It's not my fault
that sleep doesn't come to me easily,
that the thoughts in my mind will not leave me,
that it takes two hours before I drift off completely
(sometimes even three).
It's not my fault
that my hands and legs would not stop fidgeting,
that I find the littlest things very distracting,
(like how the clock never stops ticking)
that I like to keep repeating.
It's not my fault
that sometimes I can't breathe,
that I'm not the person who you would want to be with,
that sometimes I don't want to live.
It's not my fault that I have a condition.
Or maybe it is.
(n.d.)
Jan 24, 2014
Jan 24, 2014 at 11:42 AM UTC
"Sometimes
being young
is less fun than
being dead."
- Pump Up The Vol.
Jan 18, 2014
Jan 18, 2014 at 2:18 PM UTC
Yesterday, I was sad.
Today, I am sad.
Tomorrow, I'll be sad again.
And that's really kind of sad,
dont you think?
(n.d.)
Oct 26, 2013
Oct 26, 2013 at 10:07 AM UTC
7:26am
is where it all began.
Angry words were being thrown
back and forth between a woman
and a man.
A little girl woke up from her dream,
as she heard her name in between those screams.
Tears spilled from her eyes as she began to cry,
asking questions that mostly began with why.
7:26am
a tale of two lovers comes to an end,
leaving a girl with a broken heart
that cannot be mend.
(n.d.)
Oct 22, 2013
Oct 22, 2013 at 8:45 AM UTC
I'm sorry,
but I haven't been coping well lately.
I hope you'll forgive me,
and be able to save me.
So many thoughts on my mind,
and all of them screams "I'm not fine.".
I hope you might be kind,
and won't let me cross that line.
I have set a date,
on the day I graduate,
to end my fate.
So don't be late.
I've thought this through,
there's nothing that you can do.
I don't belong here, it's true.
This shall be my goodbye to you.
(n.d.)
Oct 13, 2013
Oct 13, 2013 at 11:32 AM UTC
Don't make decisions
when your eyes
are as heavy
as your heart.
(n.d.)
Sep 17, 2013
Sep 17, 2013 at 10:22 AM UTC
It's amazing
how much of a comfort you can find
with fictional characters and their worlds.
Whether it's fantasy, sci-fi or thriller,
whether their world is full of dangers and adventures,
you would rather be in theirs than be in yours.
I realised how much of a sadness our world has become
because we rely in non-existing worlds
in order to survive our own.
(n.d.)
Sep 10, 2013
Sep 10, 2013 at 2:01 AM UTC
I've made myself bleed.
The thought of doing it never occurred to me.
But I was curious.
I wanted to know what it was like to slice open your skin.
To play with knives and blades.
To have blood dripping.
And now that I've done it,
I promised to never do it again.
But the thought of doing it is addicting.
I like the pain.
I like the endorphins released.
I like the feel of it.
I like how it takes away my pain for a moment.
I might do it again.
I might never stop.
Here's to hoping I will be saved.
(n.d.)
Sep 6, 2013
Sep 6, 2013 at 9:53 PM UTC
I'm not good
at expressing my feelings.
I'm doing the best I can,
and it's hard for me.
Life seems to be easy with you guys,
and here I am feeling like my mind is going to blow up any time soon.
I wish I had a simple reason
for why I'm feeling and being like this.
Please hold on to me,
I'll open up soon.
(n.d.)
Sep 6, 2013
Sep 6, 2013 at 11:25 AM UTC