deshawn-l-downs - Hello Poetry

Im slowly starting to forget how the sweet tincture of you always makes things taste better than they were How the most mundane of tasks could be a grandiose adventure But most importantly I realize That my view of you was so much better than the reality before me And im happy Not that i now think less of someone so far gone But that i can feel again You were a black hole of emotion ******* everything in not even letting joy escape I thought that i had passed over that horizon edge and been forever lost I should have taken my sage advice i had given you in the beginning: Nothing lasts forever and time heals all wounds

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Feb 26, 2018

Feb 26, 2018 at 2:24 AM UTC

Escaping The Horizon

Im slowly starting to forget how the sweet tincture of you always makes things taste better than they were How the most mundane of tasks could be a grandiose adventure But most importantly I realize That my view of you was so much better than the reality before me And im happy Not that i now think less of someone so far gone But that i can feel again You were a black hole of emotion ******* everything in not even letting joy escape I thought that i had passed over that horizon edge and been forever lost I should have taken my sage advice i had given you in the beginning: Nothing lasts forever and time heals all wounds

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I've always wanted to be someone else Smarter Wiser Cooler Someone better than who I am now But today Today I want to be nothing

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Oct 29, 2017

Oct 29, 2017 at 12:07 AM UTC

Want

I've always wanted to be someone else Smarter Wiser Cooler Someone better than who I am now But today Today I want to be nothing

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There was a moment Only briefly Where I wished you were here To relish in this moment With me But our time has passed And I stand here Alone

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Oct 28, 2017

Oct 28, 2017 at 11:57 PM UTC

What was

There was a moment Only briefly Where I wished you were here To relish in this moment With me But our time has passed And I stand here Alone

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Here I am again All 3 am thoughts Scrambled mind and twisted fingers I can't help but remember that time we Nevermind **** that thought for just one moment Better yet make it forever I've finally found someone else Someone who doesn't annoy me with their very presence Who can hold a descent conversation A lady friend who's down to earth enough, yet just a little full of herself to make it cute So why the **** Is it 3 am And I'm thinking of you I thought I was done with this I thought the script had been written but you didn't like the pages so you ripped them out and tore them to shreds But didn't bother to rewrite them You could've at least rewritten them I would've settled for a D-rate horror movie where it's written so poorly they try and make it so that they subvert their own clichés and end up making it even worse You could've at least given me a descent expla- **** it who cares I'm happier now So I was walking by the book store today and thought of your favorite autho- I'm happier now. I took a picture of the sky last week, something I never used to do because I never saw beauty in the world until I looked into your ey- I'm happier now. Period. I was laying next to Amanda and her hair fell slightly over her face and when I went to move it away I was surprised at who was behind it, I was expecting it to be yo- Im.....happy? I'm sitting awake at 3 am all scrambled mind and twisted fingers I can't help but wonder Why do my thoughts linger on you

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May 23, 2017

May 23, 2017 at 3:04 AM UTC

3 am thoughts

Here I am again All 3 am thoughts Scrambled mind and twisted fingers I can't help but remember that time we Nevermind **** that thought for just one moment Better yet make it forever I've finally found someone else Someone who doesn't annoy me with their very presence Who can hold a descent conversation A lady friend who's down to earth enough, yet just a little full of herself to make it cute So why the **** Is it 3 am And I'm thinking of you I thought I was done with this I thought the script had been written but you didn't like the pages so you ripped them out and tore them to shreds But didn't bother to rewrite them You could've at least rewritten them I would've settled for a D-rate horror movie where it's written so poorly they try and make it so that they subvert their own clichés and end up making it even worse You could've at least given me a descent expla- **** it who cares I'm happier now So I was walking by the book store today and thought of your favorite autho- I'm happier now. I took a picture of the sky last week, something I never used to do because I never saw beauty in the world until I looked into your ey- I'm happier now. Period. I was laying next to Amanda and her hair fell slightly over her face and when I went to move it away I was surprised at who was behind it, I was expecting it to be yo- Im.....happy? I'm sitting awake at 3 am all scrambled mind and twisted fingers I can't help but wonder Why do my thoughts linger on you

