I'm working hard
Almost everyday,
I do two jobs
But it's still not good enough
I wonder, if they want me
To **** myself?
Or maybe run off
Cause in their eyes
All I see is bitterness
My heart is dying inside
I really love them so much
I really want them in my life
But they keep pushing me
This is my sad story
My life has been
Black and white all the time
They called me stupid
It feels like I never asked
To learn something new
I've been wondering
What they would say
When I'm gone someday
Would they say
We're glad she is gone?
I got a question
To you all who reads me
Have you felt this way?
If you have then you know
What I'm talking about then
Thanks for your time
Pray for me to get better
Sep 24, 2015
Sep 24, 2015 at 8:05 PM UTC
They still can't see
That I'm trying to be
The best of me
They just don't get it
No matter what
I do it's never enough
But I'll never give up
I'll try to stay tough
They know my name
They just don't know
Who I really am
They say they care
But that is just a word
That passes me by
Like the heavy wind
I wish they know
That I'm hurt by them
It's all good though
Cause wherever I go
And whatever I do
My God is there too
Sep 24, 2015
Sep 24, 2015 at 7:33 AM UTC
I'm tired now
I'm sad too
I don't know
What to do
Stay or go
If you want too
I didn't know
I upset you
Come on now
But know this first
Jesus Christ
Is my happiness
Then you are
My dearest
Please don't go
Don't you know
I truly loved you
Before morning light
Please change your mind
Till then I'll pray to God
Have a blessed night
Sep 22, 2015
Sep 22, 2015 at 8:16 PM UTC
Many, many years a go
I was on my knee
Begging the Lord God
To give me a family
I didn't ask him exactly
What I wanted in family
I just asked the Lord
For mommy and daddy
And so God listened my prayer
He saw my tears and desire
After 4 and a half years later
From America I got a letter
And someone read it louder
To me and to my baby brother
I guess the reader
Was an American
But we had a translator
When he said mom and dad
My heart just sunk there
Aug 21, 2015
Aug 21, 2015 at 7:45 PM UTC
For seven and
A half years
I was blind
In this house
If you believe
In Jesus Christ
Please enough
Of your lies
I once believed you
Your whole pack of lies
That you had told me
Right in front of me
I'm very angry
You've been lying
To me, constantly
This is my life
Don't tell me
How to live
A mother love
Or a mother lie
Mother knows best
Or a mother hate
All of this buzzing
Inside of my head
I have no time
To play your
Little game
Sorry darling
I'm wide awake
Time to stand up
For what I believe
I can't let you
Tell me lies
Or tell me
How can live
My own life
Not ever again
So I need you
To be done
Aug 20, 2015
Aug 20, 2015 at 2:46 PM UTC
I know you're
Suffering
I'm sorry for
Everything
I've been praying
Darling
For God to give
You healing
Is there anything
That I can do
To get you back
The strong you
I want your pain
To be gone
I want to see you
Walking normal again
I've been praying
for you my darling
I want your illness
To go away very soon
I want you to know
I don't want you
To go, I miss you
Aug 16, 2015
Aug 16, 2015 at 10:28 PM UTC
His love is moving me tonight
From His unending great love
No one is going to depart me
His love and grace is my key
God knows every part of me
For my own sin and for this world,
Jesus, God’s son gave up His own life
Oh what amazing Love
He died in that wooden tree
On third day, He defeated death
Because of Jesus, God’s son lived
I’m completely set free
What a love can this be?
From my Big Father’s Love
No one is going to depart me
Jul 24, 2015
Jul 24, 2015 at 5:57 AM UTC
That painful day,
She remember it well,
That dreadful day,
She couldn’t forget
They all left her away
Never had a chance,
To tell them goodbye,
God could hear her cry,
He could hear her plea
After all she Couldn’t fake
The pain was making her weak
Life to her becomes an awful
She lost them one by one
So on everything
She blamed on God
Lord, Lord, Oh dear Lord
She said, this is not love
No one is there to hold
To above the sky
She believed, she could fly
Only because to say hi
To her loved ones
And come back to earth
Till God calls her name
Still it was not the answer
She knew they look down on her
It just the matter of loneliness here
Jul 20, 2015
Jul 20, 2015 at 12:27 AM UTC
Why your eyes,
Still are not fixed,
For so long, for so many years
We’ve been living together,
But we look like stranger,
I can’t look at your eyes,
They are intense and uptight
Evil, and so it seems,
Every time I try to look your eyes
I get so much headaches
I hear a voice telling me to run off
It just never told me to where
Some think, it’s scary
And Some think,
Something is wrong with me
But I’m not crazy
I wish they could see what I see
Your eyes still scares me
Jul 19, 2015
Jul 19, 2015 at 1:20 PM UTC
The kids I loved the most
Had become an evil
Oh life what did I do?
There is no a place to go
My soul cried so hard
My Blister heart
Have no rest
I’m weak and powerless
This place makes me sick
I’ve no a power to speak
Every day, I’m frighten
I’m left by myself alone
I’m scared of them
Their action tortures me
From inside and out
While I was crying,
I Prayed to God
I told Him everything was alright
I just feel unwanted and unloved
So take me away If I don’t belong in this world
If I die and leave from their sight,
The kids I loved the most,
Wouldn’t they be happy at last?
Jul 18, 2015
Jul 18, 2015 at 2:05 PM UTC