i can see the light
it's coming now
after years of darkness
i can finally see
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 5:17 PM UTC
she is beneath my skin
tangled in my hair
she is the cold wind
swirling in the air
she is the pain i feel
everywhere
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 3:50 PM UTC
i never thought i would be free
from your wrath
your warmth
your anger
your passion
your danger
everything is different now
since you changed
since you decided
not to love me
anymore
sometimes i wish things could be
how they were when we left off
but then i remember
why we left off
it was so pure at first
so genuine
we clicked
we matched
it was magic
but you changed your mind
and you changed your heart
you made me live in fear
flinching when you raised your arm
afraid that if i did something wrong
i would be done for
i tried to be perfect
perfect for you
i only wanted you to be happy
my happiness did not matter anymore
now you are happy
good for you
i am happy too
now that i'm not with you
Feb 5, 2019
Feb 5, 2019 at 2:37 PM UTC
thank you for teaching me
what i could not learn
on my own
in a way you empower me
yet i constantly
am belittled
by the pressures unspoken
i am powerful
i am powerless
and i am humbled
by the sharp stabs
to my confidence
at times i feel superior
to all negative forces
but then you come around
to destroy me yet again
i will let you in no more
for i am bigger than
the insecurities
and the headaches
i am forced to endure
every
second
of
my
life.
to be indubitably fearless
is an amazing thing
to think that nothing
nothing
could ever
hold me back
but the thought
of never again being restrained
is foreign
to be fearless
is ideal
but could never be possible
when you fill me with doubt
and regret
and negative energy
but to be fearless
is to look you in the face
and say
**** you
Jan 15, 2019
Jan 15, 2019 at 9:44 AM UTC
i have always been
a product of my own self destruction
my heart sinking deeper and deeper
down the darkest path
every time i try to speak
i am now free
i have found my voice
i am no longer caged by my own limitations
i have set myself free
by letting go
of my insecurities
i can soar on my own
without the help of others
i can fly freely
without the fear of
being put back
in that cage i once built for myself
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 10:26 AM UTC
i don’t want to lose you
i don’t want to be with you
i don't want to be without you
i don’t want you in my life
i can’t imagine a life without you
you make me crazy
you are crazy
you have no idea
how crazy i am
about
you
you have no idea
how much you make my head spin
trying to wrap myself around
your conniving messages
trying to understand
why you do this to me
trying to understand
why i still fall for you
trying to understand
you
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 10:19 AM UTC