present
for you, i’d remain standing
long after the trees sat down to rest
and the sun had done its best to make you smile
past
i realize your presence was heavy upon me
for years, damning praise and sharp silence
like tags poking out from brand-new clothing, reminding me
to cover you up
and worn, fraying threads betraying the fact
that my feelings for you were long past their due date
and i should just throw them away
present
i never threw them away, i just recycled them
somehow knowing that one day
i would find a use for this feeling, a cause worth standing for
and a body that stood in the same crooked way
you are not the same, you are better
than any face i used to hate, or any voice
that used to grate upon my tired mind
love turned to hate
and now the cycle repeats itself again
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 9:11 AM UTC
I feel air swell my lungs
And I think
What a waste it is
Then I think,
No
No waste at all
And the war begins
Mar 15, 2014
Mar 15, 2014 at 10:28 AM UTC
Oh darling.
When was it decided
That I get no decisions
For myself.
For myself.
For myself.
Your piano fingers creep slowly still
Drag across my wood skin,
Pulling up ridges and ripples
As you play.
For you
I let your ghost drip tears on me still
Staining my leather heart.
Mar 15, 2014
Mar 15, 2014 at 10:27 AM UTC
Lives are built around fairytales.
We all say stories are for children
But then search for dragons
To slay for our lovers.
We all must be
The daring prince
The beautiful maiden
The wicked villain
But I,
I...
I am the thorns that clench
Rough, brittle fingers
Around the tallest tower.
Climbing up, slowly, surely.
And then, the prince comes.
The prince comes
And he scales the great tower.
And he slays the great dragon.
And his maiden
His beautiful, pure maiden,
Has lips that quench like water.
But I am the thorns.
I am the footholds
That the prince climb with.
I am the ladder.
The means.
And, after the tower falls,
It is still my rough, brittle fingers,
Reaching skyward.
Mar 15, 2014
Mar 15, 2014 at 10:26 AM UTC
I tried to let the rain wash away my sins
and all they did was smear.
Big ones, and not-so-big-ones
swirled languidly.
Not angry.
Not raw.
Just,
leisurely.
I expected gaping maws
to open across my skin,
but none came.
I fell to my knees before
the great make-believe keeper of heaver
but my lips held my tongue prisoner
while my pride sawed at my throat.
There are no sins if there are none to speak of.
Dec 12, 2013
Dec 12, 2013 at 5:30 PM UTC