
emma-jewel
"I thought of happy endings, how novelists usually flinched. To admit your characters are doomed means you are too." -Darcey Steinke, Suicide Blonde / I'm a 20 year old in Springfield, MO. I am gender queer, preferring they/them or it/its pronouns. I struggle with mental illnesses but take steps to use them as places from which I draw inspiration. I feel achingly deep or not at all. I am art. I want to be an enigma.
Her bookshelf to the brim and bursting
With pages worn, and well
Remembered for the virtues
Lost
And husbands in the war
Fallen woman--fall, and women
Harvests sown and reaped
Moon of full, of wax, of
Wane
Her heart of Shadow's seed
Hand of diamond and of band
Ashes, ashes, dust
A love once lived and now, one
Lost
The pages' faces face us
And sages burn, away
May 3, 2018
May 3, 2018 at 8:16 AM UTC
Genderless with scraped knees and
A lipstick crush on one who bore the same name as me
Uncut brown hair untouched by bleach and
Stealing kisses from my best friend while my parents lied asleep
Lying in the grass with a picture book on faeries
Listening to the wind whistle through our dying trees
Jumping on the bed with my ***** and my bubby
Giggling hand over mouth when my mother called him "hubby"
Daisy chains and he loves me nots
Unbrushed teeth beginning to rot
***** shoes and ***** shoelaces
Visiting imagined places
Pink striped socks and a skirt to mismatch
Waiting for robins eggs to fall or to hatch
O, to be a child and to live within a dream
To lie awake at ten past eight, imagination like a stream
Mar 9, 2017
Mar 9, 2017 at 9:31 AM UTC
Hands
calloused and strong lift my veil, carry me over the threshold
Turn shadows into birds when wings falter, cup round the flame biting my cigarette
Tilt my face to share a sweet kiss, rest gently against blushing cheeks
Shelter from the cold, warm me in and out and in and...
Flip through musty book pages done up with dog ears and underlines
Brush curls from his face, sweep sweet sweat from his brow
In the dirt transfer love to the life created within it
Feb 26, 2017
Feb 26, 2017 at 11:49 AM UTC
We rearranged the furniture and I sat like a stone, wondering
what it was like to be a stranger in one's own home
The floor creaks are unfamiliar but the bed is known and
The coffee is always stronger when boiling water is left alone
Feb 21, 2017
Feb 21, 2017 at 8:48 AM UTC
Black lives matter
Not a war cry, but a plea
An affirmation, united nation
A cry of passion and a
call to action
The coming together
Of "we"
All lives matter--or rather--
White lives matter
When the police say, please
Put the gun down, cease!
As our brothers and sisters lie deceased
In the streets
With their murders captured, viral, shared
Not a human, but a piece of meat
The enemy of the people
The enemies of "we"
Sit high upon their thrones
Dictating laws for you
And me
They tell us we are free
While they force us to our knees
Our enemy is not beside but
The persons above, who reside
"They" "the man" "big brother" "the suits"
Obama, Trump, Clinton--Bernie Sanders, too
United we stand, united "they" fall
And perhaps, on that day, we can say "all"
But for now
Black Lives Matter
To fight is our choice
The power is in the people and
Our collective voice
Stand together, make things better
And hear humanity rejoice
Jan 15, 2017
Jan 15, 2017 at 9:56 AM UTC
Burn sage
Pineapple sage
Read books on massage, potpourri and herbs
And never forget to
help one another
On dishes, on dreams, thoughts in a stream-
ing consciousness consciously
love one another
And never forget
Why he came
Jan 3, 2017
Jan 3, 2017 at 1:41 PM UTC
Telltale signs of paranoia ***** at the hackles that run from head
(to heart)
down the spine
drown the mind
Psychotic neurotic autistic artistic
Imagination whirls like wind through the pines and
The hair along my spine
Is standing
Jan 2, 2017
Jan 2, 2017 at 9:29 PM UTC
Let's lie in our bed
Among pillows and threads
Wear your hair on my head, as a crown
Borne of Brautigan's dreams
Rainbow trouts in the stream
Watermelon moonbeams trickle down
Dec 23, 2016
Dec 23, 2016 at 10:21 AM UTC
Grey clouds gather plump and perfect above my crown
A moment of silence held sacred by the birds
A moment to settle before I am washed away
Rainfall rolls soft and supple from our mother sky
With gentle thanks do the leaves cup the sweet nectar
With ancient thirst the soil drinks her in
Dirt darkens wet and washed within our mother earth
Eyes open and breath rolls slow and low like thunder
Eyes close and senses gather up her scent
Full flowers sway sweetly beneath a rockabye breeze
Petals dance gracefully to the beat of each drip drop drop
Petals lace their fingers together and bow in prayer
Sep 29, 2016
Sep 29, 2016 at 8:53 AM UTC
Slither within my spine
Wither, within my mind
Doctor Jekyll, Mr. Hyde
One coin, two sides
Sep 6, 2016
Sep 6, 2016 at 11:56 AM UTC