Today is your birthday
and I can comfortably say
that I am glad the ties that once bound us
have broken and frayed
Apathy rushes over me
as memories of us come reeling back to me.
A pathetic series of attempts you see
to find something
anything
to go back to what we once were
you and me.
Today is your birthday
and I can comfortably say
things are better now
that I have pushed you away.
Apr 26, 2017
Apr 26, 2017 at 3:17 AM UTC
a clearer night,
more conscience,
more control.
to see you turn away
after a short embrace,
is harder than
resisting
yet another taste.
a constant pull
brings me back to you,
yet liquor seems to be
the catalyst
between
you
and
me
an urge, yet again,
failed to fight off.
a cautious embrace,
slowly approached.
a clearer night,
more conscience,
more control-
yet,
a somber taste lingers
after a quick shot
of repressed passion
May 18, 2013
May 18, 2013 at 5:32 AM UTC
wallowing in sadness
highlights regret.
basking in glee
leads you to happiness.
To have a second chance
at life,
a redo, soft reset.
To change one thing to make
it good
a turn, three words.
A life not lived
yet constantly craved.
Parallel, yet,
better,
kinder,
happier.
A world where a touch
needs no liquid courage.
No kiss is a slip
of judgement.
A society that loves all.
Parents that support you.
What if?
every night.
What would I change?
if I had the right.
Where would we be?
if you won the fight.
wallowing in sadness,
hooked on the past.
what if? and who?
forever it lasts.
May 16, 2013
May 16, 2013 at 2:58 AM UTC
Night after night.
You long for the flash,
the crash,
the bang,
of the raging storm.
Clouds race by
and no rain falls.
Week after week.
You anticipate the wind,
the pulling,
the gasping,
of the raging storm.
Stars shimmer sadly
in the calm midnight sky.
And then, it hits.
A surge like never before.
Crash,
gasp,
boom.
A blip of something,
the future or not?
A taste
that satisfies not.
Leaves your craving
for more.
Linger on the flash,
the lightning,
of lust.
Slurred words and
blurred thoughts.
Echoes the thunder
of never-will
and have nots.
May 13, 2013
May 13, 2013 at 1:56 AM UTC
A chance to get better,
to recover,
to heal.
An opportunity overlooked.
Mar 19, 2013
Mar 19, 2013 at 11:36 PM UTC
I once was told:
"You're going to go far."
I worked hard,
to live up to those words
I once was told:
"You can't."
I worked hard,
to ignore those words.
I find myself here,
Far from home.
"Go far"
Failing.
"You can't"
Trying to to better.
"You're not good enough"
Trying to find myself.
"You're insecure"
To live my life.
I tell myself
"Just try"
I work hard,
But their words,
they bring me down.
Mar 13, 2013
Mar 13, 2013 at 3:52 AM UTC
He had danced with death before.
A tango taught,
to me.
Passed on.
I dance with death now.
Mar 12, 2013
Mar 12, 2013 at 8:23 PM UTC
I did not think I could
Love Again
After what happened to you I
Think Again
and again of what could
Have Been
But now that spark is
Here Again
with someone else, a brand
New Friend.
Miles away, and met by chance
a brand new chance to
Love Again
Nov 3, 2012
Nov 3, 2012 at 3:32 AM UTC
Faced with
a life threatening situation
a shattered friendship
a near death experience
a stab in the back
a final embrace
unable to shed
a drop of that essential substance
a saline solution sent from the
still-white eyes.
But when our eyes meet:
the floodgates open
my stomach churns
my heart aches
my soul cringes
A torrential downpour
contained within
an unstable host
Pounding for a way out.
A need to be wiped away
to be on a shoulder
to escape
Unwillingly, the ocean is
held back.
You make it swell so it hurts
and
You cause droplets' freedom
and you...
You need to come along,
and free the storm
________________________
Nov 2, 2012
Nov 2, 2012 at 12:52 AM UTC