remember when i was skinny
this isnt really a poem
im just really high
i used to be so thin
i had no thighs
they were miles apart
i had bones
my stomach caved
my ribs exposed
hips left bare
bones poked through
those were the days
**** this treatment
**** this life
**** eating
**** everything
**** food
**** weight
i want to be so skinny
i want to die.,
Mar 18, 2014
Mar 18, 2014 at 12:12 AM UTC
pop
pupils dilate
time slows down.
heart races
chest aches
arms numb
mind scattered and collected
stomach pinches, churns and burns
goodbye sleep
endless energy
rapid movements
twitches
tweaks
peaks
blaze
fidget and wiggle
adjust to "normal"
swallow the high
pretend to be fine
................................
brain is fried.
Mar 17, 2014
Mar 17, 2014 at 4:09 AM UTC
I might be crazy
a little too obsessive
contradictory, and impulsive
but I don't know what to do
I kind of lost you
I'm ******* crazy because I'm still hung up on you
and I don't even know If I did lose you
this isn't really a poem kinda just some scattered thoughts
I doubt you think of me this much
I don't think I cross your mind
the way that you're ******* stuck in mine.
It will probably make you mad
actually, more sad
me in someone elses arms
me with other guys
how else should I fill the gaps?
how else could I distract myself?
I ******* miss my best friend
I need a friend
you broke my heart
that's a lie,
that ones on me, ana and addy
maybe that's what drove you away.
my love affair
and you know what, that's k
because I cant put you through that.
this isn't even a poem
kinda just had to get it all out
secrets just drive me insane.
Jan 31, 2014
Jan 31, 2014 at 2:20 AM UTC
you used to be fun
you used to be grateful
you used to love this...
you used to like that...
you used to enjoy life
you used to eat
you used to cook
you used to be home
you used to talk to me
you used to
I used to
I used to be scared
I used to be contained
I used to avoid
I used to hide
I used to shelter myself
I used to be naïve
Now I know
Im not who I was before
Now I'm not afraid anymore
I wont take your ****
I wont be home
I wont take a hit
I wont be hurt
I wont let you in
I wont hide
Im stronger than before
I'm no ******* kid anymore
.
Dec 14, 2013
Dec 14, 2013 at 1:20 AM UTC
Relapse
Vivance
Adderall
the shakes
the starvation
it all feels so nice
the sweating
the chills
my heart pounds too fast
my chest cannot contain it
I'm hungry
Starving for pills
Quenched by amphetamines
they're prescription
they weren't meant for somebody
maybe not me
and yet they consume me.
Nov 28, 2013
Nov 28, 2013 at 3:05 AM UTC
he;s stupid
I drive him to school
he plays good music
I hurt my back
I dance too hard
he smokes all my cigarettes
I think we have cancer
hes my buddy
he laughs a lot
I like his laugh
did I mention hes an idiot
he lost his shoe in my car its never coming back
bang bang
oh my god
he is just a boy in the middle of the night.
he jumps off his roof
but hes okay.
hes still my buddy
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 12:11 PM UTC
Heysuis Cruise is insecure.
lalalallalalalalalal
fancy pants
heysuis cruise is insecure.
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 12:07 PM UTC
**cigarettes
diet mountain dew
and adderall mmmmm yeah**
Nov 5, 2013
Nov 5, 2013 at 11:47 AM UTC