I wish you were there when I was crying on the floor. My knees ****** and my eyes sore.
I wish you could have seen the look on my face. Every time my brain whispered your name.
I wish you heard my shouting. Sentences I rehearsed for hours. Just to tell you I'm angry.
I'm angry.
I'm angry.
It never worked.
I wish you could have helped me when I drowned in my sorrows.
But you never was one for love and compassion. I should know.
Nov 22, 2017
Nov 22, 2017 at 5:53 PM UTC
I am an optimistic youth
I sing songs of green day
The night wants a new day
So I'll be brighter and stronger!
If someone ever hurts me
I'll stay close to him forever
To get success in my life
I'd be patient in the suffering.
If you don't like my happiness
Still, I will be friends with you
Tell you, you are my beloved
There is no happiness in this.
Whenever the wrong path calls me
I will not go, I'll never go that way
I'd never take bad and ugly things
I'll take the good and loving things.
Nov 22, 2017
Nov 22, 2017 at 5:50 PM UTC
People always tell you to "face your fears"
And everyday that our hands collide,
You hug me close to your chest so tight I can smell nothing but your expensive cologne I got you for Christmas,
Trusting you with my laughs,
My honesty,
My love.
It's the biggest thing I'm scared of because loving you is my greatest fear. How do you know you are driving off the cliff on a foggy morning? You fall.
And now I feel like I'm falling so abruptly, and I won't be able to get up.
Cause when you finally break my heart I won't even have enough heart to tell myself " i T o l d Y o U S O "
Jul 26, 2017
Jul 26, 2017 at 12:47 AM UTC
The most important thing I've learned this summer is that it's okay if I am my own best friend.
I learned to love myself, and not to be sad when someone else treats me bad or if someone doesn't Treat me the way I treat them, cause the only person who will always be there for me at the end of the day, and every night is me.
I learned to give myself a break, sometimes Not everything is my fault. I'm not useless.
And most importantly, when no one else loves me, I know that I always will.
Jul 25, 2017
Jul 25, 2017 at 12:16 AM UTC
bruised forearm, and broken heart. I was denial that this would start.
You smiled my way and fed me sweet lies. The second we were alone that's when I wanted to die.
The screeching was heard through the plexiglass but it never left these four walls. You kept me trapped.
SHAKING became the only h u m a n l y thing that I posses.
You kidnapped my heart I was t r a p p e d.
I should have listened to the signs. Like when you questioned me a hundred times about my guy friend.
Maybe, if I would have notice you were so belligerent. I would still be here.
But, I am gone.
And you feel like you have done nothing w r o n g
Apr 5, 2017
Apr 5, 2017 at 8:43 PM UTC
Why did you leave?
Was is it you,
Or was it me?
Was it these people,
The place you have been deceived?
The lies in the walls.
The spurious entity all around.
I tried to hold on to you when I discovered your extent. So I moved a little close but you coward away. Maybe, just maybe it was me. The reason you were so persistent not to s t a y.
Apr 3, 2017
Apr 3, 2017 at 7:06 PM UTC
My mom always told me not to do drugs, "you'll get addicted"
She also told me not to drink Alcohol, "you will get addicted"
Then, she would say never smoke "you'll get addicted"
When you avoid the possible. You still find something to get addicted to.
I was trying to find the void of all the bad things. Until, I learned the worst thing I got addicted to was you.
Apr 1, 2017
Apr 1, 2017 at 9:42 PM UTC
You told me... I was an angel, maybe that's why I was so persistent on holding Lucifers hand. You loved the way my eyes were soft, then, you were the reason they were always bloodshot.
All I wanted was a sunny day, but running into you was a hurricane. You felt like paradise that's why I was left coughing up the salty water that you blew my way.
The sand was dark, but your soul was darker, you swore. I believe you were bluffing but as I was buried. I was a fool, no more. You tried to warn me with caution tapes and sirens, but I guess I was deaf and a little blind to your warning signs.
Apr 1, 2017
Apr 1, 2017 at 4:45 PM UTC
I fell in love with the words you spoke. Delicately lying to me. You probably believed it for a little bit too.
The first couple months were great,
The last couple were good.
Your feelings kept on getting weaker while mine were stronger. But you never would have noticed. Cause your blind of devotion.
I still think about you everyday. You aren't the same. You don't even remember my name.
Feb 12, 2017
Feb 12, 2017 at 11:25 AM UTC