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Everything is so fickle Our light can extinguish as quick as a slight gust of wind on a candle It's strange One minute you exist And the next Oblivion You were here for what seemed like an eternity at first But I guess that's what life does to us Were so busy living it we don't stop to actually LIVE it You knew that best You always tried to tell me "Take it slow man" "Don't be so uptight, just ride the wave bro" I don't know why but you calling life "the wave" made me happy You, the meat head redneck **** Who would've guessed that would be where you find the most humble and down to earth individual I sure didn't at first It took time but you always tried to be my friend I regret that I didn't open up sooner So many missed memories Lost fishing trips Cold ones un opened "#Gainz" to be had God if only I could go back in time Awnser that one last text See you one last time They say everything gets easier with time, but time only scabs over the wound I hope that heaven does exist I hope your cracking open a cold brewski with Jesus right now looking down on all of your friends cheering them on I hope heaven exists and I'm a descent enough person to get in so one day, I can punch your *** in the chest, call you a ******* and chill over a campfire with our buddy yiungling.

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Apr 25, 2017

Apr 25, 2017 at 5:18 AM UTC

A cold one to you

Everything is so fickle Our light can extinguish as quick as a slight gust of wind on a candle It's strange One minute you exist And the next Oblivion You were here for what seemed like an eternity at first But I guess that's what life does to us Were so busy living it we don't stop to actually LIVE it You knew that best You always tried to tell me "Take it slow man" "Don't be so uptight, just ride the wave bro" I don't know why but you calling life "the wave" made me happy You, the meat head redneck **** Who would've guessed that would be where you find the most humble and down to earth individual I sure didn't at first It took time but you always tried to be my friend I regret that I didn't open up sooner So many missed memories Lost fishing trips Cold ones un opened "#Gainz" to be had God if only I could go back in time Awnser that one last text See you one last time They say everything gets easier with time, but time only scabs over the wound I hope that heaven does exist I hope your cracking open a cold brewski with Jesus right now looking down on all of your friends cheering them on I hope heaven exists and I'm a descent enough person to get in so one day, I can punch your *** in the chest, call you a ******* and chill over a campfire with our buddy yiungling.

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I Can finally say I don't hurt like I used to Anymore Keyword being: Anymore But I still hurt And it's not the late night 3 am thoughts that keep me up I no longer lose sleep over someone who hurt me so much But it's during the day When I'm working Or when I'm with friends That I wonder "What is she doing right now?" "How has she been?" "Is she happy?" "I hope so" I think back on the times we had The fun we shared And at times I wish I could go back And other times I just wish it never happened I wonder if I'll ever feel that type of happiness again. If I'll ever stop feeling this pain in my chest when I think of her I've never been as happy as I was with her and I wonder if I'll ever get to have that again. She's found someone new And I'm stuck in this pain I guess it's true No two loves the same But I wonder if I'll ever love again

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Mar 24, 2017

Mar 24, 2017 at 4:49 AM UTC

I wonder

I Can finally say I don't hurt like I used to Anymore Keyword being: Anymore But I still hurt And it's not the late night 3 am thoughts that keep me up I no longer lose sleep over someone who hurt me so much But it's during the day When I'm working Or when I'm with friends That I wonder "What is she doing right now?" "How has she been?" "Is she happy?" "I hope so" I think back on the times we had The fun we shared And at times I wish I could go back And other times I just wish it never happened I wonder if I'll ever feel that type of happiness again. If I'll ever stop feeling this pain in my chest when I think of her I've never been as happy as I was with her and I wonder if I'll ever get to have that again. She's found someone new And I'm stuck in this pain I guess it's true No two loves the same But I wonder if I'll ever love again

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God I ******* HATE her *** Not really though I was dragged through hell and back on broken glass pulled by the noose around my neck and I can't bring myself to hate you Now all I do is miss her The way she smelled The way the small of her back was so soft I could never stop touching it How she would look at me and say I love you I miss how she loved me I can't hate someone I love so ******* much can i? I've tried so ******* hard to I've tried so ******* hard to forget you But I can't I can't become someone new when she holds half of who I was A long time ago I told her that nothing she could do to me could make me hate her And I hate myself for it but I was right

