reaching through the past
to discover the depths
of y(our) heart
feeding into the colors
that bleed down the
dancing pages
the way the sun bounces
off the mirrored edges
glimmering for a chance
begging for the chance
to stay
stay young, stay beautiful, stay sane
instead of staying lonely, cold, or hard
the facets draw the eye
begging for a glance, a moment
a stray eye to dare to linger
dare to linger and dare to love
dare to live and dare to leave
how cold the flesh feels now
how deep the seed is buried
how old the wounds that fester
releasing what has been
surpressed
supressing what has been
consumed
Apr 19, 2023
Apr 19, 2023 at 12:51 AM UTC
today is blue
today is orange
today is split
between now and yesterday
gray does not float in this sea
it does not breathe
with pants of flowers or trees
these shades bleed in their
monochromatic screams
with their iridescent dreams
they claw to their surfaces with
no hope, no leads
following their feet as they drag along
in their evergreens
the colors do not mix. the colors do not mourn.
my nasty beast will rear it's head but refuses treatment.
xoxo
Dec 14, 2017
Dec 14, 2017 at 1:47 AM UTC
can you believe it. i've almost forgiven myself. i'm almost in love with myself. most people say you need to be alone to love yourself, but i've come to realize that i love myself more now that i've got you back. you make me feel beautiful. self-esteem is vital in today's age where beauty is key, but i don't give a **** anymore. i think i'm beautiful. you think i'm even more beautiful. its perfect, really. and its great. so thanks. maybe next time i'll have more to say.
Aug 21, 2014
Aug 21, 2014 at 12:40 AM UTC
hello dear friend
you've resurfaced
from the depths of the inky
abyss.
you've brought me
a gift?
how kind.
a precious one wrapped in
g o l d papers.
i tear it open
and familiar eyes
yield to my voice.
i speak,
"oh, i've missed you my dear.
i thought you'd gone away."
the mouth opens and
darkness swirls
bringing me to my knees.
i choke back the sobs as
i take a second look.
the black shifts
and i find within it
a new present.
we fly forward swiftly
and i come to
forgive the darkness.
the harsh words on its tongue
forgotten as we mix
together
like we used to.
thank you, old friend.
you've saved me for another day.
xoxoxo.
i love you.
Aug 21, 2014
Aug 21, 2014 at 12:33 AM UTC
To whom it may concern
I'm just another ******
It's hard for me to express
all the words on my mind.
Though there are many things
that I'd like to say here,
it never comes out right anyway.
Yes, I am a lost soul, though
I've never been much for finding things.
Content in our misery? Not quite.
Though there are stars
that always shine the brightest
and they're there if you bother to look.
Not the best at many things,
like drawing, singing, spinning, dancing.
I wish I could say that I was confident
while doing the things that I love to do.
I've never had the pleasure
of keeping my hopes real high
The master at keeping my head down low.
Loving life was never easy.
I've never said it was.
Scars prove my journey.
No one knows I go through these things
but maybe you understand better now
About who I am.
I never wanted it to get this far.
I never wanted it to be this dark.
and my mind is constantly
plagued with these thoughts.
It's safe to say that my mind is alive.
I'm not outspoken and I'm not quiet.
I'm not fat and I'm not skinny.
I'm not ugly and I'm not beautiful.
I'm not boring and I'm not fun.
I'm Morgan, nice to meet you.
Jan 27, 2014
Jan 27, 2014 at 2:58 AM UTC
i cant let you go
there is a vice grip
on my lungs
I’m having enormous
difficulty in breathing
My heart
is at the most broken
its ever been
and that has
slowly turned me emotionless
these past few days
but then I remember.
How could I forget?
I feel like a piece of me
is missing
and my orbit is off
because
you were my sun and my stars
i thought I was your moon.
my entire chest feels
as if a tapdancer
spent the night practicing
perched on my lungs like a bird
And I feel like crying
so I reach for something
that you had got me to quit,
yes I relapsed.
I’m sorry
but I don’t have
to explain to you
nor do I expect you care.
You’ll never read this anyway.
xoxoxo
i still ******* love you.
why won't you come back?
Jan 21, 2014
Jan 21, 2014 at 3:09 AM UTC
he can't help but smile
as he grabs my hand
leading me out of the car
he can't help but flush
after our first kiss
in a crowded book store
he can't help but sigh
after our first heated moment
in the backseat of his car
he can't help but shake
the first time i lied
and we talked it through
he can't help but cry as
i told him why
and he help me so tight i turned blue
he can't help but rub his eyes
as he uttered his first lie
"i will always love you"
he can't help but frown
during our first official fight
when we thought the worst
he can't help but draw
much farther away
into his own mind
i can't help but reach out
trying to catch him
through the cracks in my fingers
i can't help but mourn
what could have been
and all of the time i put forth
i can't help but feel
like i want to die
but i guess i'm just stuck this way
for a while.
xoxoxo
i still love you
Jan 18, 2014
Jan 18, 2014 at 9:35 PM UTC
i love you as absolute
as the sky is blue
who cares if there is absolut
running through my veins
i love you like a green grass field
and I love you like i don't know why;
its a good thing I'm not sober
or else these words would not spill so easily.
i love you like words are spoken
and music is listened;
i love you like a poem is written
and the picture is painted.
I love you with every breath
and I love you with every sigh;
you may upset me at times,
but i love you despite the sadness.
i love you when im angry;
i love you when im mad;
i love you when im happy;
and i love you when you cried.
you're a lovely creature and
you make me happy.
i love you when i don't;
because you're all i have left
to love and to hold
you're the only thing that matters.
you're my baby and my life.
xoxoxo.
i love you.
Jan 1, 2014
Jan 1, 2014 at 2:01 AM UTC
its been a while since
i decided to let words flow
on a blank screen
its been a while
but i needed a bit
of self-given sanity
i feel too soft
and too sensitive
i feel too loud
and too offensive
i feel as if i cant
operate in a manner
thats acceptable anymore
i write to bleed
the thoughts that plague me
i bleed when i cant
write the words that made me
and its nice to finally be able
to let go and
feel calm
so i dropped in to say
im still alive
xoxoxo
Aug 7, 2013
Aug 7, 2013 at 10:32 PM UTC
the sound filters down,
and i fill with elation,
laughing.
i can hear you
even from so far away,
you always were loud.
big sister,
i know you always guarded me,
and you always loved me.
you were my knight in shining armor
when no one else would come.
you will forever be my
north star,
my shade spot on a sunny day.
big sister, you make me smile
even when no one else can.
though you have your faults,
we all do,
you're still my blood, my family.
here's something to help you smile.
xoxoxo
May 30, 2013
May 30, 2013 at 5:26 PM UTC