Light is returning,
to my mental sky,
Light is returning,
as with the sun.
The storm is passing,
my mind is lightening.
The burden will never be gone,
but it is lessening.
The sun is shining,
and for once I smile.
The warmth spreads to my feet,
it soothes my soul,
as it hasn't in months.
Call me crazy,
call me high,
neither am I,
I'm just happy.
Happy for the light.
Happy for them.
Happy for those I call my family.
Happy for my family of friends.
Apr 17, 2015
Apr 17, 2015 at 1:24 AM UTC
I’m sorry.
I’m sorry all I can do is sit around playing love songs on guitar.
I’m sorry all I do is waste away.
I’m sorry i want to be too drunk or high to know whats going on all the time.
I’m sorry my existence is one of love and hate.
I’m sorry that I have hurt you, all of you.
I’m sorry I can’t make up my mind between you three.
I’m sorry that I make it hard on you three.
I’m sorry for relying on you to keep me alive.
I’m sorry that you might cry reading this.
I’m sorry that I always want to die.
This isn’t how it should be.
Maybe in another life.
Maybe then.
Maybe we can love like we were meant to.
Maybe it won’t happen.
Maybe he won’t take you away.
Maybe you won’t pick him over me.
Maybe you won’t run from me.
Maybe.
But knowing my luck, then I’ll be the one to choose.
Between all of you.
My lifeholders.
My loves.
Apr 10, 2015
Apr 10, 2015 at 1:50 AM UTC
Why'd she do it,
why'd she choose?
The exact same,
as the one who came before?
Why'd she choose,
the other ?
Not me,
no never.
Not me,
not ever.
Always the other.
The better.
Cause everyone is better
than little old Derek.
Mar 13, 2015
Mar 13, 2015 at 7:46 AM UTC
I have a bottle of pills,
itd be easy as pie,
to slip too many,
into my mouth,
and slip into void.
What's stopping me?
I don't know.
Maybe I will. Maybe I wont.
Tomorrow will tell the story.
Mar 8, 2015
Mar 8, 2015 at 10:51 PM UTC
I am a spark,
I ignite a flame,
The flame of thought,
Which is needed so dearly,
But these days are grim,
hardly a coal in sight,
For many I try to light,
are made of damp straw.
Feb 27, 2015
Feb 27, 2015 at 11:01 AM UTC
I'm outside,
Away from you,
Staying here,
Unable to move.
"She hates you,"
Whispers the rain,
"I know,"
I murmur back.
When will the sun shine?
Why does the world fight me?
All I want is her.
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 1:56 PM UTC
From the highest high,
to the lowest low,
you follow me loyally,
but I don't know where to go.
Feb 16, 2015
Feb 16, 2015 at 1:47 PM UTC
I had pirates coffee, you see.
Pirates coffee, it really suits me.
Wake up tired beyond belief,
chug some, oh what a relief.
Pirates coffee, 70 proof in nature,
But I'm fine, I'd really wager.
Cause of this wonderful drink,
She is beautiful, its not gone in a blink.
I'd really love to stay this way,
But as you can see, I can't, okay?
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 9:16 AM UTC
Repetition
Will be the death of me.
I can't do the same song and dance
more than once or twice.
But with you, it doesn't repeat.
With you, it won't replay.
With you, all of it is different.
Familiar yet different.
And I like it.
Jan 21, 2015
Jan 21, 2015 at 10:11 PM UTC
You are the sun,
as I am the moon,
You shine bright for all to see,
And my light is just like your mirror.
Yet loyally, I'll shine on.
Jan 18, 2015
Jan 18, 2015 at 2:10 PM UTC