I’m sorry I needed to hear you say it. I’m sorry I was so needy, so desperate to hear you tell me to my face. I’m sorry I wouldn’t let go until you did. But I’ve changed. I know how to take a hint. I won’t bother you anymore. I won’t keep dragging you down, hurting you, taking you to dark places you don’t want to be. I’ll listen to what you’re really saying instead of requiring you to tell me. I’ll read what I’ve been seeing between the lines for a long time, but tried so hard to ignore, simply because I didn’t want it to be true. I know you’re done with me. I’m completely used up. You have no more need for me. I knew it for a long time, but had to hear you say it before I would release you. I know that’s a hard thing to say to anyone, even after you’re finished with them, so I’m done waiting for you, expecting you to. You’re free. Free from me, free from my ******* free from my hurtful abusive captivity. I won’t hurt you anymore.
Mar 2, 2015
Mar 2, 2015 at 10:23 PM UTC
I'm always so wrong
There can't be any right
Drowning in the misery,
and blame this night
Feb 13, 2015
Feb 13, 2015 at 11:13 PM UTC
Withstand cold
Furies of winters snowed
Weather the pain
Of a gentle rain
Face the blaze
As fires graze
And hear thunder
Storming skies asunder
Feb 8, 2015
Feb 8, 2015 at 11:03 PM UTC
I want, oh how I need to run away
I used to have this lovely place
A place I could safely stay
But now I feel such a disgrace
I don't have this sanctuary anymore
It's a sadness I cannot begin to face
I used to bear the key to the door
And I could slip inside when in need
But now the threshold's gone; the horror
I have the energy, and oh what speed!
But I don't even have a faint clue
Where I should go, to where I could flee
I remain frozen, oblivious as to
What I could do, where I could run
I cry in silence. Paralyzed solitude
Feb 1, 2015
Feb 1, 2015 at 6:31 PM UTC
You say you are a friend
A friend until the end
I cannot comprehend
How you can just pretend
To so earnestly lend
The value of a friend
A friend until the end
Why do you just pretend...?
Feb 1, 2015
Feb 1, 2015 at 3:16 PM UTC
I could make your choice easier
I don't really feel like being "one of two"
It wouldn't be fun, but all the easier
Because I can't wait for you to decide "who"
Dec 16, 2014
Dec 16, 2014 at 6:12 PM UTC
Once there was a little brown bear
She had a tree she so loved to climb!
She would climb and climb and she could touch the sky
She loved the view from up high
Now the little bear's tree was sturdy; thick and tall
She knew just from looking around she didn't like other trees at all
But one day she tried to climb a wobbly spruce
It's trunk was so thin and it's swayed so loose
The little bear fell and she hurt her paw
And there hadn't even been a view to saw
So she limped and she squirmed back to her big tree
"Please," she murmured, "I would like to see
The view I have seen many times before
I hope you'll let me climb again, but my paw is sore...."
The tree waved gently, and picked her just a little off the ground
"I promise little one, none sturdier can be found.
I love you and enjoy you, and want you to climb high
I'll hold you for now, mend your paw," then he sighed
"It's up to you to climb, as soon as you feel better,
But my darling bear, though I'm one tree, I will unfetter
For you can climb higher and be safer than others around
Even when you get up very high, and so far from the ground
I won't let you fall, my branches will keep you safe
My daughter, my little brown bear, there's no better place"
And the tree held onto her, only few off the ground
And as the little bear looked up, she found
That the tree's immense love, and it's never ending height
Made for a life time of adventure, a beautiful sight
After her fall, she was scared to again
But then she looked, and a little higher, was her bigger brown bear friend....
Dec 15, 2014
Dec 15, 2014 at 12:39 AM UTC
Can we restart?
Reintroduce ourselves
We'll be strangers for the first little while
But just like before, we'll be fast friends
We'll look out for each other
We'll do what we did before
But with all the more knowledge and experience
I want to get lost in your eyes again
I want to learn you starting from nothing
So tell me:
Starting the hour I get off the plane
And we see each other again after so long
Can it be the first time
We've ever met
Again
Dec 13, 2014
Dec 13, 2014 at 9:48 PM UTC
There are things to lose
But so much more to gain
Dear God help me to see
The value beneath the pain
This person's heart is so
Precious and invaluable
Don't let me lose it in my own grief
And let me know her hurt also makes her lovable...
Dec 13, 2014
Dec 13, 2014 at 8:17 PM UTC
If a tree falls in the forest, and no one is around
Does the fallen tree make a sound?
What if the three is a person,
As their life is cut to the ground?
What if that person, is me.
Dec 9, 2014
Dec 9, 2014 at 5:34 PM UTC