Through tangled paths of doubt and fear I roam
seeking the essence, longing for my home
Each step a question
Each breath a silent plea
to find the self that waits patiently for me
In every scar, a story starts to bloom
No map can guide
no compass point the way
I will find you
I will embrace you,
whole and truly free
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 1:10 PM UTC
Heart racing up
Burned my world to the ground
Pictures playing in my head
Lost my senses each second
Sorry, you said
Say it to my light that you dimmed
Say it to my hate that you caused
My agony
My disgust
My ideas of love that you crushed
Sorry, you said
I’m sorry
Was it really a mistake
I’m sorry
It was the choice of one’s self
Dec 31, 2021
Dec 31, 2021 at 10:07 PM UTC
Doubting
Arguing
Nagging
Pushing
This, this isnt us
Should we be
Supporting
Caring
Loving
Pulling?
That, that is obvious
Isnt it?
Aug 20, 2020
Aug 20, 2020 at 6:37 PM UTC
I am not sure how October looked like to you
though its a damp rainy month at southern hemisphere
I like to see it through north
a month that pictured a big preparation
a preparation to survive through the cold
it feels like the time when earth is trying to protect all of the lives within
maybe you are my earth
where the daylight becomes shorter
the temperature cools down
and leaves fall from trees
to the earth surface
just like me
to you
Oct 16, 2018
Oct 16, 2018 at 5:24 PM UTC
“grow up” they say,
pushed me to the edge with
a chain locked in my feet
“be independent” they say,
hang a string in my neck
and tell me what is wrong and right
“be grateful” they say,
hands offered life
but walk away each night
“help” shall i say,
unable to move without a hand
in my string
“help”,
words choked up in my lungs
brain making senses
am i really that helpless, or you are the one who drained my soul?
May 21, 2018
May 21, 2018 at 2:48 PM UTC
“i put a smile on my face because you exist.”
and i prepared a frown in my palm incase you vanished
Apr 25, 2018
Apr 25, 2018 at 10:30 AM UTC
Pelipur datang menyapa Lara
"lihat aku" bisiknya,
ia datang tepat ketika Lara ingin mengalihkan mata
muak melihat Bara
"sini, ikut aku" bisiknya,
ia datang membawa nada
Lara ingin berdansa!
boleh kah?
"boleh!" teriaknya,
"dansa!" dansa hingga Pelipur menyatu dengan Lara,
menjadi sebuah asa,
bahagia
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 3:25 PM UTC
“when was the last time you feel happy?”
i ask this question a lot,
to my friend who seems got it all
to my relative who got his life all settled
even to my parents
they stopped and lost for a moment
happiness,
is a confusing feeling
you could feel happy
but not really happy,
until you meet your high school friends
your old lover
those warm feelings they give,
hug you with comfort
bring back the old memories,
the wide smile, the non – stop laughter, the feel of being set free, fly and being extremely happy to the most silliest thing, it almost feels like there was no burden
no scary thoughts of the future
no consideration of which bad or good
nothing, just happiness
now i believe you are happy
but dont you miss being really happy?
Jul 2, 2017
Jul 2, 2017 at 4:42 PM UTC
what if i told you
i still count the clock until it hit 2
what if i told you
your ache still making me blue
what if i told you
your smile is giving me a clue
a clue that my soul is still longing for you
what if i told you
i still wait for the days to passed through
what if i told you
i almost fell for every i love yous
what if i told you
the pain didnt stop me from needing you
but what if i told you
you dissapoint me enough
enough to scare me away from running back to you
Mar 1, 2017
Mar 1, 2017 at 8:09 AM UTC
They say when you end up missing someone
pay attention to other things
find as many distractions as you can
they say it easily but one thing they dont know,
I find nothing but your figures
Every tiny details of your presence
Oct 4, 2016
Oct 4, 2016 at 10:13 AM UTC