elizabeth-rifenburg
American
My name is Elizabeth, I am 23 years old. I am currently a full time student at Olean Business Institute perusing an Associates Degree in Business Administration. I love to write poetry, it has been a passion of mine since I was a young girl. Someday I hope to have my work published. I am a Renal Cancer patient fighting everyday to beat it. A lot of my poetry has become about dying and fighting cancer and what it means to truly value life.
Forgetting the day
Caught in the moment
Engulfed by the vision
Lost in a trance
Capture the second
The moon breaks the darkness
Hearts beat the rhythm
To which two lovers dance
Embrace the passion
Eyes locked to eyes
Waves sooth the tension
As sand greets the sea
Now hand in hand
Hearts intertwine
Our lips meet so softly
You and I become we…
Nov 27, 2011
Nov 27, 2011 at 2:16 AM UTC
I am
The water that flows through the streams
And through my veins
I am
The wind that blows through the trees
And fills my lungs
I am the sun light that lightens the world
And fills my eyes with reflection
I am
The earth which brings life to plants
And sustains, life, in this body
I am
The intent which causes life to move
And wakes me with purpose in the morn
I am
The desire of love ,innocent
Unattached, moving, living
I am everything
And I am nothing
When I “think” that I am this or that….
I am the drop
When I “think” that I am nothing….
I am the ocean
I am not the eye seeing
But the one who making me see
I am not the one hearing
But the one who makes me hear
I am not the one tasting
I am not the one smelling
I am not this
Not this
Realizing the roots of humility
Surrendering
I am
Lost in the divine mother
One……
Without another
Nov 27, 2011
Nov 27, 2011 at 2:14 AM UTC
Your were there ...
In the worse of times.
Your were there in the very best.
You were there when I cried.
My head buried deep into your chest.
Th tears and whimpers and sighs...
And you were there when the sky fell.
The true love of a friend.
Even when I was in hell.
And you were there no matter how many times I died.
You never faltered to the end.
You picked me back up and made me stand.
The true love of a friend.
And it didn't matter how far or low I fell.
You didn't make me feel less of a man.
You were there to make me well.
The true love of a friend.
And when everyone else would pass judgement.
As plain as the eye could see.
The only two left standing. Was just you and only me.
You gave me strength and honor...
When no one gave me slack.
And sniped and back-stabbed and ridiculed...
Behind my hurting back.
You were there when I contemplated suicide.
And because of your love.... I'm still here..
I'm alive...
The true love of a friend.
Only cause you cared.
Only...
You were there.
The true love of a friend.
Nov 27, 2011
Nov 27, 2011 at 2:11 AM UTC
Someday when the world isn’t so cold
And smiles smother her tempered heart
She’ll open her eyes to a new life
Vacating the existence of suffering
Leaving her world of hand me downs
She runs from shattered love
Expecting the collapse to destroy her
Second guessing what could have been
And not believing in second chances
Because her love is a hand me down
Soon enough she will see
The bold writing on the walls
Screaming there is more to life
If she would only open her eyes
To a life without hand me downs
But for now she will blindly walk
Wearing clothes saturated with pain
Skeptical of the love she deserves
Because her life is no more than a hand me down
Nov 27, 2011
Nov 27, 2011 at 2:08 AM UTC
For if I dream
It be of only two....
And of deep and heartfelt kisses
And of eyes that gaze upon you
And a dream of you being my Mr.
My heart is the deepest cavern
Like a goldmine set on fire
And in your arms
You take me
Into the clouds...
Yet even higher
And with my strong arms I upsurge you
Like a warm and loving breeze
For when my eyes adorn you
I shiver...and quiver
And then I ask dear God...
To bless me with you please
And it don't matter how far away
The only voices that I'll hear
Is of you and me and our children in love
In laughter and without tears
For if I must live life without you
With Less of body or of mind
My love will always be here for you
Until the end of time
For love runs deep and true in me
And no rain can wash away
The love I'll always have as much for you
Tomorrow as I do today
You are my everything
That in my heart I'll forever keep
Your my gentle soul mate
My River...
