For Elijah
Who saw me as just another teenage girl
Whom he thought he could fix
After he unknowingly broke me
For Luke
Who was always too sweet to me
And didn't tell me until a year and a half later
That he only saw me as a sister
For Eric 1
Who shared his music with me
And started dating M
Before I could tell him
For Rusty
Who stabbed me in the back
With help from F
When neither of them were aware that they were holding knives
For Eric 2
Who reminded me of Rusty
And maybe that's the only reason
But who respected me without hesitation
For Cam
Who has a reputation of being nice
Who is problematic at times
And can't seem to leave my head
Apr 26, 2015
Apr 26, 2015 at 3:12 PM UTC
You're my umbrella
Constantly protecting me
From rain and wind
And other things of the sort
I know for a fact
That I always appreciate you
Whether or not
I always tell you
Last week I noticed
That while I was struggling to stay dry
You were struggling
To stay together
I hadn't realized
That while keeping me safe
You were in constant pain
And close to being torn apart
Dec 4, 2013
Dec 4, 2013 at 7:20 PM UTC
You'll forget me
I promised you
I could never
You promised in return
I was hoping to see you
Next summer
When I'll see the rest of them
But no
You won't be there next summer
You'll be away
Doing research
Or something
That gives you
Another whole year
To forget
All about me
I know what you promised me
But I wonder if you know
Because I know that most people
Do exactly what you promised not to
It'll be easy for you
To forget me
Just stop thinking about me
No big deal
If only
It were that easy
For me
To forget you
Oct 27, 2013
Oct 27, 2013 at 6:46 PM UTC
On Thursday
I found out what you said
On Tuesday
*I'm going to **** myself*
I tried to tell you
*No
It's not worth it
We both know it*
You said you'd stay
For now
I can't bear the thought
Of losing you
Forever
You're one of the few good things
That I have left in my life
I know it's cheesy
But please stay
You don't know how much
I need you
Or how much
My life would crumble without you
We both admit
At first
We hated each other
But look at us now
We're so close
Rumors started going around
That we were dating
So we made it look even more so
I tell you things
I wouldn't tell another soul
Or another person without a soul
Not even him
We've gotten in one
Maybe two
Fights
In the two years we haven't hated each other
That's impressive
For people like us
But being like us
Brought us closer together
You're better than anyone else I know
And I know a lot of people
You're one of my favorite people
In the entire world
I can't see my future without you in it
Without wanting to cry
Or scream
Or wish you were there
So for now
At least for tonight
Please
Stay.
Oct 16, 2013
Oct 16, 2013 at 5:56 PM UTC
Would anyone care
If I disappeared
Nobody seems to understand
That I hate it here
High school is definitely not
All that great
The best four years of my life
More like the four easiest to hate
The girl with the bracelets on her wrist
Doesn't eat lunch
She'll throw up breakfast when she gets home
Because she sees herself as "not much"
The boy who covers his face with hair
May never go to college
All of this goes on
Without his parents' knowledge
The quiet kid in the back of the class
Won't eat tonight
They won't do anything
Except escape to paradise
Sep 30, 2013
Sep 30, 2013 at 2:27 PM UTC
Isn't it funny
How when you're sick
You have two options:
Get better
Or die
When you're with someone
You can break up
Get married
Or die
(Before either of the other two can happen)
Isn't it funny
How death
Always
Seems to be an option
Somewhere in the list
Sep 29, 2013
Sep 29, 2013 at 2:18 PM UTC
I
Would
Appreciate
It
If
You
Could
Not
Make
Comments
Like
That
Because
They're
Still
Very
Hurtful
Don't
Think
That
I
Don't
See
My
Flaws
Everything
Bad
You
Tell
Me
About
Myself
I
Promise
I
Saw
It
Ten
Times
Worse
Than
You
Do
Before
You
Mentioned
It
Now
I
See
It
Twenty
Times
Worse
Sep 27, 2013
Sep 27, 2013 at 11:01 PM UTC
I see you
With your adorable smile
Even through the braces
Your flippy hair
Like the sand of a beach
On a beautiful day
Your skin
Isn't perfect
And that's alright
I don't know your name
But I do know
That I find you cute
It's a shame I've never seen your eyes
Because I'm too scared to look into them
And see you looking at mine
Sep 26, 2013
Sep 26, 2013 at 11:17 PM UTC
Trust me when I say
That I know
How bad I really am
At everything
My poems
Aren't deep enough
There aren't enough metaphors
Or complex wording
While doing math
I use my calculator
And still manage
To plug in the wrong digits
I tried to balance equations
Several times in chemistry
And while feeling too confident
I missed a number
In history class
I can't seem to remember
That I gained my right as a woman
To vote in 1920 (I think.)
While working with photography
My professor indirectly told me
That I'm really good
At taking bad pictures
I'm really trying this year
To stay on top of my work
And do my best
But obviously that's not enough
Sep 25, 2013
Sep 25, 2013 at 10:24 PM UTC
I talked to him
About how today was hard
And I was tired
And felt ill
I didn't give him many details
Because he didn't quite deserve to know
Yesterday was harder
That was the initial crash
Today was the crumble
The final downfall
The worst part
Is that nothing
At all
Directly affected me
It was hall her
And her dad
And how she
No longer has one
If you share your problems with me
I will immediately turn them into my problems
And feel almost as bad about them
As you do
It's not intentional
It just kind of happens
Like a rainbow
Or a hurricane
I've been told
That the feeling
Is called empathy
And I'm empathetic
When I told him
I'm empathetic
He misunderstood me
You're not pathetic
Though I appreciate the sentiment
Taken from mistaken words
I honestly believe
That both statements are true
Sep 24, 2013
Sep 24, 2013 at 7:02 PM UTC