expectation can cause frustration
and haunts all of us like an infestation
sometimes through parents and their oppression
or, in my case, I create my own expectation
by trying to be perfect in someone else's vision
when I know fully well that will lead to depression
perhaps it's just a result of misdirection
how would I know? there is just too much confusion
Nov 20, 2013
Nov 20, 2013 at 10:32 PM UTC
to this day, I clearly remember
all the silly things I've done
every day holds a new reminder
of all the silly things I've done
many times I seriously regret
all the silly things I've done
many times I wish to forget
all the silly things I've done
I no longer wish to justify
all the silly things I've done
I want to go back in time
to stop the silly things I've done
Oct 11, 2013
Oct 11, 2013 at 11:31 PM UTC
I do not like masks
as they hide the truth
as I am left guessing
and I keep guessing wrong
I understand
that many wish to hide
their own bitter thoughts
behind their own mask
I use it too
but did I use it too much?
now am I too scared
to ever take it off?
Sep 25, 2013
Sep 25, 2013 at 9:37 PM UTC
every day I get the feeling
that I am invisible
sitting alone every day
and knowing I'm left out of the loop
and sometimes just thinking
what I could be doing with other people
when I'm actually just sitting here
wishing someone would walk up and say "hi"
Sep 18, 2013
Sep 18, 2013 at 9:31 PM UTC
my favorite nights
are nights like this
I can hear the wind
and feel the rain
and witness the clouds
storming away
the stars are gone,
covered by the sky
when I look up I can see
what's inside my mind
my favorite nights
are nights like these
where my thoughts
meet reality
Sep 14, 2013
Sep 14, 2013 at 12:24 AM UTC
Why do I get angry all the time?
I don't show it, but I really do have a temper
Is it because I am alone?
Secluded in my home whenever possible?
It the reason my knuckles still have wounds from the last wall I punched
Because I feel like no one understands?
Sep 3, 2013
Sep 3, 2013 at 10:47 PM UTC
Looking back... I can remember my foolishness
I thought I knew everything. I thought I figured everything out
I said some stupid things. Did idiotic acts
And then it took me long... Too long to realize
I knew nothing at all
Sep 2, 2013
Sep 2, 2013 at 10:38 PM UTC
It's been good for a while
Isolated, away from the pressures.
But now i can barley hold back tears
As I am flung back into this social spiderweb
Aug 26, 2013
Aug 26, 2013 at 1:06 AM UTC
I did a lot of thinking in 2 days time
Wondering what and how it happened
And i still don't know
We were both mad that night
Or at least i know i was
Talking about a subject that haunted me for the last year.
What do i want to do now?
I want to erase that night
Think as if it never happened
And take back what i stupidly said
Aug 5, 2013
Aug 5, 2013 at 10:59 PM UTC
Screamed into the air
Punched a wall
Threw a chair
Broke a window
Almost grabbed the knife
Then cried my eyes out
Aug 1, 2013
Aug 1, 2013 at 11:32 PM UTC