He is the tumultuous ocean,
The twisting, rolling sea
That feigns a certain gentleness
Until its rage breaks free
So vast and so unending
And limitless in worth
I took him once for granted
As I wandered through the surf.
Without the tumulus ocean
Without its rolling seas
Without the tide that tosses me
And never sets me free
The arid, fallow earth would crack
Beneath my burning feet
Reminding me of which I lost
And dried up with the heat
But salt leaves me to languish
No sweetness he can quench
Time will only tell from here
If love can fill this trench.
Aug 9, 2014
Aug 9, 2014 at 10:41 PM UTC
It starts off with a whisper,
a slight ruffle,
like a summer breeze moving through tree branches,
a few twisted words that slip from loose lips,
that's all it takes to stir up a hurricane of chaos
Hey did you hear?
whispers that evoke labels
&
discrimination
as if they magically grant everyone permission to poke and ****
*
**** ***** ***** worthless
ugly loner *** ***
these twisted words lead to stares that burn holes with the heat of their intensity
&
pointed fingers that judge,
&
condemn
Did you hear about what happened?! You won't believe it!
they lead to giggles
&
laughs brought on by a sick satisfaction of entertainment found at the expense of the agony of another
Oh my god, isn't that her?
they lead to tears behind closed doors
&
ends with nothing but
painpainpainpain
Jul 28, 2014
Jul 28, 2014 at 4:46 PM UTC
not the kind of pain that tickles and pokes
but the kind that knocks you back a few feet when it hits
&
rips the air out of your lungs
like the few moments of excruciating pain you feel when you stub your toe or clamp your hand between a door
it's an unexpected kind of pain
& your nerve endings can't help but become overwhelmed in pain
it's a greedy kind of love
the kind that takes and takes and TAKES
it slices you open, not enough to be fatal but just enough to bleed
&
that's all that's left for you to do,
b l e e d
this love bleeds you dry,
it takes all that is you
&
leaves nothing behind
nothing for others to identify you by
it leaves nothing for others to
s a l v a g e
it's a suffocating kind of love
like a horrible case of claustrophobia
the walls seem to be closing in
the world is getting smaller
the air is getting thinner
&
you watch for a few painful seconds as you lay there gasping for life
clawing at the walls like a trapped mouse
aware that you are dying
aware that there you are utterly helpless to stop it
a love whose purpose is to cage
not treasure
it boxes you up
&
creates a world that composes of only two strong arms that feel more like a prison than comfort
they bind
&
enclose on you
it's a love that should know when to stop
but doesn't
it's a never ending cycle of violence
of heavy fists
&
relentless kicks
then sweet kisses that act as apologies
trying to soothe the pain
&
then whispers
"I'm sorry, never again. I promise."
words that you know not to trust
it is a love with no way out
Jul 28, 2014
Jul 28, 2014 at 1:01 PM UTC
I hate you.
I hate you for what you did to me.
I hate you for making me write about you.
I hate you for making me love you
I love you
I love you for caring about me
I love you for filling my thoughts
I hate you for loving me
Jul 14, 2014
Jul 14, 2014 at 4:08 PM UTC
you realize you have no one
when you're screaming into your pillow at 2 am
and you call them
and it rings
and you get sent to voicemail
because everyone can fall asleep
and no one really cares
when your head is about to explode
your heart is bleeding acidic poison rotting you from the inside out
and
you're choking on every single letter formed into words that escaped their mouth
Jun 25, 2014
Jun 25, 2014 at 11:07 AM UTC
~
If I could come to you ..
be there for you
speak no words,
just hold you
in my arms,
place my hand in yours ..
I would
◇
If I could be there ..
let you know
with my eyes
that all will be well,
just sit with you ..
I would
◇
If I could be at your side
take your pain,
caress the hurt,
kiss your tears
with my hand on your heart ..
I would
~
Jun 25, 2014
Jun 25, 2014 at 11:07 AM UTC
I have run out
Of people to run to
When everything is falling apart
I touch my hipbone
And this one spot beneath my chest
Ever so slightly
When I want to feel better
About anything
I wish the earth gave you an option
Night or day
For when you need goosebumps from the sun
Or a calm, cool silence
Sometimes broken
Is better than bent
Because bent might break later on
Jun 16, 2014
Jun 16, 2014 at 3:03 PM UTC
"Are you afraid?"
Yes I am afraid.
I'm afraid of so much
like the endings to books,
actually loving someone,
having to tell my mother
what I am.
I'm afraid that my family
will hate me,
that my friends already
do.
That everyone who sees me
labels me as
Miss Confused.
I'm afraid of death and life
and everything in between the
two.
Maybe I'm afraid of myself
but I don't truly have
a clue.
I know I'm afraid of who I will
love one day.
What if they hate me now
or what if they think I'm weird?
What if it's the person I broke up
because I didn't love them
anymore.
I'm afraid of a lot of things
and everyone knows it.
Because a world without
fear.
Is like a world without
law.
It's unruly and unjust.
And you do stupid
things that can
get everyone
killed.
So I'm afraid of the alternative,
the thing I fear most
in this world.
Jun 16, 2014
Jun 16, 2014 at 3:03 PM UTC
Dear Random Strangers,
Your sideways glances and whispered remarks have been noticed.
What you think has no effect actually means the world.
I would like to ask you...
No...Beg you...
To please stop judging me because of the marks on my wrist,
Allow me the chance to tell you my story,
Before you put the damaged book in the trash.
I know my corners are dog-ear,
Yes some pages are ripped,
And my cover is torn and scratched.
But looks can be deceiving.
Random Stranger, I know we haven't met
But every time one person disregards me,
It becomes more easy to believe I am trash,
And it makes me want to throw myself away...
Jun 5, 2014
Jun 5, 2014 at 7:10 PM UTC
We’ve been given the Earth
And told to fix their transgressions
But that’s easy for them to say
While they’re relaxing away in heaven
The generation before
Has really ******* us over
And if we don’t act quickly
We’ll be faced with some indecent exposure
May 28, 2014
May 28, 2014 at 8:31 PM UTC