i can see the light
it's coming now
after years of darkness
i can finally see
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 5:17 PM UTC
she is beneath my skin
tangled in my hair
she is the cold wind
swirling in the air
she is the pain i feel
everywhere
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 3:50 PM UTC
i never thought i would be free
from your wrath
your warmth
your anger
your passion
your danger
everything is different now
since you changed
since you decided
not to love me
anymore
sometimes i wish things could be
how they were when we left off
but then i remember
why we left off
it was so pure at first
so genuine
we clicked
we matched
it was magic
but you changed your mind
and you changed your heart
you made me live in fear
flinching when you raised your arm
afraid that if i did something wrong
i would be done for
i tried to be perfect
perfect for you
i only wanted you to be happy
my happiness did not matter anymore
now you are happy
good for you
i am happy too
now that i'm not with you
Feb 5, 2019
Feb 5, 2019 at 2:37 PM UTC
There is art
In your heart
Painting pictures
When I lay
My head down on your chest
There are songs in your eyes
Singing lullabies
When you hover
Pin me down
With your stare
There is a poem
On the tip
Of your tongue
I taste it
When I kiss you
You are tortured
Stereotyped
My jaded lover
I hear it
When you won't talk
Jan 21, 2019
Jan 21, 2019 at 9:58 AM UTC
thank you for teaching me
what i could not learn
on my own
in a way you empower me
yet i constantly
am belittled
by the pressures unspoken
i am powerful
i am powerless
and i am humbled
by the sharp stabs
to my confidence
at times i feel superior
to all negative forces
but then you come around
to destroy me yet again
i will let you in no more
for i am bigger than
the insecurities
and the headaches
i am forced to endure
every
second
of
my
life.
to be indubitably fearless
is an amazing thing
to think that nothing
nothing
could ever
hold me back
but the thought
of never again being restrained
is foreign
to be fearless
is ideal
but could never be possible
when you fill me with doubt
and regret
and negative energy
but to be fearless
is to look you in the face
and say
**** you
Jan 15, 2019
Jan 15, 2019 at 9:44 AM UTC
I...I love you.
That is the only way i can dis scribe this,
i love it when you kiss me,
your lips are soft,
and gentle,
no ones kissed my like this before.
you say you love me,
and my heart roars,
its a gushing volcano of hot lava.
you touch,
plants gardens.
your eyes,
big,
beautiful,
Russet ,
orbs,
i cant look away.
the way you look at me,
speaks a language,
without words.
You are Virgo ,
and i a Gemini.
you are kind.
and loving.
i cant let you out of my head.
BOOM
you broke my heart.
the way you kissed me was terrible
the volcano is inactive
the garden is a decay of mold, chopped trees, and weeds
your eyes are the color of ****
and now everything is silent.
I can't believe i let you in.
at least i didn't give you anything important.
its just a heart
nothing special.
Jan 15, 2019
Jan 15, 2019 at 9:32 AM UTC
through thick and thin
that’s what we said
but now i look across the bed
the empty space, so big and clear
it’s all that i could ever fear
close friends at best
never more
but now it’s gone
forgotten lore
why did we
entwine our limbs
embrace in passion
on such a whim
i regret that night
our thoughts astray
clouded by the playful day
now you barely look at me
and when you do I see the guilt
it’s ok
i feel it too
but if you’d just talk to me
i’d help you realize, you’re still free
please don’t regret my body’s touch
or how you sought the sheets to clutch
but most important
don’t forget
what we had before the end
a loving friendship, down to the core
never thought I’d see the door
i’m locked outside
you have the key
through thick and thin?
guess that was just me.
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 2:15 PM UTC
i have always been
a product of my own self destruction
my heart sinking deeper and deeper
down the darkest path
every time i try to speak
i am now free
i have found my voice
i am no longer caged by my own limitations
i have set myself free
by letting go
of my insecurities
i can soar on my own
without the help of others
i can fly freely
without the fear of
being put back
in that cage i once built for myself
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 10:26 AM UTC
i don’t want to lose you
i don’t want to be with you
i don't want to be without you
i don’t want you in my life
i can’t imagine a life without you
you make me crazy
you are crazy
you have no idea
how crazy i am
about
you
you have no idea
how much you make my head spin
trying to wrap myself around
your conniving messages
trying to understand
why you do this to me
trying to understand
why i still fall for you
trying to understand
you
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 10:19 AM UTC