faithk - Hello Poetry

Though it bruised my outside, it sensationalized my insides It made me feel like he loved me so much that he would take a bullet for me and point one to my Temple, my body is a temple for him to, like a baby, get your hands on it and rip it apart Intentionally, he wraps his hands around my neck, spits in my face, and calls me stupid but I let him Feel around the room when he’s around, he is Darkness is the brightest thing I see, I have learned to live without the light Lampshade aimed right over my head when I wake up, he told me if I loved there will be no Beating heart, hurt I felt when I cradled him one night, his toes like honoring angels carrying him wherever he saw Fit right in-between my wedding vowels to death do us Apart from the dresser, you open up and find a key, use it when you see Fit right down below the wooded floor joints there lay freedom Where I lay when I say the wrong thing I scratch the floor while I’m down there, **** some time while he’s killing Me, so gullible, I just wanted to do what I saw Fit there, aren’t the divorce papers, no we don’t believe in that Even when he is beating you until your pulse is black and blue Even when you’re so scared to eat but you still don’t know the next time he’ll feed you Even when his joy comes from watching you struggle to escape his grip Even when your eyes are tired of closing, because that’s where Love is the baby that you lost Love is how he cried and didn’t eat for a week Love is the cold bathroom tile where you lay staring at your still-born-baby for a week Love is do I get help Love is I am your only help Now get off the floor, stop your crying You’re too weak to go Anywhere? Is that better than here? Divorce? Of course not Till’ death do us apart, right?

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Nov 9, 2016

Nov 9, 2016 at 6:09 PM UTC

faithk

Till' death do us apart

Though it bruised my outside, it sensationalized my insides It made me feel like he loved me so much that he would take a bullet for me and point one to my Temple, my body is a temple for him to, like a baby, get your hands on it and rip it apart Intentionally, he wraps his hands around my neck, spits in my face, and calls me stupid but I let him Feel around the room when he’s around, he is Darkness is the brightest thing I see, I have learned to live without the light Lampshade aimed right over my head when I wake up, he told me if I loved there will be no Beating heart, hurt I felt when I cradled him one night, his toes like honoring angels carrying him wherever he saw Fit right in-between my wedding vowels to death do us Apart from the dresser, you open up and find a key, use it when you see Fit right down below the wooded floor joints there lay freedom Where I lay when I say the wrong thing I scratch the floor while I’m down there, **** some time while he’s killing Me, so gullible, I just wanted to do what I saw Fit there, aren’t the divorce papers, no we don’t believe in that Even when he is beating you until your pulse is black and blue Even when you’re so scared to eat but you still don’t know the next time he’ll feed you Even when his joy comes from watching you struggle to escape his grip Even when your eyes are tired of closing, because that’s where Love is the baby that you lost Love is how he cried and didn’t eat for a week Love is the cold bathroom tile where you lay staring at your still-born-baby for a week Love is do I get help Love is I am your only help Now get off the floor, stop your crying You’re too weak to go Anywhere? Is that better than here? Divorce? Of course not Till’ death do us apart, right?

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Hello there beautiful, you are so beautiful. The first thing that I see are those sparkling big brown eyes. Then those beauty marks placed in excellence. Your smile, gosh your smile, it makes my day better. When I stare, I see your teeth, white as the pearls around your neck, peek through your chocolate colored lips. When your cheeks rise to your eyes. I begin to melt inside like ice cream in July. It takes me to a-get-away, where I am granted and guaranteed safety. I can smell the pain you endure. But don’t be afraid, little brown skin girl, to let it go. You can cry on my shoulder whenever I am not crying on yours. Those who hurt you, will soon feel how strong you are and how little they mean to you. One day they’ll see how big your pain grew. One day they’ll know how it feels to reap what you sew. One day, they will dream of what it’s like to have people like you in their lives. And what it’s like to have a love such one as you in their dreams. One day, you and I will grow wings. Today beautiful, today.

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Jul 7, 2016

Jul 7, 2016 at 9:13 AM UTC

faithk

Hello Beautiful

Hello there beautiful, you are so beautiful. The first thing that I see are those sparkling big brown eyes. Then those beauty marks placed in excellence. Your smile, gosh your smile, it makes my day better. When I stare, I see your teeth, white as the pearls around your neck, peek through your chocolate colored lips. When your cheeks rise to your eyes. I begin to melt inside like ice cream in July. It takes me to a-get-away, where I am granted and guaranteed safety. I can smell the pain you endure. But don’t be afraid, little brown skin girl, to let it go. You can cry on my shoulder whenever I am not crying on yours. Those who hurt you, will soon feel how strong you are and how little they mean to you. One day they’ll see how big your pain grew. One day they’ll know how it feels to reap what you sew. One day, they will dream of what it’s like to have people like you in their lives. And what it’s like to have a love such one as you in their dreams. One day, you and I will grow wings. Today beautiful, today.

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Clear My favorite color is clear I always admired plastic wrap Even when you put it over black, you still know it’s black because you can see through For so long I wanted you to see through me and every time I told you I was okay, you saw around me I never liked the smell of your favorite perfume It reminded me of every Saturday night you came home with a different man And they told you how much the loved your scent Every Sunday morning you sprayed it on like God didn’t know what it smelt like You asked me how you looked, like saving your soul was a Fashion Show I couldn’t apologize enough for feeling ungrateful for being here It wasn’t my fault you had to lay there lifeless while they lusted over your body Each night reminding you of the night I was conceived And tell your sister, whenever she’s not penetrating her skin with needles, That I want my body right next to her daughters So we can play hide and go seek in the graveyard and sing each other to sleep at dark Like we used to do when both you and your sister were pasted out in your high place Isabella, we killed her, and now I’m going to join her. They were her last words, make mine too, “Don’t wake me, I’m finally sleeping in my sanity”

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Jul 7, 2016

Jul 7, 2016 at 9:00 AM UTC

faithk

An Understanding

Clear My favorite color is clear I always admired plastic wrap Even when you put it over black, you still know it’s black because you can see through For so long I wanted you to see through me and every time I told you I was okay, you saw around me I never liked the smell of your favorite perfume It reminded me of every Saturday night you came home with a different man And they told you how much the loved your scent Every Sunday morning you sprayed it on like God didn’t know what it smelt like You asked me how you looked, like saving your soul was a Fashion Show I couldn’t apologize enough for feeling ungrateful for being here It wasn’t my fault you had to lay there lifeless while they lusted over your body Each night reminding you of the night I was conceived And tell your sister, whenever she’s not penetrating her skin with needles, That I want my body right next to her daughters So we can play hide and go seek in the graveyard and sing each other to sleep at dark Like we used to do when both you and your sister were pasted out in your high place Isabella, we killed her, and now I’m going to join her. They were her last words, make mine too, “Don’t wake me, I’m finally sleeping in my sanity”

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