Excuse me
You stepped on my toe
Then into my heart
And swallowed my soul
Didn’t give you permission
To come into my life
And taint my lonely vision,
Steve.
Honestly
Can you see what you’ve done
I’m no longer scared of staying alone
Only problem is, I gave you no permission
You, unaware have painted my vision
Into a world of colour and bliss
Yet only in my mind does it exist.
Nov 24, 2018
Nov 24, 2018 at 3:17 AM UTC
I don't want to be like you
I wouldn't respect me
Living in an ICU
I dream of what I can be
Such a struggle, being around you
You really detest me
I don't want to be like you
I dont even, like you -
At all.
Nov 10, 2017
Nov 10, 2017 at 5:32 PM UTC
I've made mistakes, more than just two or three
On this strange road to find my destiny
The friend I need, the one I thought was there
Was really, just a false
Fantasy
Oct 5, 2017
Oct 5, 2017 at 7:47 PM UTC
Can you see those wings
Or do I have to see them for you?
Can you please, believe –
Your dreams are not just stories.
Darling won’t you fly, fly, fly with me
We can soar, toward, ecstasy
Don’t matter who’s down there, anchoring –
They’re scared we’ll fall;
Just, believing
Sep 13, 2017
Sep 13, 2017 at 10:44 AM UTC
I wish I would walk
Away
Forever
I could live without
All of
Your clever
Ways of hurting me
Aug 30, 2017
Aug 30, 2017 at 10:02 AM UTC
I feel, invisible
Was I born for decoration?
You say I'm important
But your actions contradict
Your words - no
Your lies
That you want me here
Because all you have done
is destroy the trust, that,
To be honest
Never existed in the first place.
You say I never listen
But when last did you look at me
Really look -
Through my angry disguise
And realise, you are the disappointment
I tell you what you have done
And you tell me what I have done, wrong
I was trying to change;
Why should I change
For somebody who will never change, ever
Because you are right, I am wrong,
And stupid for ever trying
To convince you.
All you have done
Is made it worse
In turn
My anger has erupted
Is my genuine happiness
supposed to be
a side effect of yours?
Because I think I have become immune
And you have been feeding me this medicine for too long
If I put you first
You downgrade my actions
and turn them into dust, somehow
If you put me first
I must have asked.
Can you admit
Acknowledge
That what I want is not
What you want
Can you respect that
Or do you enjoy complaining
Over
And over
Again
About things that
You don't try to prevent
But now I don't care
Because you didn't - don't care
That I cared
That I tried.
You resent my actions
And complain
Denigrating who I am
But that is your opinion
And your opinion does not
Dictate my life
when you never even listen to mine
If you do not want me here
Why did you bring me
Just so you can show me off for
One hour
One hour of fake
And downgrade me
For the next five
Stop trying to change me
Because you made me who I am
Whether you like me or not
Even if you are never
really here.
You are going to say the same
For me
I am trying to change
But you are not
Because you are using me as
An excuse
To justify yourself
And your actions
I am not vouching for your acceptance -
Frankly, I resent who you
Are turning me into:
The opposite of who you
Want me to become.
I walk like
I talk like
I look like
A decoration
I say why
I shout why
I stop myself -
Now I'm in trouble/
At least, I'm no longer
Invisible
But what do you expect
When you treat me like an obligation
What do you expect
From an ugly decoration?
Never mind
After reading this you'll just get angry
And punish me for having feelings
And shout at me for having feelings
And say I'm wrong, discard my feelings,
Replace them with yours
And I'll say I'm stupid
For believing you would listen
For once.
Did you notice, I always stop talking
Because I will end up saying how I really feel
And waste my breath
So I wrote it instead;
Paper listens to me
in a way
You never have.
Aug 27, 2017
Aug 27, 2017 at 5:31 PM UTC
I know
I can be strange sometimes
Don't cast me out again
Don't be terrified
Of me
Of my insecurity
I am, I am
Terrified
See I'm struggling with identity
Who I am, what you want and I wanna be
I look into my eyes, visions blurred, stony eyed
Not sad, not mad,
I can see the terror in my eyes
In me
I'm insecure, you see
You cut the wound, naive
Now I'm terrified.
Of you, of me
My insecurity
You bled the wound, naive
I'm terrified -
For you, for me
I'm insecure, you see
S*** round in my mind...
I'm terrified
for you, of me
I'm insecure, you see
Your heart damaged or mine?
I'm terrified -
You hate me.
Aug 19, 2017
Aug 19, 2017 at 8:53 AM UTC