 2018 at 8:23 AM UTC
I wish to see a shooting star
But I looked down and saw your car
You were driving
Inside with her laughing
I wish to see a shooting star
One I can command to erase the feelings I have for you so far.
I wish to see a shooting star
One I can use to never tear apart.
I wish to see a shooting star
One I can tell that I loved you
Even from afar.
Apr 2, 2018
Apr 2, 2018 at 1:01 AM UTC