you are an
exfoliant;
coarse and fine
you scrape me raw
painfully
but in the end
your sharp cuts
hide an ointment
and my soul
thanks me for you;
for this change,
a renewal,
healing after
necessary
destruction
(out with the dead,
in with the new)
Nov 30, 2018
Nov 30, 2018 at 7:05 AM UTC
but the only thing thats moving
are my thoughts,
they race ahead and below
and i've given up tracing
the trail they blaze before
without a doubt
burning out
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 6:20 PM UTC
i'm so scared all the time
i know that doesn't make me special
the only thing special about me
is my lack of understanding
for others for emotion
i wish i could dissect them
like frogs
and reassemble the pieces to fit better
out of altruism, so they hurt less
out of selfishness, so i know how theyre built
and can predict
when they will break down next
Oct 5, 2018
Oct 5, 2018 at 6:11 PM UTC
the sound of the highway outside
whispers through this rain-tapped glass:
quiet and fleeting and constant,
so like wind and rain and nature,
ebbs and flows, soothes with those
highs and lows and breaks—
with no telling when it will end,
just a rhythm like sleepy breaths,
a lullaby in the making
i prefer this noise to silence
outside my window in that dark;
a vast world alive and vibrant
while i slip into muted dreams
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 6:50 PM UTC
there is a glow about you today
a warm sun blanketed in sky-gray
and though the world still spirals
for a second, with you, i can forget
Sep 19, 2018
Sep 19, 2018 at 3:44 PM UTC
Leather suits you
because you, too
were alive once
and are now dead;
and the bright red
— oh, sweet bloodshed! —
vanishes on black
Sep 14, 2018
Sep 14, 2018 at 1:14 PM UTC
it would have been easier if you were cruel
if your tongue dripped poison and not honey
if your words cut because they were sharp
and not because i showed you my soft places
if you had been malicious instead of careless
it would have been easier for me to heal
if you had been less easy to forgive
Sep 14, 2018
Sep 14, 2018 at 6:28 AM UTC
like a flower in a high place,
i cannot help but gaze upon
the beauty prospering adverse
to callous wind and granite stone;
one day i will watch you fall grace-
fully, petals aflutter, and mourn
the absence your passing creates:
a world less beautiful and rare.
Sep 13, 2018
Sep 13, 2018 at 10:13 AM UTC
the night sings to me with silence,
the whisper of trees and far away cars,
noises and nothings steeped in sibilance
as ceaseless and steady as my somnolent breaths
Sep 11, 2018
Sep 11, 2018 at 5:46 PM UTC
the post-mortem will say:
sudden cardiac arrest
(medicine cannot quantify
death by a broken heart).
i thought it was sweet,
the arrhythmia you gave me
(at least the butterflies
dissolved harmlessly in acid).
you knew me, invasively,
a mortician's secret autopsy
(you counting my scars, ribs,
was it more habit than desire?)
curiosity is what killed me;
mine and yours, ill-matched
(i would have preferred cruelty
to your cool detachment).
the post-mortem has found:
i died of natural causes
(which makes you, my heart-
breaker, a force of nature)
Sep 3, 2018
Sep 3, 2018 at 7:15 AM UTC