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Feb 21, 2017

Feb 21, 2017 at 11:38 AM UTC

I couldnt hate her if i tried

God I ******* HATE her *** Not really though I was dragged through hell and back on broken glass pulled by the noose around my neck and I can't bring myself to hate you Now all I do is miss her The way she smelled The way the small of her back was so soft I could never stop touching it How she would look at me and say I love you I miss how she loved me I can't hate someone I love so ******* much can i? I've tried so ******* hard to I've tried so ******* hard to forget you But I can't I can't become someone new when she holds half of who I was A long time ago I told her that nothing she could do to me could make me hate her And I hate myself for it but I was right

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I sometimes wonder What things truly could have been I wonder if things are better now that I'm not around I used to look forward to the future but now I'm constantly looking over shoulder hoping it doesn't come for me Things change so fast I would like to compare people to the seasons but we change our minds and feelings like we change clothes during the day Each outfit a new personality Which outfit did she try on today I wonder? The one that still loves art The bookworm outfit The one that still creates something everyday The one whose poetry sings emotion into the heart of others Or the one I know nothing about The one that now likes things that were never a second thought to her One that now contradicts past words beliefs and emotions People change personalities Like they change clothes And unfortunately for me You outgrew your old wardrobe

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Feb 16, 2017

Feb 16, 2017 at 10:34 AM UTC

New wardrobe

I sometimes wonder What things truly could have been I wonder if things are better now that I'm not around I used to look forward to the future but now I'm constantly looking over shoulder hoping it doesn't come for me Things change so fast I would like to compare people to the seasons but we change our minds and feelings like we change clothes during the day Each outfit a new personality Which outfit did she try on today I wonder? The one that still loves art The bookworm outfit The one that still creates something everyday The one whose poetry sings emotion into the heart of others Or the one I know nothing about The one that now likes things that were never a second thought to her One that now contradicts past words beliefs and emotions People change personalities Like they change clothes And unfortunately for me You outgrew your old wardrobe

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I read that if you truly love something You never let it go If you can't go a single day without thinking about it Then hold on with all your might But you wanted to let go I've tried so hard to be angry It's the only thing that makes the pain go away But I can't I can only sit here and wish with all my might that you were still here Next to me Sharing these covers In this bed that used to smell like you My mind flashes through all of our memories together Trail hikes Late nights Movies God she was everything to me She was my person And at one point in time I was hers When did that change

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Jan 26, 2017

Jan 26, 2017 at 11:22 PM UTC

Untitled

I read that if you truly love something You never let it go If you can't go a single day without thinking about it Then hold on with all your might But you wanted to let go I've tried so hard to be angry It's the only thing that makes the pain go away But I can't I can only sit here and wish with all my might that you were still here Next to me Sharing these covers In this bed that used to smell like you My mind flashes through all of our memories together Trail hikes Late nights Movies God she was everything to me She was my person And at one point in time I was hers When did that change

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something good happened today it was insignificant and so small that i cant even remember what it is now my first thought was to text her and tell her about it. but that snot the way things are anymore all missed calls and unanswered texts what have we become this isn't the future i imagined the only future ive imagined in a very long time when will i get a moment of happiness and the first thought i have be to text the only one i care about ive found an escape in the bottom of a glass but its only temporary a cure for the night to wash the loneliness and sadness away every hour i want to text her begging her for things not to end for our friendship our love our life back its all so pointless now all missed calls and unanswered texts its all pointless

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Jan 23, 2017

Jan 23, 2017 at 6:25 PM UTC

missed texts

something good happened today it was insignificant and so small that i cant even remember what it is now my first thought was to text her and tell her about it. but that snot the way things are anymore all missed calls and unanswered texts what have we become this isn't the future i imagined the only future ive imagined in a very long time when will i get a moment of happiness and the first thought i have be to text the only one i care about ive found an escape in the bottom of a glass but its only temporary a cure for the night to wash the loneliness and sadness away every hour i want to text her begging her for things not to end for our friendship our love our life back its all so pointless now all missed calls and unanswered texts its all pointless

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