Heavy thoughts,
Weigh my mind.
Heavy thoughts
Strong and unkind.
My rib cage,
Comes to a close.
Suffocating my lungs,
My breathing slows.
What is this feeling,
That's lurking below.
The surface of my skin,
Seeping poison into my blood flow.
Trying to fight off these emotions,
Trying to fight off the commotion.
Can't keep up with my mind,
Don't even know what I'm trying to find.
Jul 20, 2017
Jul 20, 2017 at 12:47 AM UTC
I thought I saw you
It made my heart race faster
But it was not you
Oct 4, 2014
Oct 4, 2014 at 1:33 AM UTC
Snow is so magical
So white
I wish I knew how to fall like snow
So delicately
So kind
I fall like rain drops
So rough
So inconsiderate
The way I fall
I should know
Not to have fallen
For you
As I watch the snow fall
I think of you
I think of how the beauty of the snow
Reminds me of your smile
So mesmerizing
So beautiful
So bright
And I'm reminded
Of how intensely
I love the snow
Of how intensely
I love you
I think of how I fell
Like the rain
For you
Now I sit pathetically alone
Wondering why I couldn't
Fall like you
So delicately
So gentle
So kind
I love watching the snow fall
So exquisite
So natural
Just like you once fell into my arms
So harmless
So unaware
That I was a rainstorm
Awaiting to change
Your beauty into
Cold ice
So I'll continue to watch
As the snow falls
And think of how much
I love you
Think of how better you were
Before you met me
Dec 24, 2013
Dec 24, 2013 at 8:14 PM UTC
Lost in a haze
Trying to find where my mind went
Trying to fathom what I've done
Grazing through my crowded mind
Confused why I let myself down
Why did I let you and me down?
I thought I knew
I thought you were the one for me
Was is because I was scared?
I don't know
Words slurring off my tipsy tongue
Not making any comprehensible sense
Like the decisions I've made
I'm so sorry
If I could give you answers to your heartbroken questions
I would
But right now,
I am not me
I thought I knew
Where I wanted to be
What I wanted
Who I loved
I thought I knew
forgive me
Dec 23, 2013
Dec 23, 2013 at 12:08 AM UTC
Yes
Yes
Yes
Pause
No
No
No
But the way the blade feels in my hand tells me otherwise
"It's okay, everyone has to escape somehow. It's okay" it gently whispers to me
Spinning the gleaming blade
Round and round my fingers,
It twirls
You can't write out the bad ****
You've have to cut it out
Delete it all
That's only what I'd be doing
Yes
Yes
Yes
Pause
No
No
No
I need to try for you
I need to try for me
But the way you call my name entices all my thoughts
All my adrenaline runs to you
The sharp edge is cutting it's way into my mind
Convincing me it'll all be released
Everything was released.
Released.
...relapse.
Jul 17, 2013
Jul 17, 2013 at 11:30 AM UTC
My mind is exploding,
My heart is falling apart.
Aching, really.
Two and a half years,
Now you've vanished and I can't,
f e e l.
I can't *******
t h i n k.
Perpetually waiting for you to talk to me,
Stupidly waiting for something that won't come.
My mind is exploding,
My heart is falling apart.
Shattering, really.
I discovered myself in you,
Now I only find myself walking the streets at night,
Wondering when you'll be back.
Wondering if I'll ever return.
It hurts like,
h e l l.
My mind is exploding,
My heart is falling apart.
Dying, really.
Thinking of you with each passing day,
When will everything be okay?
I need you.
I need you to come,
b a c k.
Jul 12, 2013
Jul 12, 2013 at 12:42 AM UTC
Sitting here blowing smoke rings,
just thinking of you.
Sitting here wondering what you're doing,
wondering if you're okay.
But I shouldn't wonder,
because you're no longer mine, so my mind shouldn't ponder.
Sitting here blowing smoke rings,
makes me wonder if someone else will mend your broken wings.
Can't believe I did what I did,
but who am I to kid?
It was inevitable I was going to hurt you,
it was inevitable I was going to hurt you.
Sitting here blowing smoke rings,
just trying to pass time.
Sitting here blowing smoke rings,
wondering why you're not mine.
Jul 8, 2013
Jul 8, 2013 at 1:59 AM UTC
What happened to us?
We were once so ******* strong
It's time to let go
Mar 11, 2013
Mar 11, 2013 at 9:54 AM UTC
I watch us change like the colors of the leaves on limping branches
We're unraveling like the string on your rolled up sleeve,
Separating.
I feel the crunch in your words each time I step the wrong way,
Leaving the wind to sweep all my breath away.
Our presence together can no longer stray the gloomy skies,
Leaving the crisp air to cool and things to die.
I see us wilt with the fading sun,
Slowly dying off with each passing day.
This is the time when seasons change,
The time when we wrap scarves around our faces
to mask the emotion we're desperately trying to hide,
Creating makeshift walls for what we're avoiding.
The change is inevitable, my dear
It's time to let nature takes its course.
Even if that means we freeze with the rain,
Falling to crack
Feb 2, 2013
Feb 2, 2013 at 11:31 PM UTC
Barely holding on
Looking for a solution
From the fog you came
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Feb 1, 2013
Feb 1, 2013 at 11:58 PM UTC