Is it really worth it?
Does loving you out weigh the cons?
You mean everything to me.
But I have these voices in my head
Telling me it's wrong.
These voices make me second guess everything.
I don't know.
What if I'm doing something wrong?
What if you don't really love me?
What if I'm just fooling myself?
...
What if you're just playing with me?
I've had my heart played with before.
What if this is all just set up for heartbreak?
I can't withstand another break up.
What if?
...
These voices keep me up at night.
I can barely sleep.
Sometimes I don't sleep at all.
I just lay awake thinking of all the possibilities.
I can hear the voices telling me that you don't like me.
I can hear them saying things that I know aren't true.
But they make me doubt everything.
I don't know what the truth is anymore.
And that scares me.
Jul 14, 2018
Jul 14, 2018 at 3:48 AM UTC
My death will be liberating.
And I do not say that in the sense
that I am going to find a cliff
and take a good jump off.
No.
I am just trying to find a
clever way to tell you
that I do not know what is going
to happen next.
You see,
there is a
fine line
between
dreaming and
mortality
and
I am finding out for myself
that being in love
does not always
involve
being awake.
And for my sake
I fall in love with daydreams,
nightmares,
hazy realities
and
the hung-over idea
of not being enough.
It is all out of my hands.
It is all out of time.
And the only thing I have left to do,
now,
is decide.
Jul 10, 2018
Jul 10, 2018 at 3:09 AM UTC
Do you miss me,
like I miss you?
Will you find someone else
to love?
Or will you look back
and smile,
say it was true?
Do you love me,
like I love you?
The way I'd give up
the world
in return of our
memories,
that were so blue.
Do you want me,
like I want you?
The way I smile
at the thought
of us,
being alone,
lying under the moon.
Do you remember me,
like I remember you?
The way I wake up
everyday with surprise
and tears of joy thinking
you'd be here, stupid me,
shedding worthless tears.
Do you hate this distance.
like I do?
The way I cry
day and night,
grasping onto my
last inch of hope before
I lose sanity,
and become cruel.
Do you think about us,
like I do?
The way I look at
other boys and
wish
they were you..
Jun 9, 2018
Jun 9, 2018 at 10:30 AM UTC
I wonder what it would be like if the tables were turned
You could have all the knowledge that I’ve learned
But hurt in a way that wasn’t earned
Swap you’re heart for one that yearns
I wonder if you hurt like the ones who are alone
The ones they would disown
A reality you can’t postpone
All the more real when you are grown
I wonder if you spent a day ignored
Feeling like who you are just makes them bored
Everyday leaving you floored
Alone in the world
Would you stand up for yourself
Or hide behind a smile
What is easier?
Facing your fears or letting the pain compile
Or you could just give up
Not give yourself another day
But that’s no solution
There has to be a better way
Some might pray
Some might run away
But you can choose to love yourself anyway
Jun 9, 2018
Jun 9, 2018 at 10:30 AM UTC
We are the ones who are hard to understand
We'll be the last ones in the movie theatre
because the ending scene made us cry
We'll stop to smell the roses
because they deserve to be appreciated
We are the ones who will take the time
to learn what keeps you up at night
We are the ones who will imagine
an entire future of adventures
with the people who show us love
We are the ones who will love you more
than we love ourselves
We will give you our strongest parts
in hopes that we can make things better
We desire to see you become the best you
to make sure that you always feel our love
We crave affection and appreciation
We give a piece of ourselves away every day
sometimes to people who don't deserve it
Our love is easy to take advantage of
and sometimes we don't get back
the love that we give away
When we hurt, we crumble and fall apart
We constantly have to put ourselves back together
We are more fragile than we like to give off
We carry our emotions on our sleeves
Our flaws have the ability to consume us
We aren't afraid to give you the world
but we are afraid to feel unloved
We want you to see what we see
We want you to understand where we're coming from
We are good people with good intentions
We are stronger than we believe
Not everyone can feel the way we feel
We feel too much, too often
We are not hard to love
We are something not everyone knows how to love
But you need to remember that
your worth does not change just because
no one is there to appreciate you, to remind you
You are not any less lovable
You are the most lovable person in the world
You are a light that the world needs
Your kindness is not your weakness
You do not need to change for anyone's acceptance
You do not need to stop giving love
just because you don't get any back
Your heart is the best thing about you
And one day when you least expect it
someone will notice you from across the room
and know exactly how to love you
They will think all of these things are beautiful
They will deserve the love you can give
They will fill the empty space in your heart
But for now, don't stop feeling
We are the ones who feel everything so deeply
We are the ones who can't give up because
We are the ones who will teach the world
how to love
Jun 9, 2018
Jun 9, 2018 at 10:18 AM UTC
i would do anything
to have your lips stutter my name
let your words grasp my hand
watch your eyes search for mine.
to wait for you is impossible yet divine
when we exist in places
so far from where we are destined.
we are parallel lines
i would do anything
for us to be a painting instead
i'd color you in hues of unrequited love
and put us on a frame
i'll give it to you and say
'keep it. keep us. keep me'
'why'
'because we are so much more than just parallel lines'
Feb 23, 2018
Feb 23, 2018 at 10:34 AM UTC
Maybe the one talked over and hushed
Grew up to be quiet, reserved
Trying to develop a voice of their own
But it was never heard
Maybe the one seeking attention
Spent their life being ignored
Experiences shape perceptions
And perceptions shape our world
But this is where we start, not end
After all, we're not cement
We change and bend and learn and grow
We can end above and start below
Beliefs can change and so can we
What we were, we don't have to be
Jan 30, 2018
Jan 30, 2018 at 4:50 AM UTC
I still remember the day you walked into my life. It was lightly raining and the sun was just starting to come out, but it was still dark and gloomy. It's funny how the moment I see that geeky-looking kind of guy, I never thought I'd be so in love with him till today. It's frustrating that I can't re-live that moment, but I'm happy that I've met you.
But, all of this jealousy seeing you with her, daydreaming and running away from life, it's not healthy for me. I am very sure that I love you as I keep on giving excuses for all the pain you've caused me. I still think of your feelings after all the pain. I was ready to be there for you even after ending things. This isn't healthy for me, I know, but I can't help it when it comes to you.
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 9:34 AM UTC
Now you're gone
And you’re gone for good
So I’ll try not to miss you
But I’ll cry if I would
It’s been a year and half
And I’m still not over you
Even listening to songs
Reminds me of
You were so different
My right kind of wrong
Though you are a mess
It’s still you that I long
You never will be my perfect
But that's not *** I require
Because I accepted you for whom you are
A cheat, a kid, a lair
Everything around me
Somehow links up to you
This shatters me into pieces
An leaves my eyes with dew
Why do you have to go?
Why can’t you stay with me?
I can’t live without you
Why can’t you see?
I promise to give it all
Only give me a second try
Whatever you want will be done
This time I won’t make you cry
It’s still your call in the end
If you want to stay or want to go
But if you want me I’ll be there
I just want you to know
I can wait for you forever
I’ll be by your side when you need me
You got away by mistake
And so if you want to get back
I am and will always be ready
Jan 29, 2018
Jan 29, 2018 at 3:51 AM UTC