Sitting next to you in class
After everything went down the way it did
Is scalding water on my skin
burning away any of my healing flesh
that I had grown since I last saw you
Nov 16, 2015
Nov 16, 2015 at 2:04 PM UTC
I knew you were raw
I would be too
5 years is an infinity to me
I cant imagine
but I feel so raw
without you now
I understand as much as I dont want to
Oct 29, 2015
Oct 29, 2015 at 3:48 PM UTC
You disappeared as quickly as you came
And I mean that in a ***** way
But I never told anyone that
Quick comer and faster goer
Aug 19, 2015
Aug 19, 2015 at 4:39 PM UTC
I get by on pretending that you look at me when I look away
I have no way to prove that you do
I like to think that you would
Even though you have her to look at
There are not enough words in the world
not enough hours of sleep
not enough alcohol or drugs
to remove your face from my brain
Watching you treat her was supposed to make me forget you
It makes me want you more
It makes me want to be her
Not her, but in her place I mean because I could treat you better
(I couldn't treat you better)
May 4, 2014
May 4, 2014 at 11:39 PM UTC
My hair is black, my eyes are black
Genetics did that
Which is strange because my parents features aren't dark
It's been so nice out lately
The sun shines so brightly through my blinds
Turning my room into a gray and yellow striped abyss
I wish you were in my bed with me when the sun shines brightly
Running your hands through my black hair
Staring into my black eyes
And intertwining your fingers with mine
Of course with painted black nails
I wake up a lot during the night
My eyes betray me
I see your figure curved against mine
It isn't you but a shadow, illusion of my mind
It is darkness
Black
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 9:22 PM UTC
Big, strong hands over my hands
Which aren't very small
And that's why I liked your hands
Made me feel small
I don't do much with my hands
I think about what you might do with yours
Perhaps you play guitar
Or lift weights or make things
Like bird houses or fix cars
I have chipped nail polish
Black like the night as it is
I should fix it
But I don't do much with my hands
Except for when it comes to you
Hands upon hands
Grasping clasping wishing wanting
Desperate for more
As I hypothesize what you do with your hands
Mar 31, 2014
Mar 31, 2014 at 1:04 AM UTC
There was nothing poetic
About the way you couldn't really kiss that well
Or how I didn't know if you liked me, you made it hard to tell
But you probably did that on purpose
You made me feel like I had no purpose
That was easy to tell
And I knew it all too well
There was nothing poetic about the way you held my arms above my head
And straddled me in my own bed
There was nothing poetic about your lack of eye contact
And for that manner, lack of any tact
But there's something poetic about knowing what you were
A blue eyed monster in my bed
Trapped inside my head
Mar 31, 2014
Mar 31, 2014 at 12:59 AM UTC
5 showers
192 hours
And I'm still under your power
Your touch on my skin
As I let you creep in
Original sin
But it felt like my first blessing
While we were **********
One week later
To your desires I no longer cater
What I would do to feel your arms around me once more
The last time will always be in my room at 5 minutes to four
I walked you to the door
You wanted nothing more
my nothing, my no one
I will only know you like the moon knows the sun
Bonded by a night
But feelings change in the morning light
Mar 30, 2014
Mar 30, 2014 at 12:59 AM UTC
Someone tricked you into believing the beautiful lies that sparked a fire in your eyes
Allowed your expectations to soar through the skies
Because you believed them, not very wise
Until they are brought back down to earn and shot and you're forced to watch them die
Kind smile and a presence that didn't seem so definite
You put me in a frenzy and then left me in it
A smirk and a goodbye that was final unbeknownst to me
When you left me in my room for the last time 57 minutes after 3
With a mouth that only spewed ******** and manipulation
Pushing me away from my barely there logic into manic infatuation
An infatuation that blinded me from seeing the truth
Locking me in my own insane room and you were the irremovable roof
So while I wasted my time waiting for a stupid text message notification
And you pulled my heart strings and bended my limbs like I was your personal creation
A million other ******* things happened across the nation
Yet all I cared about was what ended up being a meaningless love vs. lust altercation
I can still hear the stress in my voice when I desperately tried to get you to express some
EMOTION
You were more concerned with our body's state of motion
An electric charged woolen sweater taken out of the dryer
I'd rather be clingy then with a cold heart heated strictly by ****** desire
When I applied to this school I was warned of the cold days ahead
But never of the boys that will say anything to get into bed
Or the way all of this ends up destroying my head
I keep saying I won't fall for this because I learned my lesson
But as a final confession
I will fall for version two of you once again maybe this time with different colored eyes
But the same animal in a nice guy disguise
Mar 25, 2014
Mar 25, 2014 at 4:53 PM UTC
I'd rather be clingy like a static electric t-shirt
Then cold and alien like a pile of dirt
Mar 24, 2014
Mar 24, 2014 at 10:43 AM UTC