I give to you this collection of swiftly decaying organisms in the chance that it might sway your stone heart to beat once again.
I take you to the beach in the early morning. In the hopes that the color might return to your pale, rotten skin.
I offer you my jumbled thoughts in words while you sleep. To ensure you won't truly hear me because I know you cannot care any longer.
I offer you my jacket, though you insist you no longer feel the cold. I give it despite knowing you to be right.
I hold aloft the umbrella though your eyes say you don't care as your damp hair clings to your neck.
Darling, they told me to move on. At times I know they're right and at times I know they're also wrong. As a human can be both ugly and beautiful, they can be both right and wrong.
I need to stop loving a corpse.
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 1:20 PM UTC
Breathless
I feel the flames creep through the corridors
Devouring each room in seconds
Searching, searching
The Smoke
Stealing the oxygen from my lungs
I feel it clog my throat
Breathing black tar
Clouding my vision as it clouds my lungs
The building trembles with me
Booth shudder as we struggle not to be consumed by the fire
The blaze casts it’s tongues to me, scorching me
It reaches for me
Beckoning me into it’s welcome arms
It coils it’s temptation around me, restricting
Lacing through my veins
You are the fire
Freeing me
Killing me.
Feb 4, 2014
Feb 4, 2014 at 6:06 PM UTC
I stand at the edge of this forest weeping
My demons hiding, creeping, creeping
I’m searching for a hint of light
Separation from this endless night
Some how this darkness caught me
Tearing away all that I could be
Keeping me from those around
It never let me make a sound
As months, years passed
Over and over again I asked
The same question that plagued my mind
Though it held an answer so hard to find
At last I found it would speak to me
Give the answer I thought I may not see
I asked for my means of escape and for it to be true
“To escape, the person you must **** is you.”
Feb 3, 2014
Feb 3, 2014 at 6:12 PM UTC
Regardless of whether you're here or not
I'll lay awake tonight
And every night that follows
And I'll think of you
Your voice will lace my cries
Your being will haunt the tears
I have been forsaken
Regardless of whether you notice
I will draw blood again
Maybe once
Maybe hundreds
Even the closest can be blind to it all
All it took
Was to see
How little I meant to you
To bring me back so low
To know that I'm a game again
A simple pawn for the playing
I'm screaming out your name
Though I know you can't hear me
All the while knowing
I'm hardly a blink to your eye
Can you not see me?
Or do you simply just
Not
Care?
Jan 29, 2014
Jan 29, 2014 at 1:41 AM UTC
Everything ends
Even you
Even me
So take this dagger
And plunge it deep
As we lay dying
Our blood pools as one
Our fingers intertwined
I look in your eyes
I see freedom
A world without pain
A world free from hardships
As we lay dying
Our memories behinds us
Both good and bad
None of it will matter
Now we are one and the same
Jan 24, 2014
Jan 24, 2014 at 8:54 PM UTC
Promise not to fade from my eyes
Promise not to fall to the hands of defeat
You're all I need
You're all I have
You're all I am
I stand here battered and broken
My feet tethered in this hell
My demons clawing at my skin
I'm grasping for your hand
Don't you say I've given in
I'm holding to this broken heart
As I watch you fading away
You're letting go
You're giving in
You no longer see me here
You're fading into darkness
All the while I'm chained to you
Our hearts are set in sync
Our bond written in blood
You're bringing about your death
And I'm fallowing all the while
Jan 17, 2014
Jan 17, 2014 at 11:28 AM UTC
And the depression hits
Like a raging winter
Icing my veins
Chilling my soul
A vast emptiness
Soon to consume me
Eager to eradicate
All that I am
Festering Loneliness
And eating away inside
These hollow inhibitions
Filling my lungs
I am a mere host to you
My demons
A slave to you
Your cruel intentions
Maybe this longing will suffice
Prolonging this ever longer
An eternal slumber to my sanity
An eternal request for the end
Jan 8, 2014
Jan 8, 2014 at 11:27 PM UTC
This pain I feel
Not my own
The welkin low and grey
The tears of the sky
Cascade forth from my eyes
Stealing the sorrow from the heavens
Such a gloom hovers
Inhaling into tar-struck lungs
The trees veiled in the gray
This shadow conceals me
In my infinite
Not all that is eternal is right
A cold stone heart
Still forever
That being eternal
A frost sinks in
The chill felt through my veins
An endless winter
An eternal torment
Can you see the beauty?
The grace of death
My one true friend
We are forever apart
How I long for you
Dark clouds sink
Giving way to more frost
A cold transparent
Jan 8, 2014
Jan 8, 2014 at 3:22 PM UTC
We all have corrupt minds
No matter how we deny it
Through time they are tainted
What dictates how
Each person comes to be
Is how they come to pass
Through the corruption
Through the outside voices
That muddle each choice
The truly good are those
Who manage through the pollution
Who see past the litter
Those who can differ the true from the ****
That live gives
It is a sight discovered
Not taught
It is a sense of mind developed
Not cheated
It is clarity
Jan 3, 2014
Jan 3, 2014 at 10:50 PM UTC
This, this emotion
Some form of disillusion
And they question why
Questioning me
As they question themselves
I embrace the fog
The same one that holds it all
My past
My present
And the end
The one that is my future
I have little time left
That little I hold dear
Each word with precision
I have learned to hate
This time
The time I have left
Spent only with those
Too familiar with my end
Or to unknowing
To have some semblance of a care
They came to drive me toward this
This wanting
This longing for death
Suicide is no longer there
That option I had
It would only be pity now
In the eyes of the strangers
I draw back my words now
Regress into silence
Take my tears
Take my breath
Take my soul
This longing
Consuming
Ensuing
The sooner it grows near
The less my voice rings
The less I am heard
I am transparent
Fading
Save me from this
This digressing host
This uninhabitable being
Free me from myself
Jan 2, 2014
Jan 2, 2014 at 9:47 PM UTC