The deed is done
You have succeeded in making me
Feel like sht
For your own selfish sense of gain
And strength
It hurts
Having a place for you in my heart
That I now don't know
How to deal with
Cleaning out my soul
Of anything negative
Trying to fill the void you left
With happiness
Jun 25, 2015
Jun 25, 2015 at 11:43 PM UTC
Fell in love when I was 10 years old
Never knew his awesome eyes
Would turn my heart to stone
Making my feelings turn cold
Keeping warmth with my soul
Tired of crying
Hoping he'd pick up the phone
And call me
Tell me he's sorry some more
Cause I deserve that
Nights you'd say "I love you more"
It was worth it
I knew the moment I saw you
You were perfect
In a way only my eyes could see
Cause the moment i looked at you
I knew you felt the same for me
Jun 25, 2015
Jun 25, 2015 at 4:16 AM UTC
I wish I saved that sht
But I deleted it
Didn't want to torture myself again
Love lost nobody wins
I guess you call this..
The Dead End
Jun 3, 2015
Jun 3, 2015 at 12:24 AM UTC
The silence is the closure
Hard to understand
Till you get older
Have someone treat you so bad
That it takes years to get over
Can't help but to feel sad
Tried hard to stay sober
Just to deny the fact
That whatever it was
It's over
May 29, 2015
May 29, 2015 at 12:59 AM UTC
Is there a certain length to the past?
Does it really count
The past could've been a year ago?
..Or Should've been A month ago?
Could've been a week ago?
Would've been Yesterday?
Maybe it was an hour ago?
What about minutes ago?
Before and after you changed your mind?
It was seconds ago
...and I'm supposed to just let it go?!
No.
But I will
In due time
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 2:25 PM UTC
I understand I'm unlike anybody else
Some people are good at it though
Deceiving themselves
The ones who don't want you to succeed
Would rather see you begging on the streets
Apr 28, 2015
Apr 28, 2015 at 10:50 AM UTC
When I Smoke
Makes me feel like I'm out of this world when I want to leave it
Constantly asking myself if I know who I am why won't I be it?
Scared to fail
To look stupid
Desperately trying to see into my own future
Worried that things will stay the same
Crying because I miss "what's his name"
Questioning if this habit has made me deranged
But when I'm sober I'm steadily guided by my faith
Motivated to follow a path that I know only God can create
Second guessing any decisions that I make
The burden of depression sometimes is hard to take
But I know God believes in me every morning that I awake
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 9:23 PM UTC
You don't want me in your life
And that's cool
So stop texting me
Acting like you do
I've come to terms with the truth
Why can't you
I was that soft voice in your ear
On nights when you couldn't sleep
The voice of your inner thoughts
When you couldn't speak
I know
You were that void for me
That filled me with positivity
And made me believe in destiny
Once again
But now I just seek reality
And you weren't it
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 5:44 PM UTC
I don't tell you sh*t
Cause I know you don't care
Always judging me
Like I'm unaware
I'm not stupid
I notice everything too
I know sh*t when I smell it
It smells like you
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 3:12 PM UTC
Cried alot when I was little
I still do sometimes now
Had to develop thick skin
To get through life
The only way I know how
By guarding my feelings
And holding it in
Trying not to treat everyday
Like a Monday
Struggling to stay positive
That's why I pray
God hears me and he loves me
More than anyone I know
Even though I can't see his face
His blessings always show
He helps me revive my hope
And believe in tomorrow
Apr 20, 2015
Apr 20, 2015 at 3:08 PM UTC