here, crawling
through blood and ****
of once brothers
too young and
too sober
deafened—
leaded
and known only by dog
for tradition
for man
absolute
obsolete
pure pride and purpose
dear ma,
death
is blind
and hell
is close to home
Oct 10, 2014
Oct 10, 2014 at 1:03 PM UTC
throw my poetry in the trash and
scream hallelujah
maybe
then
I'll do the dishes
Sep 11, 2014
Sep 11, 2014 at 2:25 AM UTC
I wish I could love you
but my timing is all wrong
I already know who you are
what you love
what you like
what you hate
but
he's still there
even though
he's not
wanting is irrelevant
waiting is irrelevant
and my timing is all wrong
what if
he wasn't there
what if he wasn't a friend
what if
you were happy
what if I could kiss you on the cheek
what if
I could hold your hand
and not feel guilty about it
and only let get so you could dance in the parking lot
what
if
except
my timing is all wrong
it's never been right
I love you
Sep 11, 2014
Sep 11, 2014 at 2:14 AM UTC
atop the mesa
cold flowers sleep
bathed in suns
long since gone
& the coyote sings
on purple wind
"all is empty"
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 3:07 PM UTC
once while driving a long stretch of road, I came across a field of dead colts. not mauled, but asleep. I spent the day arranging and rearranging them. first in a straight line. then a circle. then a cross. finally, I piled them up and lit them on fire. I waited for the fire to burn out. I waited through night. I waited for several days. I never slept. just sat there. waiting.
Mar 21, 2014
Mar 21, 2014 at 3:47 PM UTC
one day
the world will have enough of me
and burn me at the stake
they’ll sing and dance
in gasoline and smoke
“the death of the last honest man”
and after they **** on the ashes
and return home
to their meat loaves and ******
i will rise from the ashes
as a pigeon
spending the rest of eternity
******** in their morning coffee
and on the windshields of their cars
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 7:14 PM UTC
I found a dead
dog today
so I took it home
and buried it
with the others
I have found
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 7:07 PM UTC
I found myself wandering around
the truck stops and trailer parks of
West Sacramento
hung over and thirsty, I found
the first place
I could get a drink —THE ***** BIRD
I sat down at the bar and ordered a Budweiser.
it was basically empty
usual for a Tuesday.
halfway through my beer the bartender slid me another,
“what’s this for?” I said. “the fella over there
bought it for you,” he said pointing to a blind man
and a German Shepherd sitting at a booth in the back.
“you allow dogs in here?”
“nah, but Red’s cool.”
I finished up my first Bud
and walked over to the booth, “hey
thanks for the beer.”
“you should be thanking me, not him
he can’t hear you anyway.” I looked around.
A paw extended out. “the name’s Red,
nice to meet you.”
I shook the paw, “yeah, uh, Louis.
same.”
“have a seat, Lou.
so what brings you to this dump?” the dog asked.
“excuse me, Red you said? I don’t mean to be rude,
but you’re a talking dog.”
“you don’t say huh?”
“sorry, but this is— incredible .”
the German Shepherd grabbed a bottle of beer in his jaws, kicked back his head
and took a pull,
“yeah? so?
you humans do it all the time
and half of that time the only thing that comes out of your mouths is ********
“but why haven’t
I heard of you before? shouldn’t you be famous or
in some record book or —“
“ah, **** that noise” he said,
“I’m too old for that ****
why do you think I’m hanging out at this **** hole anyway?
no one ever comes in here —“
“HEY **** YOU RED!” the bartender yelled.
“NO OFFENSE JOE, BUT YOU GOTTA ADMIT,
YOUR BAR IS PRETTY ****** HA HA.”
“so how do you know—“
“oh Frank? how rude of me, I didn’t
introduce you.” Red turned to the blind man in between us
and pawed his right hand, the man smiled and stuck out his hand.
“nice to meet you, Frank. you have one incredible —“
“I told you he can’t hear. he’s deaf.”
“oh, right. sorry.”
Red took another pull of his beer, “Frank and I are ex-West Sacramento PD.
we were partners. narcotics unit.
a few years back
we got a tip on a **** lab at one of the
trailer parks near here. Frank went inside to see if we had the right place. then
BOOOOM. the whole ******* thing blew. Frank went flying. it was
definitely the place. now he can’t see or hear ****
“jesus.”
he wagged his tail and laughed,
“yeah, poor ******* if he wasn’t ugly enough before burn marks.
nah I’m kidding. Frank’s like
a brother to me, that’s why I take care of him.” Red grabbed a cigarette out of the pack in Frank’s jacket pocket. Frank lit it for him.
he took a long drag, “you smoke?”
Red and I drank until the bar closed.
we smoked, ***********
played dice (1-4-24). it turned out
we had the same taste for classical music,
Chopin over Satie
and we both agreed
Willie Mays was the greatest
to ever swing a baseball bat.
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 7:00 PM UTC
my head
there is a tiny stone
that I sand
knowing
it will never
be smooth
Mar 19, 2014
Mar 19, 2014 at 6:51 PM UTC