In which my love runs deep
A loving man
Who has sealed my heart
And never left me to feel forlorn
And who has removed me from my sadness
To a woman whose hearts reborn
What have I done to deserve his love
As I gaze into the stars above
I am a woman whose mortal
Not much too see
I wonder how he does..
And under a silky shimmer of velvet light
Viewing down from the moon above
I finally realize
He has taught me...
How it is to be...
In love
Nov 27, 2011
Nov 27, 2011 at 2:06 AM UTC
There are so many things that happen in life for a reason.
People come and go.
Certain people stay.
Sometimes in person and other times in heart.
There is one saying that has always helped me out with life, if you see something you want do what it takes to get it.
Yeah, it could take you a day, a week, a month, or a year.
But I have always believed if at first you don't get it, don't give up.
If that one thing is worth it, worth everything to you, then hold onto that memory/thought for as long as you can hoping one day it will be yours.
You see, in life, when you give up on getting the one thing that you want is when you end up settling for the completely wrong thing.
The one thing that is opposite what you truly want.
The one thing that doesn't truly make you happy and you don't enjoy it greatly.
You see, one thing that I have learned is not to just settle.
You must be strong.
You must not give up, especially on what your heart is telling you.
Now I know I'm not that old, but I have been through a lot, and helped people through even more.
And nothing kills me more than seeing someone settle for something they don't want.
Something that doesn't make them happy.
But I have to be honest now.
This is the first time in my life that I am going to be giving up.
I have what it is that I want the most in life standing right in front of me.
But I can't have it.
Either way I am losing in this battle, so I'm just give up.
I never thought those words would ever come out of my mouth.
But they have. I give up.
Nov 27, 2011
Nov 27, 2011 at 2:00 AM UTC
Hope
Look towards the sunset.
Do you see that injured bird?
Hope is written on its wings.
Look in the pond over there.
Do you see that ugly duckling?
It’s alone with its head bowed to the water.
Look on that hospital bed.
Do you see that young child with cancer?
Hope sparkles in her eyes.
Look at that boy across the street.
Do you see that wheelchair he’s in?
He’s sad because he might not walk again.
Look at that girl kneeling at her bed.
Do you see her hands clasped in prayer?
Do you see her lips muttering, “Help me?”
Do you see those tears glistening down her cheeks?
Hope is written all over her hands.
Hope is on her lips.
And hope is in each tear that falls from her beautiful face.
Nov 27, 2011
Nov 27, 2011 at 1:06 AM UTC
Pushing Away
You need to understand
This isn't what I planned
A simple little house, with a big front yard
It doesn't sound that hard
But we can't do it on our own
Especially since the cancers grown
I have no energy
So why don't you forget about me
Leave this hospital room
And forget all this gloom
I don't want to be the one to hold you back
Find another girl who has the health I lack
Stop sitting at home alone
Waiting by the phone
Just to hear if I'm okay
You don't need me anyway
Go now while I'm being strong
I'll be calling for you before to long
Stop with this persistence
Stay away, keep your distance
It hurts me to see you like this
Just give me a goodbye kiss
Go ahead be on your way
Don't worry I'll love you anyway
Nov 27, 2011
Nov 27, 2011 at 1:01 AM UTC
I love you
I love you more than you can know,
And more than you can see,
I love you more than I could hope
to have someone love me.
I'll love you when you're sick and weak,
And love you when you're strong,
I'll love you through our arguements,
if you're right, or if I'm wrong.
I'll love you through the lace of time,
Until we're old, until we're grey,
I'll love you always, more and more,
With every passing day.
I'll love you in our times of plenty,
and in our times of need,
I'll love you when I have to serve,
And I'll love when I can lead.
I love you more than life itself,
More than water, more than breath,
and whether I go first, or you,
I'll love you into death.
I love you more than the word love,
ever could define,
I'll love you through whatever comes,
I love you and you're mine,
I love you with a burning love,
that fills me through and through,
I can never say these words enough,
for truly, I Love You.
Feb 1, 2010
Feb 1, 2010 at 5:34 PM UTC