In a different time...
In a different place..
In a different world...
Maybe.....
E.J.R.M.
Jul 5, 2018
Jul 5, 2018 at 8:14 PM UTC
We started talking and down I fell..
Into the rabbit hole.
We visited a far away place and oh what fun we made..
I fell in love with your intensity..
Your soul, your heart, your impetuous laugh..
I knew then that you were my mad hatter and I was your Alice.
So it began. This whirlwind romance
I felt amazing, loved, cherished and blessed. I made you feel the same..
We made plans..
Then the world got in the way..
The real showed through
And the cracks started to show.
I tried to follow you here and it wasn't the same..
The bliss got lost along the way..
The March Hare came and swept us away with time..
Your beautiful madness got dirtier here.. I watched you change..
Something hard to swallow, even harder to follow..
The pain eventually swallowed you whole..
I'm standing here now in absolute sorrow.
I want to go back down the rabbit hole..
And I can't find the way..
How do I find you?
E.J.M.
Jul 4, 2018
Jul 4, 2018 at 8:22 AM UTC
I struggle daily with the decision to make others happy or myself happy. This may be the hardest decision I make daily
E.J.M.
Jun 14, 2017
Jun 14, 2017 at 7:54 AM UTC
Life is so far from being what I need.
But I won't let it go that way.
Too simple, concise..
And I'm caught up. Alone but caught up..
What is it that you want from me?
Does everybody just want everything?
To give nothing?
My heart is ragged pieces... I did that ...
I let it get this far...
And everything I love put me there..
And you keep coming back.. that last time..
Is never the last...
And I can't walk away... I was never built like that.
Everything is ****** up... you scare me...
Yet I stay... and I reply when you show up.... why did it all have to go this way?
E.J.M.
Oct 1, 2016
Oct 1, 2016 at 2:52 AM UTC
There are increments in which your heart breaks...
E.J.M.
Jun 25, 2016
Jun 25, 2016 at 7:13 PM UTC
The light across your shoulders...
Those tattoo'd muscles flexing...
The danger that pours off you...
I'm here..
Wild horses couldn't drag me away...
Those teeth on my lips...
Your hands on my hips...
The roughness that rolls off of you...
Then you hold my hand...
All that anger inside of you.. so dangerous
So bottled up.... I release you...
So hot and heavy.. our eyes meet.. and you say smile...
We light up like an inferno...
And that smile takes my breath away...
All those edges of you turn to softness against me..
I know you're dangerous..
I don't heed the warning though...
You walked away .. now you're back...
Because I love you this way...
E.J.M
Jun 20, 2016
Jun 20, 2016 at 5:58 PM UTC
and he was like a drug to her
the more she took
the more she got addicted
Jun 1, 2016
Jun 1, 2016 at 11:40 AM UTC
Another time... another place...
The you and I of before...
Before I knew what I know now.
You bring me back...
To that place... that girl.. that didn't know what was to come.
You apologize... everything.
Every time...
I can't forgive you.. because I haven't forgotten...
And it takes time...
Months on end.. the waiting
Court...waiting on a sentence to change this...
You changed me..
I'm not the girl I ws before you...
I'm damaged... broken...
Wanting to be alone...
The opposite of what I wanted with you...
Those shattered emotions...
Because of you...
There's no tears.. no regret.. just acknowledgement.
Of the wrongs committed against me while I loved you.
I'm broken and we are waiting.
Everything takes time..
Your words always take me to a sad place...
My voice saves you...
Another time another place... maybe...
E.J.M.
May 31, 2016
May 31, 2016 at 10:50 PM UTC
When someone asks me,
If I am in love,
I want to say no.
Because saying yes,
Will be more painful,
For me to say.
When I walk down the street,
I want to feel free from love,
I want to let go.
When I was younger all I wanted was love,
But I was naïve and fell for you,
And your lies.
I read those fairytale endings,
Where the princess’s met their prince,
And lived happily ever after.
I wanted that,
That’s all I ever wanted,
That one thing.
But in this world,
You cannot ask for something,
Without getting something in return.
Heartbreak,
Heartache,
Alone.
You were soo nice to me at the start,
You didn’t want much,
But then you started to lie.
And I believed you,
Why?
I don’t know why.
I hated myself,
Whenever you hit me,
Because it was all my fault.
Too late for it now,
Sorry wasn’t an answer,
All I wanted to was to be in love.
Apr 27, 2016
Apr 27, 2016 at 3:53 PM UTC
Aren't we all just pieces of someone else?
Some sense memory.. tied in to memories..
Snippets of previous interactions?
The way you walk reminds someone of someone else...
The way your eyes light up...
Someone saw that same sparkle..in another place and time... on another person.
We are ourselves completely....
But to someone else... we are merely pieces...
Some sense memory of someone else...
That they use to know..
E.J.M.
Apr 27, 2016
Apr 27, 2016 at 3:49 PM UTC