I didn't cry about you today
it doesn't mean I love you less
it doesn't mean I'm trying to forget you
I just don't know what it means to be without you.
I try to cope by pretending you are still alive.
Someone stole you from me.
From us.
How could they take you?
I don't know how to be now that you aren't.
Feb 6, 2013
Feb 6, 2013 at 12:35 AM UTC
Going nowhere
Glory lost.
Wating until death.
wasting time, wasting space.
Forcing affection and relationships
I feel like Dante betrayed-
any hope I see turns out to only ruin me further
grinding. hollow. scared.
I can't go on.
Sep 30, 2011
Sep 30, 2011 at 4:59 PM UTC
I want to love you more than anything.
I want to be with you for the rest of my life.
You are my hopes, dreams, prayers. My unspoken wishes.
I love you more than life.
I want nothing to stand between us.
You are my soul.
I've lost you.
I can't fix this. I'm horrible.
You don't deserve this.
You were the worst, now I don't compare
This road we're on...it won't end well.
I'll **** you
I'll ruin your life.
The life you were rebuilding.
Let me walk away from you.
I love you. More than life.
Sep 30, 2011
Sep 30, 2011 at 4:54 PM UTC
Everytime I try to smile I think of you.
Everytime I try to laugh I think of you.
Everytime I try to live I think of you.
Of how you've forgotten me.
Of how you've used me.
Of how you've lied to me.
So for now I'll keep drinking, smoking and *******
So for now I'll keep ignoring the hole you left in my chest.
For now.
Sep 16, 2011
Sep 16, 2011 at 8:31 PM UTC
Don't you know how much I believe in you? Don't you know how much I care?
Seeing your life fall out of place like this breaks my heart into pieces.
You're not as alone as you think, you're with me every minute.
I'd **** for you. I'd lie for you.
steal, scam and cheat.
Anything you would ask for, I would do my best to make it so.
Stop ruining yourself.
Stop expecting so little.
Be the man I know you are.
Sep 16, 2011
Sep 16, 2011 at 8:29 PM UTC
There is a place inside of you
Somewhere you've forgotten
It's the place that holds all that you once were.
There lies the dreams you had as a child.
The innocence and laughter.
This is where your strength is hiding.
But now you're jaded.
Bitter and angry.
You've wrecked your mind with drugs.
Ruined your heart with spite.
Please, find your way back there...
Jun 2, 2011
Jun 2, 2011 at 9:00 AM UTC
How the **** did this happen?
Two decades and nothing to show for it.
Dreams unrealized.
Plans forgotten.
Every day I'm closer to dying
And I have nothing to be remembered by.
I have no one. I am no one.
Candles, balloons, cake.
They make me gag.
It's all fake.
Just a distraction from the fact that we are dying and worthless.
**** birthdays.
Feb 18, 2011
Feb 18, 2011 at 10:13 AM UTC
I haven't felt this in a long time.
Hope, joy, enthusiasm.
I see good things now; I feel good things now.
My smile has lasted for hours.
This boy is driving me crazy.
I want to keep this feeling forever.
my heart is pounding, the butterflies are emerging.
And all because I heard you laugh and saw you smile at me.
and now with this joy comes the crushing doubt.
will he lose interest?
does he not really care at all?
is this just some game?
love *****
Jan 20, 2011
Jan 20, 2011 at 7:59 AM UTC
Let's run away, forget all that we've become
We can leave tonight,
take the first train out of here
Let's become the people we wish we were
No regrets, no depression, no anger.
We'll be in love and we'll be free.
You'll never be alone again, or have to do things on your own again.
You'll never be left out in the cold.
Forget those who have made us hate ourselves
Those who have turned us into drones.
Run away with me.
Jan 16, 2011
Jan 16, 2011 at 7:37 AM UTC
Neon lights burned bright outside the bar.
Standing in their glow, she smoked her last cigarette.
With each exhale, she let go of a dream she knew she would never achieve.
.....
Is this what you want to read?
I'm sorry that I won't write that way, just because you say it's better.
Go **** yourselves.
Jan 16, 2011
Jan 16, 2011 at 7:33 AM UTC