Thoughts flood
Like the flow of blood
Deep in my veins
I lose the reins
I may wonder
What if the thunder
Hit me one night
Hearing out of sight
What if I had begun
What should not be done
Would I be alive
Would I thrive
No matter how futile
I wonder once in a while
What if I did not surrender
Would I be much better
What if the blade cut
Would it have shut
All these open doors
Would others be there
Would people still care
It is in these stars
I think of all my scars
Scars that cannot be seen
Scars that have always been
Christ has set me free indeed
Yet I still have this great need
Sin remains my fight
Even in the dark night
I have true salvation
But recall the abomination
That once was me
And looking back I see
That growth has taken place
As I tirelessly pursue His face
I cannot claim
That I’m the same
As the one I follow
I’ve my own sorrow
I’ve my own blemishes
Yet He finishes
The faith I’ve been given
Because He has risen
It is in my eyes
That I realize
That no amount
Of inner doubt
No what if thought
Could make Him nought
Even the worst me
Is loved endlessly
No matter how wrong
He makes me belong
Jan 16, 2016
Jan 16, 2016 at 8:12 PM UTC
What would she say
What would she think
If she saw me sink
Standing in the day
Falling in the night
It is not a show
That I allow to flow
It is my darkest fight
I’m scared she will leave
Because of my sin
The darkness within
Even though I believe
Will I still get hurt
If I speak openly
About my insanity
Will I feel like dirt
If these words are spoken
Am I just melancholic
Or just sinfully sick
Will I feel less broken
If I write as if none will read
Am I more free
With unbridled honesty
Acknowledging my need
Let the truth out
I live always improving
Cause life is always moving
Despite all my doubt
Jan 16, 2016
Jan 16, 2016 at 6:16 PM UTC
I spoke all my words
I see the vision blurred
I am terrified to the core
What would she do if she saw
I want to be better
I want write the perfect love letter
But what if she knew
Can she see right through
I’m just a boy who prays
Who has been caught in a daze
I fail in areas I should not
I do like her a lot
It appears I am all over the place
I know how deeply I need grace
Lord forgive me for failing
Help me return to smooth sailing
Conform my mind to Yours
Show me the open doors
Help me to love her
And not to stir
The things that should sleep
Lord please will You keep
My heart and my soul
In Your perfect control
Jan 16, 2016
Jan 16, 2016 at 6:10 PM UTC
To my sweet Saviour
I thank You for Your favour
You have given me my dreams
You have heard all my screams
When there was war on the inside
In You I could confide
When I was truly broken
Your soft words were spoken
Through every single low
You still helped me grow
Your grace is more than enough
When life is good or tough
When I thought there was no more
Then You let my heart soar
You led me to meet
A lady so sweet
A lady whose heart is Yours
Oh Lord be the One to open doors
You introduced her to me
And Your beauty I can see
In her word and action
Even in our interaction
I thought I had tasted the best
I thought I was already blessed
Now You have shown me more
And my heart does adore
The love You have given
Possible cause You have risen
I never thought I might be
A man with such a lady
A lady who prays
A lady who lays
Down her will
For the Lord's fill
Oh may she be forever blessed
Cause she is the best of the best
Jan 5, 2016
Jan 5, 2016 at 11:48 AM UTC
How many pages must I fill
To describe this inner thrill
Higher than the highest cloud
I always want her around
Her smile uplifts me
She has a Godly beauty
Her words are so kind
She just blows my mind
And yet the greatest thing
Is Christ is in everything
When I am weak she is strong
Now my heart does truly long
To stand in a strength not my own
That I may always lead her home
Home to heaven above
And surround her with love
That she will never doubt
That I could never do without
Her in my life and mind
She is the treasure that I find
I hope she will always know
She is the reason I glow
She gave me her time
And so inspired this rhyme
My heart just cannot contain
My happiness when I hear her name
Jan 4, 2016
Jan 4, 2016 at 1:10 PM UTC
Darkness surrounding everything
Glory to the only King
I was ***** and broken mud
Yet His love came like a flood
Picked up my pieces
And shaped me to be
Just like my Jesus
He made me perfectly
He shaped my heart’s desires
And He knows all my thoughts
He ignited within me burning fires
He has filled all my thoughts
With pictures of His greatness
With images of His beauty
Oh how He promised to save this
Heart within me so entirely and completely
Dec 28, 2015
Dec 28, 2015 at 12:08 AM UTC
The water lies still at midnight
There is still the faded light
Of the full moon tonight
Yet the setting doesn’t matter
Cause you have me on a platter
My heart is just getting fatter
With all the sweet sentiments
And the lovely compliments
This is the greatest of accomplishments
To win a fine lady’s affection
God’s image in her reflection
And love becomes the infection
And you let it loose within your being
Cause there is nothing more freeing
Than letting God who is all seeing
Be in the centre of your romance
God leads you as you dance
The feeling lingers like a trance
Her soul brightens yours
And inside both your cores
You feel those open doors
The igniting of a spark
Eradicating the dark
You see love leaves a mark
Etched deep within the heart
Is where true love will start
And nothing can tear it apart
Dec 25, 2015
Dec 25, 2015 at 4:54 PM UTC
If you care to look
In the Holy Book
There are great tales
Of faith in the sails
Of countless broken men
Whom God made new again
A murderer opened the sea
Oh Lord please use me
A man of great lust
Has a name that won’t rust
Even the greatest sinner
Was a soul winner
A man of denial
Tasted revival
Even a **********
Was not left destitute
You are the God of change
You come and rearrange
The priorities of my heart
From Your love I cannot depart
I desire a faith so pure
People will see the grandeur
Of the life of a pilgrim
Blessings to the brim
Consume me with Your fire
Your will is my desire
Dec 25, 2015
Dec 25, 2015 at 3:55 PM UTC
Dear Lord
In Your Word
You showed me
How to be
Love to others
Sisters and brothers
Every father and mother
Yes to one another
Regardless of race
In every place
To reflect You
Is what I want to do
I am Yours
Open doors
Be my guide
I cannot hide
Your glorious light
By Your might
I am made new
Cause of You
Dec 25, 2015
Dec 25, 2015 at 3:06 PM UTC