Sometimes when you win you loose,
so hold on to all your *****
to sedate the hate
you've grown too tired to iterate
and as you hit the snooze to suppress the state of alarm within you
remember...
where've you been
what has hurt and
what has elevated you to love and light beyond mundane normality
there is pleasure in pain
and pain in pleasure
sanity in insaneness
it's all just a dream,
only the mind sees in black and white
open your eyes to colors of possiblity
and feel the depth of senses completely immersed in the experience of life...
for the way i see it,
there is not greater tragedy to reach the end of life without tasting the ecstasy of life itself ,
to die in a trapped mind, running on outdated information is the very
predicament know as the human condition
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:50 PM UTC
a poem, oh a poem
what shall I write
if I am to write at all.
about me?
about you?
what’s the difference ?
about life?
about death?
i can’t seem to tell them apart
about love
about hate
it’s not so black and white
why write at all
one might ask
as they stumble through life
begging for the answers
while cursing the questions.
why even bother
one might ask
as they stare into the
abyss of their laptop screen
in the lonely stillness of the night.
what is it all for
one might ask
as the pain swallows them up
stubbornly refusing to regurgitate
whats left.--------------
why?,
you ask....
sorry, i can't help you with that one
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:48 PM UTC
anger was tabooed to death.
but it never meant to hurt anyone
it only wanted to protect ....
After the funeral someone had to replace the job.
after the burial of the emotion
depression moved into office
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:46 PM UTC
There's a nightmare in my mind
I don't see the world through ****** eyes
I see through distorted lenses that
make me blind to beauty and understanding
I hear through biased ears that make me deaf to the music
of joy and love
I experience not what's out there but what's inside a misled mind....
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:42 PM UTC
it's like your mind is swimming in a labyrinth cave on the bottom of the ocean.....it's cold claustrophobic, confusing...it feels like you your slowly running out of oxygen.
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:41 PM UTC
[inspired by Edgar miller's ["Turning River Street into a River"]
Worse than falling down
it's like falling in love
where even misconceptions are illusion
where falling through the hole painted on the ceiling is easier than you'd think
Falling flat through life with no intentions or regrets
poisoned my soul with harsh belief
that existence could be so narrow, dark, and descending
Worse than falling up
is falling flat.
So when you step off the last dead end of the world
will you fall up, into the light, or
down into the dark?
For in reality, there is no such thing as falling flat
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:39 PM UTC
I don't trust anyone
because everyone looks like a ghost
These are not people that I see with my eyes.
Their interactions are surreal.
transparent phantom creatures floating by me, doing things I don't understand
and strangely being so busy about
I don't see the purpose of any of it.
I feel disgusted and confused,
watching it all from miles away.
I'm no longer in the sea with all the other fishes.
I swam to the shore
and now I'm on my own island.
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:39 PM UTC
Immersed in a pool of pain
Head underwater
one forgets what oxygen is
Its a morbid kind of funny you know—— how long someone can drown for
that after a while one forgets that one is drowning
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:38 PM UTC
I look in the mirror and I see a ghost
"Who am I?"
i Ask the ghost
The ghost shrugs and turns away
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:38 PM UTC
I’m afraid of the silence
because the silence is not silent
there are screams that don’t need to produce sound to be heard.
they howl in my brain
emotion trying to rocket through like steam from a hot tea kettle.
The pressure builds up
inside of me,
but the release,
the relief,
is nowhere in sight.
Jul 25, 2014
Jul 25, 2014 at 8:37 PM UTC