little lies become
big bruises, become
stashed secrets, become
****** sheets...again, become
tearful apologies, become
“i promise I’ll do better”.
But then
arms that held you become
arms that push, becomes
head first down the stairs, become
broken ribs, become
ER visits full of
little lies.
Mar 10, 2017
Mar 10, 2017 at 12:06 AM UTC
There are days when I swear I am a hundred feet tall.
And then there are days when I swear the world has slipped out
from underneath my feet.
God help me be enough for me
Because I can't keep ******* in water every time I try to breathe.
Feb 17, 2017
Feb 17, 2017 at 10:43 PM UTC
Exhausted
But I can’t sleep.
I am terrified
Because every time I let
My eyelids fall shut
You are there.
A daydream
Once, now you are a nightmare.
Comfort
I can no longer find
In your arms.
You
Clung too tightly
To the bottle and to her
(I bet you thought I didn’t know).
Haunted
As you were,
Now I am haunted too.
Desperation
Takes new form
On the bathroom floor
Pills keep me awake
Keep me awake
Keep me awake.
Mar 6, 2015
Mar 6, 2015 at 2:55 PM UTC
Take your lovely words and go
Just go.
I have no need for your pretty goodbyes
Pretty lies.
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 4:12 AM UTC
I'm drunk
Again
And I know I said
I wouldn't call
But
**** it
I miss you
And
If I'm being honest
I don't
Know how to
Be me
Without
You.
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 3:37 AM UTC
She told me empty wasn't a feeling.
Empty is the feeling at the bottom of every bottle,
Its the tone on the other end of the line.
Its the cold side of the bed
That I'm afraid to sleep on anymore
Empty is the feeling I get every time the door closes
Its Ed Hardy cologne and nikes.
Its love notes that I still find in my truck.
She told me empty wasn't a feeling.
Dec 3, 2014
Dec 3, 2014 at 10:35 PM UTC
Last night I saw the dark you again.
You talked of girls, ex lovers
And ghosts.
You clung to the bottle
Like it was all you had left in this world
While I held your hand.
I'm terrified of your scars
And what they might mean.
I'm learning that you are broken
beyond repair.
I can't kiss your broken heart back together
But I promise not to leave.
Dec 3, 2014
Dec 3, 2014 at 10:13 PM UTC
I caved and drunk called you again last night.
"i dont think i can i ever stop loving you"
I know you cradled the phone like you used to hold me
You whispered "its ok. everything is ok"
And I cried.
Nov 21, 2014
Nov 21, 2014 at 1:44 PM UTC
And in that moment
I held the ocean in my palms.
Feb 27, 2014
Feb 27, 2014 at 2:08 PM UTC
It's raining, and you're gone again.
I never noticed how sad that song is,
Until it was playing in the rain
As I drove away,
With you in my rear view for the last time.
I have this dream
You chase after me
Begging me not to go.
My truck creaks when you aren't in the passenger seat. Singing along to that song.
Sometime I wish you wrote sad peotry too.
About me, writing about you.
Feb 26, 2014
Feb 26, 2014 at 10:50 PM UTC