In a different time...
In a different place..
In a different world...
Maybe.....
E.J.R.M.
Jul 5, 2018
Jul 5, 2018 at 8:14 PM UTC
We started talking and down I fell..
Into the rabbit hole.
We visited a far away place and oh what fun we made..
I fell in love with your intensity..
Your soul, your heart, your impetuous laugh..
I knew then that you were my mad hatter and I was your Alice.
So it began. This whirlwind romance
I felt amazing, loved, cherished and blessed. I made you feel the same..
We made plans..
Then the world got in the way..
The real showed through
And the cracks started to show.
I tried to follow you here and it wasn't the same..
The bliss got lost along the way..
The March Hare came and swept us away with time..
Your beautiful madness got dirtier here.. I watched you change..
Something hard to swallow, even harder to follow..
The pain eventually swallowed you whole..
I'm standing here now in absolute sorrow.
I want to go back down the rabbit hole..
And I can't find the way..
How do I find you?
E.J.M.
Jul 4, 2018
Jul 4, 2018 at 8:22 AM UTC
I struggle daily with the decision to make others happy or myself happy. This may be the hardest decision I make daily
E.J.M.
Jun 14, 2017
Jun 14, 2017 at 7:54 AM UTC
Life is so far from being what I need.
But I won't let it go that way.
Too simple, concise..
And I'm caught up. Alone but caught up..
What is it that you want from me?
Does everybody just want everything?
To give nothing?
My heart is ragged pieces... I did that ...
I let it get this far...
And everything I love put me there..
And you keep coming back.. that last time..
Is never the last...
And I can't walk away... I was never built like that.
Everything is ****** up... you scare me...
Yet I stay... and I reply when you show up.... why did it all have to go this way?
E.J.M.
Oct 1, 2016
Oct 1, 2016 at 2:52 AM UTC
There are increments in which your heart breaks...
E.J.M.
Jun 25, 2016
Jun 25, 2016 at 7:13 PM UTC
The light across your shoulders...
Those tattoo'd muscles flexing...
The danger that pours off you...
I'm here..
Wild horses couldn't drag me away...
Those teeth on my lips...
Your hands on my hips...
The roughness that rolls off of you...
Then you hold my hand...
All that anger inside of you.. so dangerous
So bottled up.... I release you...
So hot and heavy.. our eyes meet.. and you say smile...
We light up like an inferno...
And that smile takes my breath away...
All those edges of you turn to softness against me..
I know you're dangerous..
I don't heed the warning though...
You walked away .. now you're back...
Because I love you this way...
E.J.M
Jun 20, 2016
Jun 20, 2016 at 5:58 PM UTC
Another time... another place...
The you and I of before...
Before I knew what I know now.
You bring me back...
To that place... that girl.. that didn't know what was to come.
You apologize... everything.
Every time...
I can't forgive you.. because I haven't forgotten...
And it takes time...
Months on end.. the waiting
Court...waiting on a sentence to change this...
You changed me..
I'm not the girl I ws before you...
I'm damaged... broken...
Wanting to be alone...
The opposite of what I wanted with you...
Those shattered emotions...
Because of you...
There's no tears.. no regret.. just acknowledgement.
Of the wrongs committed against me while I loved you.
I'm broken and we are waiting.
Everything takes time..
Your words always take me to a sad place...
My voice saves you...
Another time another place... maybe...
E.J.M.
May 31, 2016
May 31, 2016 at 10:50 PM UTC
Aren't we all just pieces of someone else?
Some sense memory.. tied in to memories..
Snippets of previous interactions?
The way you walk reminds someone of someone else...
The way your eyes light up...
Someone saw that same sparkle..in another place and time... on another person.
We are ourselves completely....
But to someone else... we are merely pieces...
Some sense memory of someone else...
That they use to know..
E.J.M.
Apr 27, 2016
Apr 27, 2016 at 3:49 PM UTC
The smile lights my world...
You across the parking lot..
Whistling at me.
Me blushing.
Our playful bantering...
It's gone..
You are stunning, fierce, loving, gorgeous and beautiful.
I could watch you work for days...
That smiles gone...
That smile that was just for me...
Where did it fade to?
You're still stunning but cold...
I'm here frozen with the heartbreak of it...
I just want your smile back...
E.J.M.
Apr 27, 2016
Apr 27, 2016 at 3:36 PM UTC
Tuesday came... and I saw you...
Beautiful as ever..hard and ****
I looked at you..you ignored me for the first time ever..
It felt like a slap in the face..
My playful lover, gone away..
And I froze up
I forgot what to say...
How to say it...
Maybe if I'd said something I wouldn't be writing this poem about my frozen heart...
I walked away.
It's what you wanted.
I took my caught feelings and did exactly as you wanted.
I made it easy for you... because I love you.
This isn't what I want... I didn't say it..
I said nothing...
All frozen and numb... wanting desperately to flee from you...
Someone two days ago I couldn't wait to kiss..
You pulled that stone around you and pushed me out of a speeding bus...
My hands were shaking, breath catching in my throat, voice catching there too...
You let me walk away..
I should have said something...
Though a day later... after hours of pondering...
I still don't know what ....
would it have mattered?
E.J.M.
Apr 27, 2016
Apr 27, 2016 at 3:26 PM UTC