The unimpressed look on your face
The slightly annoyed brush away
The silence, the words you never say
Don't say "I love you to me"
Nov 23, 2014
Nov 23, 2014 at 5:32 PM UTC
I never understood before
the meaning of being infuriated by someone
and annoyed at them
and arguing too much
but still wanting to speak to them
before I met you
I never could see before
how each word could be so important
that they're analysed each
until all possible meaning has been confused
and then happily construed
before I met you
I never could feel before
the knowing of having someone
the wanting to get it right
so much you're worried all the time
because you care so much for them
before I met you
I never did hear before
the doubts I have of myself
the voices that question me
to try and be the better person
the best person for you to have
before I met you
Apr 20, 2014
Apr 20, 2014 at 8:09 PM UTC
This is meant to be the best thing that ever was
And sometimes it feels like it is
But sometimes the happiness of what I feel for you
Is balanced by the cutting of my feelings for me
Is it you that makes me feel like I do?
Or do I judge myself too strong?
This isn't sustainable for me to proceed
If this is permanent, I just can't
There's an empty feeling that trickles down inside of me
Telling me I'm not good enough
Saying I shouldn't be acting that way
The way that felt so right before
If only I could see the right way to go
Maybe I'd feel better inside
But life isn't so black and white, as they say
And grey is a hard shade to tell
And in a while something will change
The feelings will start to pass
Overcome with something more hopeful than them
This time, I'm hoping it'll last
Apr 20, 2014
Apr 20, 2014 at 8:03 PM UTC
They seem to come around midnight
The groans and cries of pain
Hiding behind the fancy words
That the poet did create
But my friends in writing
When the hour comes for you
With your words, you're not alone
We're all feeling it too
Dec 14, 2013
Dec 14, 2013 at 7:18 PM UTC
I'd rather have friends than enemies
I'd rather have love than hate
And if that love don't seem big enough
I guess I'll just have to wait
The grass is always greener
At least that's what they all say
But to see it from the other side
Has not yet been my fate
I've tried to find it everywhere
I've looked and searched in vain
But for me, it's not yet to be
And that's what gives me pain
Now it's made me miss some things
That are right in front of my face
A different kind of love, you see
Is sometime hard to trace
But I'll take what I've been given
And try more to appreciate
The things I have, and for the things I've not
I guess I'll just have to wait
Dec 14, 2013
Dec 14, 2013 at 7:15 PM UTC
My heart is adrift
Lost out in the sea
Caught up in the waves
Nothing like me
You are the lifeboat
Who'll find me out there
You know where am
For you truly care
Sep 22, 2013
Sep 22, 2013 at 6:23 PM UTC
In the passing of the night
With only friendship left to lose
Encouraged by some drunken friends
And eddied by the *****
We talked a while, just you and me
In fading smokey light
Until I could convince myself
The timing had come right
I though that you had shown a sign
The words you said were true
But what I thought the words did mean
Was not what they were to you
The laughter I thought was nervous hope
Was plainly misconcieved
And looking back I see I saw
What I wanted to believe
I took a step and passed all points
That had been passed before
A calamity of awkward words
Shared by the front door
You look surprised and not quite sure
Of what you're supposed to say
But all I wanted was the truth
Not just a part to play
It wasn't the answer I wanted to hear
But I know you're not to blame
I'm only happy I know where we stand
Alhough we don't feel the same
And though I don't regret the action
The method wasn't right
So I hope you don't hold against me
What passed the other night
Jun 2, 2013
Jun 2, 2013 at 9:34 AM UTC
I want to tell you how I feel but don't know what to say
The cheesey lines that come to me say "colours fade to grey"
A gentle blandness hangs around but I can't work out why
I carry out the same routines that now seem dull and dry
For some reason excitement's gone and I'm just feeling down
For a little while I'll fake a smile, paint it like a clown
I know that it will lift in time, but here the hope seems thin
Melancholy dreariness, no passion in the hymn
I trust that you will lift the fog as you have done before
Break into my apathy, and rock me to the core
For now I'll plod along the road, make sense of what is mine
And as I go, I'll sing along - A "Perfect Day For Sunshine"
Mar 11, 2013
Mar 11, 2013 at 5:47 PM UTC
You think that I don't cope
When in fact I cope all the time
But sometime I don't cope so well...
Jan 19, 2013
Jan 19, 2013 at 11:18 AM UTC
I can't seem to connect
to say what I want to
So I write to someone else,
knowing that you will hear
They say "You turn sorrow into dancing"
but I often find it hard to believe or see
But I see and feel it so clearly now
And for that I am so grateful
The laughter
the confidence
the peace
the sharing
the food
the love you gave
You are so great-full
More than my attempt at a pun could ever say
Dec 25, 2012
Dec 25, 2012 at 8:05 PM UTC